# HIV HEROES
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the campaign<br />
Text Philipp spiegel<br />
when do I<br />
tell her?<br />
THE IMPLICATIONS OF AN<br />
h i v - p o s i t i v e<br />
HETERO LIFE<br />
Being a heterosexual male with <strong>HIV</strong> is<br />
filled with emotional contradictions. Having<br />
been infected rather recently, my experiences<br />
concerning the matter are rather<br />
recent—and yet <strong>HIV</strong> has changed my life<br />
in numerous way. Ways I cannot even fathom<br />
just yet, for they are in constant fl ow.<br />
The diffi culties and confrontations concerning<br />
this new life are numerous, and a<br />
lot of exploration is still necessary.<br />
A new routine<br />
My first months were the most difficult<br />
ones. Plagued with doubt about my<br />
actions, there were two main concerns<br />
that dominated my life. For one, the<br />
medical aspect. With knowledge and<br />
research, I could deal with my initial<br />
fears of this aspect rather quickly. Being<br />
born in the 80s, with the deadly threat<br />
of this disease being hammered into<br />
me from early on, properly done research<br />
soon alleviated my fear of a gruesome<br />
death. I informed myself, and<br />
still do, about therapies and medical<br />
implications. Of course, the privilege<br />
of living in a Western country with excellent<br />
medical facilities and treatment<br />
options gives comfort and has made<br />
life almost normal. My gratefulness towards<br />
the amazing scientific and medical<br />
progress concerning this disease<br />
is never-ending. At least on a medical<br />
level, knowledge truly is power.<br />
Knowing that this is something that will<br />
be there for the rest of my life has a<br />
strong impact. Death itself has become<br />
a constant. Not a threat, but “company”.<br />
An awareness of my own mortality,