E-Book of Articles - World Federation of Music Therapy

Schulberg, Cecilia: Many Vioces In One ...
concept, I_ve never done that, with voices, even with family, I never did at
that level - I have a feeling of my aunts [tears] they_re the collective -
#5- [Chesnokov’s “Salvation is Created,” pause] my father had two sons
killed in the war, I just got an image of them, not knowing them [tears] -
there_s no justice (there_s no justice) - [tears continue] (what are you
feeling?) sadness over all those people who I would have loved to known
and know me (can you let yourself feel the sadness?) [tears] - I ‘m feeling a
circle of people putting their arms around me - (how is that for you?)
comforting - I started feeling my father_s presence - [pause, deep breath] I
never experienced the other side - (what’s that like?) just very different, a
collective thing, such a new experience, it_s comforting (let yourself
experience it) - it_s like a little bit of a past is there -
#6- [Pachelbel’s “Canon,” tears] back to the beauty of life - and just how
lucky I am - and that I don_t want to blow it with my junk inside, what I_m
carrying, would be letting Hitler win, through osmosis - [pause] life_s just
incredible (life_s just incredible) [smiles] yeah - I just want to reach to the
highest point and go - (can you let yourself do that?) yeah, my hands are
tingly, I_m flying, light - I_m feeling a lot of energy in my hands (feel that
energy) - my whole body feels energized - refreshed - [pause] I often
massage to this music - I basically feel very happy at this moment (let
yourself feel the happiness) - a soaring feeling - like I got in touch with
something deep inside, feeling cleansed - I got a glimpse of something deep
in my soul that I never did - a message to grab life and enjoy it - I_ve
always known this but I got stuck a little, it doesn_t mean I_ll do it - I want
to put my arms around my mother - (can you do that?) [puts arms around
herself] I’m sad, I didn_t give her pleasure with a grandchild, it would have
given her pleasure, me too, there_s a pain in my stomach, a big burden and
pain I have - she doesn_t think I_m really happy and at that level I_m not - I
fake it and she knows it [arms still around herself].
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