INfusion 47 ebook - Summer 2012 - NMIT
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Aaron Hughes<br />
‘I walked into a door handle.’<br />
‘I fell over.’<br />
‘I missed the swing of the punching bag.’<br />
‘It was my fault.’<br />
‘I made him angry.’<br />
I sat, staring at the other occupants of the room, listening to the excuses<br />
that these battered wives had used in the past to explain their injuries and<br />
bruises.<br />
I looked to my feet, thinking how stupid I was not to have realised what<br />
was happening to me every time ‘I love you’ was said. All the apologies. The<br />
remorse. I looked up to see the head of the group staring at me expectantly.<br />
‘Would you like to share your story?’ she asked me.<br />
I didn’t know what to say. When I go home I’m scared, but I didn’t think<br />
they would understand. I act calm, confident, in control. But my spouse scares<br />
me. I’m alone when I go home; my family doesn’t know, how can I tell them?<br />
How do I tell them that the day I said ‘I do’, I lost my soul?<br />
‘I married Jordan when I was eighteen. We were young and in love. I<br />
thought I was going to be that happy for the rest of my life. But something<br />
changed. Work got harder … or maybe we just weren’t old enough to realise.’<br />
I paused. How do I explain this? How do I explain what happened to us?<br />
What happened to me?<br />
‘It started when she wanted to have a baby.’ I thought back to that day.<br />
She had walked into the house and thrown me onto the bed. Our usual slow<br />
love-making was replaced by a fast, painful bout of sex. I only lasted ten minutes,<br />
but the torture she put me through felt like I had been restrained for<br />
hours. I had woken up the next morning covered in bruises, my ears filled<br />
with her apologies.<br />
‘She said she was at the right time in her cycle, and I believed her.’ Two<br />
months later she told me she was pregnant. I was going to have a child, when<br />
we were still children.<br />
‘Leslie, my sister, said I was too young, that we were fooling ourselves<br />
into believing we could take care of a child. She was right. We couldn’t.’ Jordan<br />
went back to work three months after Tara was born.<br />
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S.L. Higgins<br />
Jordan