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- Page 12 and 13: My father told my mother that her m
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- Page 18 and 19: In the 1960s the government finally
- Page 20 and 21: The Indian people living in the jun
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- Page 26 and 27: Burke, a "townie" in Wooster, Ohio
- Page 28 and 29: Let me jump forward to a great misu
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- Page 34 and 35: physically irritating, intellectual
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- Page 38 and 39: ones. I was very depressed when the
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- Page 42 and 43: y February we were in love, with on
- Page 44 and 45: The Late Great Franklin Ace The oth
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- Page 54 and 55: understand him, and finally physica
- Page 56 and 57: Grave Possibility, then you're the
- Page 58 and 59: In the Year of the Deer-Christ Your
- Page 60 and 61: But all this destroying does no goo
- Page 62 and 63: They Died Off the Walkway Several y
- Page 64 and 65: The Three Strikes of Life The Organ
- Page 66 and 67: it's maybe you felt too good. Peopl
- Page 68 and 69: Couvade and the Cloud of Unknowing
- Page 70 and 71: When the full moon had shown its fa
- Page 72 and 73: play-acting, I'd have done a lot be
- Page 74 and 75: in not knowing what it meant to be
- Page 76 and 77: But while I was spreading the news
- Page 78 and 79: henceforth exists between father an
- Page 80 and 81: The only remaining issue to underst
- Page 82 and 83: outward ambivalence, the expectant
- Page 84 and 85: But only a flesh-and-blood baby, sq
- Page 86 and 87: Ritual couvade achieved a variety o
- Page 88 and 89: Just as the mother discovers (gener
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"I'll tell you what you did," the m
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me of the very fat stub of a worn-d
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strengthened the reorganizing venou
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What happens now? Interim scans sho
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Half a year later, one rainy Monday
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Death, Hell, and Santa Claus My kid
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to platte out the full ideology of
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morbid streak when I was an adolesc
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In the Sauna After my workout and s
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"Yeah, that's what I told him." Don
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I spent the day exercising a rebus
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Age of Edison I got a call from a f
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just his way of tweaking the world.
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Liz and Artie looked like they had
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A Jar in Tennessee A month after th
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illusion of infinite regression in
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Atlas & I When I was 14 I sent off
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around in the back of the restauran
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section. I want to get it back as s
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The Greatest Arcade Hero Ever The m
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"Oh, dad, that's really good. How a
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Bathtub Madonna A neighbor has remo
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truths, is encoded in our DNA. Ever
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unable to move his limbs. I glanced
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Brain Games In the months after my
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pulleys and cables. It was embarras
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however, can be treated with a few
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When I do set it down, I will be le
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impelled pioneer neurosurgeons to g
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"I am so glad you came to me," he g
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Following the Fox This year animals
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Florence McCready 'Tom, here's a st
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'That should have been the end of t
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was required of her now? 'She decid
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'The Lightning that Doesn’t Stop
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Gruchow, didn't realized when he hi
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home, attending Episcopal and Trini
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Rain and Rudeness After five days o
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Curbside “You drop me off here at
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The episode ends, and I slink away,
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cheering me on. Yours sincerely, et
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Please let me know if this means my
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And this seemed like a much easier
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To a Dog, Pooping I love the fall.
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goes on.] It is not that he or I en
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More stares. 'Goddamnit Beau, you g
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Scottish and Irish Besides I grew u
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She explained to me how the English
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The funny part? I loved the sorrowf
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into existence. Like a good wine, a
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She did the work, even if she had t
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George I was in LA, and a mutual fr
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Don't Bother Me Every night in the
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To the Kilroys of the world, locked
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Goodbye Tim Hardin My Friend When y
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want to take your mother to. Nancy
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my only friend, Charlie," Ned said
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visit a friend of mine, a black cop
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The odd thing was, Rip's parents, b
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It's funny how things come around.
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dad is upstairs packing his things.
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series of transformations. First, I
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last thoughts on the boulevard: If
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The desert was an incredible place
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his little brother by himself. Dave
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inger for pictures I saw later of T
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Bag of Rocks You might not remember
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… We feel naked without the weigh
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... Why you needed to feel special
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iver... And now it is blowing in th
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the real story of noncity living. P
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along the Rock River. He was like a
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He told, over a meringued wedge of
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funny to get mugged, lost, or hobbl
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Outwardly, Paul was doing well. Tho
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of the club. Hemming describes a Pa
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many of the Gruchows and formed its
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screams of the children, the teache
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his misgivings toward the people he
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“That would be nice,” he said.
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him reaching out to others who are
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At the Renaissance Festival The vil
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Nincompoops Last night I took a pho
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What my dad doesn't know is how dee
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This stuttering figure I describe m
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perspective. And once a month, to p
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Red Fruit One night when I was ten,
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we'd been robbed, and we were. (199
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Rachel and Jon and I looked at each
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'A Son of a Sea Cook' I had some go
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unfailingly competitive, letting me
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And the vision was that my dad was
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A Spectacle of Oneself At church on
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Did you hear the stabbing sounds of
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unto the tabernacle of holies. Grou
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wring tears from grass. He was phen
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After lunch we walked in his mother
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peers railing against - self-pity.
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sagging, his shoulders rounded, and
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(1993) 294
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Plus, Clare she had a little white
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That semester, Jeremy spent much of
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was trembling in his hand - even de
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"Hey, Mulligan, wait up," one of th
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and snapped his shin like a piece o
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But the thing was, Flessum appears
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about, looking from face to face, s
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I Was a Sixties Protester On a Twin
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yearned to be like them, detached a
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driving a car into a fast food rest
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fathers of Cuero, Texas challenged
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the heat of a 300 watt Sylvania bul
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He went to Catholic grade school an
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and they couldn’t leave their lit
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on the lake. He stands alone at the
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gone." The wipers slap away the err
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considered USA Today my friend, esp
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vanish. I turned, disconsolate, to
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informed them that she has decided
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freed slaves referred to a structur
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on its belly, as if all this tumult
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people like me pinned their hopes o
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accosted in any way, and who, despi
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Red Wheelbarrow I was looking for m
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"If I were you, I'd call Office Max
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Basement Toilet A few years ago, we
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to lay his head. All he had was a g
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Reunion Tale I was drunk. I was 30
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the opportunity. He and I stared at
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Kathy was not supposed to live long
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And it was the part of my personali
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eautiful day in May. I ran home, no
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I didn't want to. I couldn't help i
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The Alien Corn It turned out to be
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and nursed her through her final il
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Chevy Nova, automatic transmission,
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Everything was a story for me, and
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Shortly after I arrived the paper h
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shield us from this simple truth of
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had to stay very concrete and imagi
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and clever, dancing around his hulk
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surrealism and solipcism - that it
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watched the waves roll in. Though w
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snuggle with the computer rather th
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Friends and Tumors In January of 19
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The only friends who disappointed m
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Erv then astonished me by imitating
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On a good day, on a really, really
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My mom: wives should allow husbands
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Shook Foil Tony, a friend of mine,
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home number, figuring a nurse would
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And wears man's smudge and shares m
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My Conversation with Officer Bennet
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much alike. I seem strong, but insi
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pictures of me in Guatemala, around
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Jacob the Crow Every now and then s
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Because God knows what you did To t
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And, yes, a Jew died for you, too W
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That's it. I'm not sure how to feel
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about suffering, and it's abusive t
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Sometimes I get upset with punks, i
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election that is already over, boug
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The Blue Bicycle The snowy woods ec
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clearing, in spring, by myself, not
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Serpent There was a commotion in ou
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One night, after the zoo shut down,
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us to prevent the mortal stab, and
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creatures still lived among us, abl
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And now, up on the steps of the sac
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to tree. I hear his breath roll dow
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I had too much to drink, and I saw,
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have a good one about once a month.
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The daughter rolled her eyes. "It's
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The Opera Thief Audrey loved the op
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not report her to the authorities.
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Xmas Eviction Journal entry, Decemb
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People always say, wow, what a grea
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know nuttin.’ So this is my Chris
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feeling parents can scarcely expres
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pursue you no matter where you run.
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unway model. I mean that, across th
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healthier, give or take a few body
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Oddfathers This is an essay about m
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2001: A Space Odyssey, which we had
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entered, smiled politely at me, kne
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poetry event. The three headliners
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during my stay in Worthington. Paul
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Sometimes, driving around Minneapol
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like a parent, picking up toys and
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Even if you refuse to be damaged, y
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We are lucky today. We have a rich
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world. God isn’t Superman, catchi
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dreams of the life cut short. Of hi
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death. Why would you assume that? C
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You know it, too, or you wouldn’t
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