The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist

PASSIVITY OF THE MIND
identification with my organism which results in the formation of the
samskaras.
This intimate process is the passive mode according to which my
attention functions. It is because my attention is passive that it is alerted by a
mobilisation of energy already produced, at a late stage at which there is no
longer anything else to be done but to disintegrate this energy. My attention
is not, actually, in a state of autonomous, unconditioned vigilance; it is only
awakened by mobilisations of energy which are produced in my organism,
and its awakening is conditioned by these mobilisations. Thus I am always
faced with a fait accompli. As soon as the moment-without-duration is passed
in which my energy wells up, still informal, from non-manifestation, this
energy is as though snapped up by the formal world; the chance has been
missed of storing it up, informal, with a view to the future explosion of satori.
The disintegration into imaginative-emotive forms is inevitable. My energy is
now in the domain in which my egotistical identification reigns, and it bumps
up against this wall in disintegrating itself. Everything happens as though,
finding myself faced with my mobilised energy, I were afraid to keep it. In
my exclusive identification with my organism I implicitly consider this as
'being', permanent, immutable, invariable. The mobilisation of my energy, on
the contrary, shows me my organism as moving, impermanent, limited. I
therefore refuse the mobilised energy which this intolerable vision proposes
to me; for my exclusive identification with my organism acts in such a way
that, paradoxically, I refuse to be this limited organism (Saint Paul: 'Who will
deliver me from this body of death?'). I claim not to feel this organism. (Note
that, in psychic and medicinal extasies, the body seems to lose its density.)
The mobilised energy which fills my organism, which gives it substance, I
hasten to disintegrate.
The disintegrating processes are then inevitable when my attention,
functioning in the passive mode, is alerted by my already mobilised energy.
These processes should on no account be considered as 'bad', as something
'that should not be'. They do not reveal a 'bad' condition of my manifested
being, but only an imperfect condition, incomplete, unfinished. Thus it is in
my identification with my organism on which these processes depend; and
this identification is not mistaken, but is merely incomplete in that it excludes
my equal identification with the rest of the Universe. The egotistical illusion
does not consist in my identification with my organism but in the exclusive
manner in which this identification is realised. The explosion of satori will
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