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Hmmm i dont know what am i suppose to write,<br />
i dont even know where to start this <strong>story</strong>. Maybe i<br />
should start it at the moment when we chat for the<br />
first time.<br />
Yeah maybe thats not the first time we talk<br />
beca<strong>us</strong>e we have been in the same gug<strong>us</strong> when we get<br />
into senior high school, and you have chat me too<br />
when i offer the sbd sketchbook to whole class and you<br />
chat me to order the sketchbook. But that day is the<br />
first time i talk with a ’purpose’. Yes, a special purpose.
Hmmm i remember that moment, the whole<br />
school go to bali on a study tour but im not join<br />
beca<strong>us</strong>e....... i j<strong>us</strong>t dont want to hahahaha. Yes, you<br />
m<strong>us</strong>t be having fun with the others over there. On the<br />
other side, im stay in depok enjoy my time with<br />
nothing to do. Mostly i spent my day on ivan ho<strong>us</strong>e<br />
maybe beca<strong>us</strong>e i dont remember it correctly and spent<br />
my night on warsi with salim. Yeah, he is the first one<br />
i asked about you, he is my old friend since junior high<br />
school so he know me so much and i tr<strong>us</strong>t him. We<br />
talked a lot about it and after that night i start to make<br />
some progress with you. And yes!, i made my first<br />
progress, i asked you about the cover of sbd cd beca<strong>us</strong>e<br />
i remember you are the one who took a picture of it.<br />
Altought its a very short chat, at least i made some<br />
progress hahaha.
My motorcycle got a scratch!!, hmmm i dont know<br />
what kind of animal could make this kind of scratch<br />
so i asked to aththayya beca<strong>us</strong>e she have a cat maybe<br />
she can answer my question. I also asked other person<br />
but then i remember, why dont i asked you?. So i asked<br />
you, how many paws do cat have, and you answered<br />
cat have 5 paws and that is our first real conversation.<br />
Altought its only a short conversation but for me its a<br />
big progress!. Yes i understand, its so strange that a<br />
random guy asked you about things that not <strong>us</strong>ual to<br />
talk about but thats all i can do..... .
A couple days after that you chat me, wow, thats<br />
a surprise. Im not quickly reply your message so i can<br />
control my self first before i reply it. Its kind of strange<br />
beca<strong>us</strong>e why the hell you chat me..... is there<br />
something important? And many random thought<br />
passed my mind. Then i reply it, but the answer is kind<br />
of weird you m<strong>us</strong>t know it better beca<strong>us</strong>e you are the<br />
one who type it hahaha. The next day i greet you<br />
beca<strong>us</strong>e you didnt reply the message last night and you<br />
send me something that made me surprised, you send<br />
me a picture of cat paws. Im really appreciate the<br />
things that you do. After that we have a little<br />
conversation about cat paws.
Hmmmm maybe you know what happened next.<br />
After a couple consideration i choosed to walk away. I<br />
saw no progress in my effort, its all stuck in the<br />
beginning. I see no sign of good respond from you,<br />
also i thought you are a kind of girl that didnt want to<br />
make a relationship and our friend who help me also<br />
that kind of person too, so where the hell my chance<br />
was?. The other reason is i know someone that you<br />
like, and its like.... “damn how can i get closer to her<br />
if my comparison is people like him?” thought there<br />
is no more possibility for me to get closer and have a<br />
relationship with you. In the other hand, there is<br />
another choice with more possibility for me. Its my<br />
logical brain that told me to gave up on you and start<br />
a <strong>story</strong> with the new one beca<strong>us</strong>e i have a very short<br />
time limit.
I want to find the right one before we graduate<br />
from senior high school beca<strong>us</strong>e i think it will be very<br />
hard to find a good girl and a kind of girl that i really<br />
want in university. So i walked away from you, it was<br />
a very hard decision, you could ask mine and dafi how<br />
long i try to find a concl<strong>us</strong>ion. Yes its a very hard<br />
decision, to leave the girl that have all things you have<br />
been looking for and start a new <strong>story</strong> with someone<br />
that i thought have a bigger chance, or stay with you<br />
but it seem i mostly get rejected or have no progress at<br />
all and stuck in a friendzone.
Yeah maybe you already know all my love <strong>story</strong><br />
before, how i being treated by all the girl before. When<br />
i start a <strong>story</strong> with you all i thought is to be carefull<br />
and not hope too much on you so i wont be hurt if<br />
you left me instantly. Hmmm another reason why i<br />
left you that time is beca<strong>us</strong>e that time im not trained<br />
to fight for someone i love, its have been a long time<br />
since the last time i do it. Hmmm to be honest i never<br />
fight for the one i loved, all of them come easily and<br />
need no effort to get their heart, so my <strong>story</strong> with you<br />
was very hard to do.
Yeah its a very hard decision, you could ask mine<br />
and dafi, both of them choose you, It makes me<br />
conf<strong>us</strong>ed to choose. Yes i have to choose, if i start a<br />
new <strong>story</strong> but not give up on you, in the worst case it<br />
will be a chaos if both of the person have a feeling for<br />
me, and also i didnt want to repeat my old mistake, so<br />
i have to choose before its too late. Yeah i dont want<br />
to hurt people again, yes i dont want to hurt you. So<br />
after all consideration, i choose to walked away.
Time passed, you know what happened, all i got<br />
was a sad memories, all my prediction was proofed<br />
wrong by god, yeah its a disaster. I dont know what to<br />
do, all i know is im stuck here, in a place where all i<br />
got is a regret for everything i have done. I think why<br />
the hell i left you when i dont even know what kind of<br />
girl i will face. Yes, that day i realized, im stubborn
You m<strong>us</strong>t know my pray to god, yeah that<br />
amazing pray that lead me to you. I hope to met by<br />
the right person in situation where both of <strong>us</strong> cant<br />
deny. And it happened!, you and me being in the same<br />
group of kwh, a perfect accident huh?. No no it doesnt<br />
stop there, not long from that you got a seat in front<br />
of me, did you remembered it?. Indirectly we were<br />
forced to talk to each other beca<strong>us</strong>e we were in the<br />
same group. Aaaaaand i got surprised when i know<br />
that you feeling lost when i walked away. Yeah i felt<br />
like i see a little light, then i prepared to start over<br />
again with you.
I see hope, but also a doubt, will you accept me<br />
again?, after all the things that happened. But we never<br />
know if we never even try, so i start my move.<br />
Remember that day when i ask to join when you and<br />
your friend looking for material for our kwh project?,<br />
yes thats a very great <strong>story</strong> beca<strong>us</strong>e thats the first time<br />
i got home in only 3 minutes beca<strong>us</strong>e im in hurry to<br />
join you. Hmmm even its little bit disappointing<br />
beca<strong>us</strong>e i failed to took you home, do you ever imagine<br />
how crazy i am to ask that in front of you?, it took<br />
about 3 minutes to decide should i say it or not and a<br />
lot of courage of course aaaand the answer is<br />
disappointing. Yess thats my fool beca<strong>us</strong>e i didnt say i<br />
bring a car, but.... in the end im still disappointed<br />
beca<strong>us</strong>e with all my effort i failed to get what i want.
The next moment is when we work on our kwh<br />
project in front of physics lab and tristan make a very<br />
good opening for me to show how much i care when<br />
he say he want to hold your hand and i yelled at him,<br />
until today i still wonder how do you feel that moment,<br />
beca<strong>us</strong>e im felt so happy and thanked to tristan after<br />
that moment. Hmmm the next moment its when we<br />
work for our kwh project again in the Saturday and<br />
accidently my brother play the good grief song beca<strong>us</strong>e<br />
that song already in his playlist beca<strong>us</strong>e i saved it there,<br />
aaaand it looks like very happy that moment. The best<br />
part of it is when you chat me......, yeah what a surprise<br />
beca<strong>us</strong>e i always wait for the right moment to do that<br />
but then you start it first. Im very grateful for that<br />
moment.
Since that day we often talk even its only in the<br />
chat and not in real life. And another special moment<br />
is when i help you with the chemical tube, huftt if you<br />
know i bought it in a very very far place j<strong>us</strong>t for you<br />
beca<strong>us</strong>e you are very important for me . Little by<br />
little i got closer with you aaand, puff, that shit<br />
happened. The moment when you tell your feeling<br />
about me to your friend, owh damnn, the things that<br />
im afraid the most is really happen. Hufft, i thought<br />
its only my worst case prediction but it really happen.<br />
But i already here, and im gonna continue no matter<br />
what it takes, you know why? Beca<strong>us</strong>e im already in<br />
love with you and im gonna sacrifice anything and give<br />
my best for you, even you not doing the same.
Even aththayya said that stat<strong>us</strong> isnt important as<br />
long as both of <strong>us</strong> be honest to each other, so im gonna<br />
continue my journey. Remember that day when we sit<br />
next to each other? Whoaah its a very amazing week<br />
for me even i cant express my self beca<strong>us</strong>e of nervo<strong>us</strong><br />
to sit next to you. Remember why i bought a new<br />
phone? Yes, that time you and the whole class play<br />
telegram and i know you will b<strong>us</strong>y and i will lost your<br />
attention, so i bought a new phone j<strong>us</strong>t for you......
Yeah we made a lot of memories to be<br />
remembered. Day by day we got closer and start to be<br />
honest to each other. Im very grateful for everything<br />
that happened <strong>between</strong> <strong>us</strong>.
After all the things that happened i officialy can<br />
make you mine! Yeaaah you m<strong>us</strong>t be remembered that<br />
day on the gas station..... i still smile whenever i<br />
remember that moment.<br />
In the end of this <strong>story</strong>, i hope you enjoy read all<br />
of it and you m<strong>us</strong>t know that im really grateful for<br />
having you by my side<br />
I LOVE YOU