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<strong>The</strong> Power of the Platform - Speakers on Life<br />
<strong>The</strong>n, on June 12th, 1994, my sister – Nicole Brown<br />
Simpson - was murdered. My pain was indescribable<br />
and overwhelming. For the next ten years, I worked<br />
in corporate America. In September of 2004, I was<br />
engaged to be married when - just four days before<br />
the ceremony – my fiancé cancelled our wedding.<br />
That loss triggered an emotional tailspin. I became<br />
self-destructive and so clinically depressed that I<br />
could not get out of bed. I was paralyzed – spiritually<br />
and mentally.<br />
I was magnificently angry. I drank too much and selfmedicated.<br />
I was a ticking time bomb of confusion,<br />
grief, devastation, and negative emotions. Finally,<br />
at a family gathering a few weeks later, I exploded.<br />
Every emotion I’d ever suppressed in my entire<br />
life came spilling out violently. I lashed out at my<br />
loved ones, devastating some of the most important<br />
people in my life.<br />
Later, alone in my bedroom, I held pills in my<br />
trembling hand. I wanted the pain to end. Yet,<br />
somew<strong>here</strong> deep inside me, I realized that I didn’t<br />
want to die. I could sense that I was <strong>here</strong> for a<br />
greater good. It was at that moment that my sister<br />
Dominique entered my room. I told her, “Get me<br />
away from <strong>here</strong>.” <strong>The</strong> next morning, she helped me<br />
to take my first step toward healing: acknowledging<br />
my inability to cope and wanting to get help.<br />
I was admitted to the Behavioral Health Department<br />
in Laguna Beach, California, w<strong>here</strong> I was an<br />
inpatient for 10 days and then an outpatient for<br />
two months. From that one-time experience, I<br />
learned how much mental illness affects everyone<br />
in a family. My mother asked, “Do I have to watch<br />
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