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Hmmm i dont know what am i suppose to write,<br />

i dont even know where to start this <strong>story</strong>. Maybe i<br />

should start it at the moment when we chat for the<br />

first time.<br />

Yeah maybe thats not the first time we talk<br />

beca<strong>us</strong>e we have been in the same gug<strong>us</strong> when we get<br />

into senior high school, and you have chat me too<br />

when i offer the sbd sketchbook to whole class and you<br />

chat me to order the sketchbook. But that day is the<br />

first time i talk with a ’purpose’. Yes, a special purpose.


Hmmm i remember that moment, the whole<br />

school go to bali on a study tour but im not join<br />

beca<strong>us</strong>e....... i j<strong>us</strong>t dont want to hahahaha. Yes, you<br />

m<strong>us</strong>t be having fun with the others over there. On the<br />

other side, im stay in depok enjoy my time with<br />

nothing to do. Mostly i spent my day on ivan ho<strong>us</strong>e<br />

maybe beca<strong>us</strong>e i dont remember it correctly and spent<br />

my night on warsi with salim. Yeah, he is the first one<br />

i asked about you, he is my old friend since junior high<br />

school so he know me so much and i tr<strong>us</strong>t him. We<br />

talked a lot about it and after that night i start to make<br />

some progress with you. And yes!, i made my first<br />

progress, i asked you about the cover of sbd cd beca<strong>us</strong>e<br />

i remember you are the one who took a picture of it.<br />

Altought its a very short chat, at least i made some<br />

progress hahaha.


My motorcycle got a scratch!!, hmmm i dont know<br />

what kind of animal could make this kind of scratch<br />

so i asked to aththayya beca<strong>us</strong>e she have a cat maybe<br />

she can answer my question. I also asked other person<br />

but then i remember, why dont i asked you?. So i asked<br />

you, how many paws do cat have, and you answered<br />

cat have 5 paws and that is our first real conversation.<br />

Altought its only a short conversation but for me its a<br />

big progress!. Yes i understand, its so strange that a<br />

random guy asked you about things that not <strong>us</strong>ual to<br />

talk about but thats all i can do..... .


A couple days after that you chat me, wow, thats<br />

a surprise. Im not quickly reply your message so i can<br />

control my self first before i reply it. Its kind of strange<br />

beca<strong>us</strong>e why the hell you chat me..... is there<br />

something important? And many random thought<br />

passed my mind. Then i reply it, but the answer is kind<br />

of weird you m<strong>us</strong>t know it better beca<strong>us</strong>e you are the<br />

one who type it hahaha. The next day i greet you<br />

beca<strong>us</strong>e you didnt reply the message last night and you<br />

send me something that made me surprised, you send<br />

me a picture of cat paws. Im really appreciate the<br />

things that you do. After that we have a little<br />

conversation about cat paws.


Hmmmm maybe you know what happened next.<br />

After a couple consideration i choosed to walk away. I<br />

saw no progress in my effort, its all stuck in the<br />

beginning. I see no sign of good respond from you,<br />

also i thought you are a kind of girl that didnt want to<br />

make a relationship and our friend who help me also<br />

that kind of person too, so where the hell my chance<br />

was?. The other reason is i know someone that you<br />

like, and its like.... “damn how can i get closer to her<br />

if my comparison is people like him?” thought there<br />

is no more possibility for me to get closer and have a<br />

relationship with you. In the other hand, there is<br />

another choice with more possibility for me. Its my<br />

logical brain that told me to gave up on you and start<br />

a <strong>story</strong> with the new one beca<strong>us</strong>e i have a very short<br />

time limit.


I want to find the right one before we graduate<br />

from senior high school beca<strong>us</strong>e i think it will be very<br />

hard to find a good girl and a kind of girl that i really<br />

want in university. So i walked away from you, it was<br />

a very hard decision, you could ask mine and dafi how<br />

long i try to find a concl<strong>us</strong>ion. Yes its a very hard<br />

decision, to leave the girl that have all things you have<br />

been looking for and start a new <strong>story</strong> with someone<br />

that i thought have a bigger chance, or stay with you<br />

but it seem i mostly get rejected or have no progress at<br />

all and stuck in a friendzone.


Yeah maybe you already know all my love <strong>story</strong><br />

before, how i being treated by all the girl before. When<br />

i start a <strong>story</strong> with you all i thought is to be carefull<br />

and not hope too much on you so i wont be hurt if<br />

you left me instantly. Hmmm another reason why i<br />

left you that time is beca<strong>us</strong>e that time im not trained<br />

to fight for someone i love, its have been a long time<br />

since the last time i do it. Hmmm to be honest i never<br />

fight for the one i loved, all of them come easily and<br />

need no effort to get their heart, so my <strong>story</strong> with you<br />

was very hard to do.


Yeah its a very hard decision, you could ask mine<br />

and dafi, both of them choose you, It makes me<br />

conf<strong>us</strong>ed to choose. Yes i have to choose, if i start a<br />

new <strong>story</strong> but not give up on you, in the worst case it<br />

will be a chaos if both of the person have a feeling for<br />

me, and also i didnt want to repeat my old mistake, so<br />

i have to choose before its too late. Yeah i dont want<br />

to hurt people again, yes i dont want to hurt you. So<br />

after all consideration, i choose to walked away.


Time passed, you know what happened, all i got<br />

was a sad memories, all my prediction was proofed<br />

wrong by god, yeah its a disaster. I dont know what to<br />

do, all i know is im stuck here, in a place where all i<br />

got is a regret for everything i have done. I think why<br />

the hell i left you when i dont even know what kind of<br />

girl i will face. Yes, that day i realized, im stubborn


You m<strong>us</strong>t know my pray to god, yeah that<br />

amazing pray that lead me to you. I hope to met by<br />

the right person in situation where both of <strong>us</strong> cant<br />

deny. And it happened!, you and me being in the same<br />

group of kwh, a perfect accident huh?. No no it doesnt<br />

stop there, not long from that you got a seat in front<br />

of me, did you remembered it?. Indirectly we were<br />

forced to talk to each other beca<strong>us</strong>e we were in the<br />

same group. Aaaaaand i got surprised when i know<br />

that you feeling lost when i walked away. Yeah i felt<br />

like i see a little light, then i prepared to start over<br />

again with you.


I see hope, but also a doubt, will you accept me<br />

again?, after all the things that happened. But we never<br />

know if we never even try, so i start my move.<br />

Remember that day when i ask to join when you and<br />

your friend looking for material for our kwh project?,<br />

yes thats a very great <strong>story</strong> beca<strong>us</strong>e thats the first time<br />

i got home in only 3 minutes beca<strong>us</strong>e im in hurry to<br />

join you. Hmmm even its little bit disappointing<br />

beca<strong>us</strong>e i failed to took you home, do you ever imagine<br />

how crazy i am to ask that in front of you?, it took<br />

about 3 minutes to decide should i say it or not and a<br />

lot of courage of course aaaand the answer is<br />

disappointing. Yess thats my fool beca<strong>us</strong>e i didnt say i<br />

bring a car, but.... in the end im still disappointed<br />

beca<strong>us</strong>e with all my effort i failed to get what i want.


The next moment is when we work on our kwh<br />

project in front of physics lab and tristan make a very<br />

good opening for me to show how much i care when<br />

he say he want to hold your hand and i yelled at him,<br />

until today i still wonder how do you feel that moment,<br />

beca<strong>us</strong>e im felt so happy and thanked to tristan after<br />

that moment. Hmmm the next moment its when we<br />

work for our kwh project again in the Saturday and<br />

accidently my brother play the good grief song beca<strong>us</strong>e<br />

that song already in his playlist beca<strong>us</strong>e i saved it there,<br />

aaaand it looks like very happy that moment. The best<br />

part of it is when you chat me......, yeah what a surprise<br />

beca<strong>us</strong>e i always wait for the right moment to do that<br />

but then you start it first. Im very grateful for that<br />

moment.


Since that day we often talk even its only in the<br />

chat and not in real life. And another special moment<br />

is when i help you with the chemical tube, huftt if you<br />

know i bought it in a very very far place j<strong>us</strong>t for you<br />

beca<strong>us</strong>e you are very important for me . Little by<br />

little i got closer with you aaand, puff, that shit<br />

happened. The moment when you tell your feeling<br />

about me to your friend, owh damnn, the things that<br />

im afraid the most is really happen. Hufft, i thought<br />

its only my worst case prediction but it really happen.<br />

But i already here, and im gonna continue no matter<br />

what it takes, you know why? Beca<strong>us</strong>e im already in<br />

love with you and im gonna sacrifice anything and give<br />

my best for you, even you not doing the same.


Even aththayya said that stat<strong>us</strong> isnt important as<br />

long as both of <strong>us</strong> be honest to each other, so im gonna<br />

continue my journey. Remember that day when we sit<br />

next to each other? Whoaah its a very amazing week<br />

for me even i cant express my self beca<strong>us</strong>e of nervo<strong>us</strong><br />

to sit next to you. Remember why i bought a new<br />

phone? Yes, that time you and the whole class play<br />

telegram and i know you will b<strong>us</strong>y and i will lost your<br />

attention, so i bought a new phone j<strong>us</strong>t for you......


Yeah we made a lot of memories to be<br />

remembered. Day by day we got closer and start to be<br />

honest to each other. Im very grateful for everything<br />

that happened <strong>between</strong> <strong>us</strong>.


After all the things that happened i officialy can<br />

make you mine! Yeaaah you m<strong>us</strong>t be remembered that<br />

day on the gas station..... i still smile whenever i<br />

remember that moment.<br />

In the end of this <strong>story</strong>, i hope you enjoy read all<br />

of it and you m<strong>us</strong>t know that im really grateful for<br />

having you by my side<br />

I LOVE YOU

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