The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
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SEEING INTO ONE’S OWN NATURE<br />
as to perceive what is called my coenaesthesis, what I shall call here my<br />
physical coenaesthesis. If someone asks me: 'How are you feeling at this<br />
moment from the "moral" point of view?' I look into myself so as to perceive<br />
that which I will call my psychic coenaesthesis (that which is called also my<br />
state of mind or my mood). And when someone asks me: 'How are you<br />
feeling at this moment from every point of view at once?' I look into myself<br />
so as to perceive what I shall call my total coenaesthesis. It is this last way of<br />
looking which constitutes the essential effort in order to obtain one day the<br />
'sudden' release of 'vision into my own nature'.<br />
In order to study this special inner perception which is total<br />
coenaesthesis we will use the similarities which relate it to physical<br />
coenaesthesis. Two points are interesting. First of all coenaesthesis is a<br />
perception obtained by a de-contraction; the coenaesthetic sensation of my<br />
right arm, for example, which consists in feeling the existence of my arm, or<br />
in feeling my arm from within, cannot be felt if my arm is contracted; in this<br />
state of contraction the sensibility of my arm is projected to the surface; I<br />
must decontract my arm in order to feel it in its central axis, as though its<br />
sensibility flowed back then into the marrow of its bones. Again,<br />
coenaesthetic perception is in-formal. When my arm is contracted I feel its<br />
form; when on the contrary it has lain as relaxed as possible for some minutes<br />
and its sensibility has flowed back entirely into its central axis, I feel this arm<br />
certainly, I feel it as existing (this corresponds with the painless sensation of<br />
the missing limb that a man has, whose limb has been amputated), but I no<br />
longer feel its form. If I think of it from the spatial point of view I feel it to be<br />
as big as the whole universe, as though its form had burst and was dissolved<br />
in the totality of space; I have therefore certainly an in-formal perception of<br />
it.<br />
<strong>The</strong>se two points, de-contracted perception and in-formal perception,<br />
are common to the three coenaestheses. But the physical coenaesthesis differs<br />
from the two others from a point of view that is capital, the point of view of<br />
time. <strong>The</strong> perception of my physical existence is capable of continuity in<br />
duration; I can feel my arm, or the whole of my physical body, 'from within'<br />
during a certain continuous period. On the contrary, when I perceive my total<br />
coenaesthesis, that is to say when I feel myself from within in my psychosomatic<br />
totality, it is only in an instanta<strong>neo</strong>us flash, and I cannot hold it with<br />
the least temporal continuity; this perception escapes me at the same moment<br />
that it reaches me. It escapes me in its in-formal purity and drifts at once<br />
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