Delving Into My Identity as Gray
Portfolio 1 - 2016
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abolishing the fear of “too much”. As one could imagine, it’s bled into my personal life <strong>as</strong> well,<br />
making me appreciate myself, no matter the identity.<br />
A book that proved to be very instrumental in this discovery w<strong>as</strong> The Art of Stillness by<br />
Pico Iyer. Though he wrote about time management and its effects on the soul, I took away from<br />
it more a lesson on finding one’s free self and the peace and stillness that brings. Again, I found<br />
abandon to be the answer he w<strong>as</strong> nudging me towards. Through glimpses of the lives of various<br />
people, Iyer re<strong>as</strong>sured me that I’m not too old to start over, the years I’ve w<strong>as</strong>ted don’t have to<br />
be a “w<strong>as</strong>te”, and stillness doesn’t have to mean quiet. He w<strong>as</strong> the first person to get through to<br />
me in a soul-deep way, that it is not only okay, but admirable to be me, and he only said it in a<br />
whisper.<br />
Given that Quint<strong>as</strong> <strong>Gray</strong> is new to me, I am confident that these new-found strengths<br />
(fiction and fiction-b<strong>as</strong>ed genres) will only continue to grow and improve, and quite rapidly, I<br />
predict. Though I feel unsure in technique at times, I’m still eagerly moving forward, like a deer<br />
learning to walk, refusing to stop trying because there is so much world to explore. Realizing<br />
that words are legs that can take me anywhere I could ever want to go h<strong>as</strong> shown me that I<br />
need more practice in my wild. I need to push further. I need to dare bigger. Freedom isn’t small,<br />
it isn’t pretty, it isn’t sensible or linear. It’s all of it. It’s everything I am, it’s every identity, it’s the<br />
white, the gray, the black, it’s everything I’ve thought of and everything I will never think of, it’s<br />
further than I can push, but it’s also right here. Inside of me. And at the heart of the progress I<br />
wish to make <strong>as</strong> a writer, is my desire to continually learn how to open all the doors and write<br />
from the inside out.