The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist

THE ZEN UNCONSCIOUS
The profound plane, that is to say, my state, depends in part on the
forms present on the surface plane. The affirming or negating events that I
perceive there influence my state; and the forms imagined under the influence
of my state react on this state in a positive and negative vicious circle. But
my state depends also on my physiological coenaesthesis; 1 insomnia,
indigestion, blacken it; alcohol, opium, whiten it.
In short I am unceasingly occupied by two things at the same time; I
am occupied at once by my existence in the outside world and in calculating
inwardly the chances of a favourable or unfavourable verdict in the general
action concerning my being and my nullity. My attention is divided between
these two occupations; this explains why the neurotic patient often presents
disturbance of superficial mental concentration and disturbance of perception
of the outside world. So great a part of his attention is taken up in calculating
the verdict of his action, so little is left to him for his contacts with the
outside world, real or imagined, that he receives an impression of the
unreality of the outside world and of the impossibility of managing his
surface mentality.
My state, white or black, agitated or calm is non-formal. Light shows
up forms but it is itself without form. Agitation is likewise without form;
forms are more or less in a state of agitation, but agitation itself is without
form. Therefore all perception of the profound plane is without form. On the
contrary perception on the surface plane is formal. Therefore perception on
the surface plane is evident to me, while my perception of my state is latent. I
can only become conscious of it as of a coenaesthesis more or less agreeable
or disagreeable, the agreeable corresponding with the white and the
disagreeable with the black.
It is important that I distinguish between these two consciousnesses
which correspond with the two planes which divide my attention, and that I
indicate them by different names. I will call my surface consciousness
'objectal consciousness' and my profound consciousness 'subjectal
consciousness'. These two consciousnesses are the two unconciliated parts
between which is torn in pieces my psychological consciousness in my
dualistic egotistical condition in which I perceive everything from the angle
of the opposition subject-object. I say 'subjectal' and 'objectal' and not
1 The word 'coenaesthesis' indicates the total inner perception that we have of our organism.
Beside the five senses by means of which we perceive the outside world our coenaesthesis is a
kind of sixth sense by means of which our organism perceives itself in its ensemble.
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