The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
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THE PRIMORDIAL ERROR<br />
disappearance of personal disciplines thus results not in the absence of all<br />
discipline, but in the general, primordial discipline which obliges me, without<br />
protecting trickery, to face up to the antagonism of the Not-Self, to the<br />
spectacle of my personal non-divinity. And this ultimate discipline cannot be<br />
exceeded as easily as have been the personal disciplines; the ideal form<br />
which it comprises is no longer a conscious form, valorised by my<br />
consciousness, and which my consciousness can easily revoke. It is a<br />
subconscious, subterranean form, which I cannot seize and devalorise<br />
directly, but whose slow devalorisation I am obliged to await with an ardent<br />
patience, in a vigilant impartiality, by really living the idea of Zen: 'Let go;<br />
leave things as they may be.'<br />
Let us examine attentively in what consists this primordial discipline<br />
and the subconscious ideal image on which it is founded. Let us remember<br />
what we said just now. In the universal, original Unconscious I know that I<br />
am Buddha; on my subconscious, or primary personal plane, I pretend to be<br />
Buddha as a distinct being, in so far as I am face to face with the Not-Self, I<br />
then pretend that I never ought to be denied by the Not-Self, that I should<br />
triumph always and completely over the outer world; then, in my<br />
consciousness, I doubt the legitimacy of my subconscious pretention and I<br />
experience distress in face of the redoubtable Not-Self (one understands why<br />
the feeling of guilt is attached to every defeat). As long as I had a personal<br />
ideal I escaped from the subconscious obligation of succeeding always and<br />
absolutely; a personal domain was chosen to represent the whole, and my<br />
success in this chosen domain kept me immune from all negation experienced<br />
elsewhere. But here my understanding has devalorised all conscious ideal<br />
form; then there falls on my shoulders the primordial obligation of<br />
triumphing always and completely over the Not-Self. But this primordial<br />
obligation is subconscious. At the same time my judgment of myself<br />
withdraws into the shadow; my conscious observation is no longer on myself<br />
to evaluate myself; but fixed on the outer world, on the episodes of my<br />
struggle to live and to succeed, insisting on being affirmed and refusing to be<br />
denied. My 'states of mind', positive or negative, affirmed or denied, no<br />
longer depend on the form of my mechanisms (beautiful or ugly according to<br />
whether it resembles or does not resemble a particular ideal form), they<br />
depend on my psycho-somatic fluctuations, my successes or my failures in<br />
the outside world, and on my coenaesthetic states of well-being or of<br />
discomfort. According to the circumstances affecting my psycho-somatic<br />
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