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<strong>The</strong> Veterans’ Magazine<br />
<strong>Issue</strong> <strong>32</strong> | July 2017<br />
Chennai 6 Latest<br />
Read the latest on the recent<br />
protests and the hunger strikes<br />
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Six veterans being held in prison in<br />
Chennai, India are still awaiting the<br />
outcome of an appeal to overturn their<br />
conviction of possession of illegal arms<br />
despite thier authorising paperwork<br />
allowing them to carry arms in their<br />
professional anti-piracy role.<br />
<strong>The</strong> six were detained in October 2013 after<br />
coming in to port to refuel. <strong>The</strong>ir ship was<br />
boarded by the Indian authorities and they<br />
were then subsiquently arrested over<br />
ludicrous arms charges. Despite the charges<br />
originally being dropped, they were<br />
eventually reinstated and the entire crew of<br />
35, was sentenced to 5 years in prison in<br />
January 2016. An appeal was lodged over<br />
130 days ago for the Indian government to<br />
reconsider the charges but still, there has<br />
been no answer from the Indian Judicial<br />
system.<br />
‘Hunger Strike’<br />
On Thursday last week, Billy Irving, Nick<br />
Simpson, John Armstrong and Estonian and<br />
Ukrainian nationals who were also wrongly<br />
jailed, began a three day hunger strike to<br />
protest their innocence and demand the<br />
Indian authorities reconsider the charges.<br />
<strong>The</strong> hunger strike ended on Sunday with all<br />
men being in good health. <strong>The</strong> British<br />
government has tried on no less than 54<br />
Chennai Six Protests Latest<br />
Two Soldiers Killed in Tank Accident<br />
US Shoots down Syrian Warplane<br />
Chennai Six Protests asks<br />
again for answers and Justice<br />
occasions to intervene including a recent visit<br />
to India where <strong>The</strong>resa May spoke directly to<br />
the Indian Prime Minister over the six. As yet,<br />
nothing has been done. <strong>The</strong> protests come<br />
amidst the political confusion over who<br />
should be running the country in Parliament<br />
following the recent election. Last month the<br />
closing of Parliament meant that all petitions<br />
put to the government were closed until the<br />
reformation of the new government. This<br />
action destroyed the growing petition that the<br />
Chennai Six had opened leaving the only<br />
option but to start again. However, the<br />
petition raised through change.org is still<br />
currently running with over 400,000<br />
signatures. If you would like to sign the<br />
petition please click on the link at the bottom<br />
of the page.<br />
‘Pressure’<br />
Last Wednesday, Lisa Dunn, the brother of<br />
Nick Dunn, one of the six, released a video<br />
on youtube explaining the situation. She<br />
highlighted the need to keep the pressure up<br />
on the British Government to, in turn, put<br />
pressure on the Indian Government to see<br />
sense and deliver the long awaited and<br />
overdue verdict on the case. Lisa, along with<br />
other family members have campaigned<br />
tirelessly for justice. <br />
<strong>The</strong> SBT Says...<br />
Enough is enough. <strong>The</strong>se guys are suffering<br />
terribly because of a very wrong miscarriage<br />
of Justice. British and Indian<br />
Governments, start doing the right thing<br />
and realise the damage that is being done<br />
to these brave lads and their families. It’s<br />
time to get this sorted out once and for all.<br />
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Hundreds of protesters<br />
turned out in London on<br />
Friday to demand the<br />
release of the Chennai Six.<br />
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<strong>The</strong> Chennai Six,<br />
An operator’s view on the situation<br />
Former SAS Trooper, Security<br />
Operator, Best Selling Author and<br />
now Veterans Campainer ‘Big’ Phil<br />
Campion tells it how it is.<br />
Sometimes controversial but always<br />
honest and from the hip. Phil is a<br />
very welcome addition to the<br />
<strong>Sandbag</strong> <strong>Times</strong> Team<br />
Having spent six years at sea myself<br />
travelling through pirate infested<br />
waters, I can fully empathise with the<br />
lads being held in India and i’m disgusted at<br />
the Indian authorities for wrongly imprisoning<br />
the whole crew, at the company who have all<br />
but abandoned the men. At the lack of media<br />
support because it is not sexy enough to<br />
make the news in any real capacity. At the<br />
British government who are more interested in<br />
cutting deals related to BREXIT and handing<br />
over aid money to a country with a space<br />
programme. <strong>The</strong> irony of the fact that these<br />
men have protected Indian seamen incapable<br />
of defending themselves is beyond<br />
incomprehension. Even if the paperwork<br />
supporting the weapons was incorrect which<br />
it was not and if the company involved owed<br />
monies, so what. It has nothing to do with<br />
those who are now incarcerated. <strong>The</strong><br />
authorities have gone after the low hanging<br />
fruit and are no better than the pirates who<br />
plague the seas holding good men to ransom.<br />
Why not just keep the ship or the cargo if<br />
there is a problem? Why not confiscate the<br />
weapons? <strong>No</strong>, the corrupt Indian authorities<br />
have seen a potential bargaining chip. <strong>The</strong>ir<br />
reasoning is impaired by greed.<br />
<strong>The</strong> lads are surviving because those near<br />
and dear are keeping their hopes alive. Food<br />
parcels are delivered regularly to ensure that<br />
they are fed and watered. Left to languish,<br />
they would not even receive food and water. I<br />
have spoken to those who have visited the<br />
stricken operators and have heard of the<br />
unnecessary hardship. <strong>The</strong> beatings they<br />
have taken because the authorities are scared<br />
of them. <strong>The</strong> Embassy has made a token<br />
effort on their behalf but don't want to rock the<br />
boat. (<strong>No</strong> pun intended).<br />
What can we do? I personally will be pushing<br />
this out wherever i can. I have a little bit of<br />
notoriety and am known to a few – i will be<br />
spreading the word. I would hope that anyone<br />
who has any decency at all will help by raising<br />
awareness whenever possible.<br />
Eventually this will land on a desk that gives<br />
a damn and can help repatriate these lads<br />
who were just doing their job to provide for<br />
their families.<br />
Cheers all, Phil.<br />
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Have Your Say....<br />
Send your comments in to us here at the SBT. Comment about anything within the<br />
Magazine, Website, Radio, Facebook, Twitter and Linkedin. All we ask is to keep the<br />
comments relative to the topics and be respectful. That’s it. <strong>No</strong>w, fire away...<br />
Last weekend was the launch of our Chennai Six project. We invited readers to comment on<br />
the situation. Here’s some of your comments.<br />
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<strong>The</strong> SBT posted...<br />
This month’s issue of the <strong>Sandbag</strong> <strong>Times</strong> will<br />
be highlighting the Chennai 6. Apart from<br />
reports on the peaceful protest and the<br />
recent hunger strike, we shall be looking at<br />
why they are still incarcerated and what is<br />
happening, legally, to get them back home.<br />
However, the SBT is asking for you to<br />
comment on the situation. I will free up a<br />
page (maybe 2) for all of your comments. If<br />
you feel passionately enough about this<br />
miscarriage of justice then please, please<br />
comment. I will then ensure this edition is<br />
stuck under the noses of everyone I possibly<br />
can. MP’s included. I know it will be nothing<br />
new to them but at least we can show that<br />
this is not going away, nor the people that are<br />
supporting them. Help us to keep it in the<br />
public. Have your say!!<br />
Gremlin replied...<br />
June 18, 2017 at 5:48 pm<br />
Too often we are distracted by the news of<br />
the day. Many news articles are written to sell<br />
today’s stories. Yesterdays headlines are too<br />
quickly forgotten. <strong>The</strong> lives of people in<br />
yesterdays news, do not change because<br />
“new” news is on the front page. I have read<br />
that 45 times this has been brought up the<br />
the Indian Government, that is hundreds of<br />
times too few. One life is too many to be<br />
forgotten, the 6 names here are just the tip of<br />
the story, family, friends & the whole country<br />
are also part of the tragedy. It is time to bring<br />
them home.<br />
Jane said...<br />
June 19, 2017 at 5:22 am<br />
<strong>The</strong> British government should hang their<br />
heads in shame for not intervening and<br />
bringing this situation to justice. <strong>The</strong> lives of<br />
these innocent men can not and must not be<br />
swept under the carpet. It’s a disgrace that<br />
these men are still behind bars. Wake up and<br />
o something to help them. <strong>The</strong>y are innocent<br />
men, wrongly accused of crimes they didn’t<br />
commit. It makes me feel ashamed to be<br />
British when the very people who can put this<br />
right wash their hands of it. Grow some balls<br />
politicians, look at all the evidence of injustice<br />
in this case, fight for these men. <strong>The</strong>y all gave<br />
years of their lives to the service of their<br />
country, give them back their lives that they<br />
had wrongly taken away from them.<br />
Jim said...<br />
June 19, 2017 at 10:16 am<br />
Sadly, there is an awful lot of bad news in the<br />
media, and folks “cherry pick” what they think<br />
are important issues. In the aftermath of the<br />
Al Blackman (Marine A) case, there have<br />
been a number of significant events that have<br />
grabbed the new headlines. Agreed, those<br />
with loss of life or endangerment will always<br />
take precedence BUT that does not mean<br />
there is nothing else going on in the world.<br />
This country sends a lot of money abroad,<br />
helping other countries overcome some of<br />
the “wrongs” they suffer. It just so happens<br />
that one of these countries….India get an<br />
awful lot of funding from our shores, and<br />
return the favour by encarcerating the very<br />
men that help to keep their waters safe. <strong>The</strong><br />
Chennai 6 are 6 ex mil chaps that are in a<br />
place they should not be….period. <strong>The</strong>y are<br />
not alone….30+ individuals from their ship<br />
are in the squalour of an Indian jail. Pressure<br />
needs to be brought to bear on those<br />
responsible for this travesty of justice.<br />
Witholding some of the funding would go<br />
some way to showing that we do not tolerate<br />
this sort of action, without repercussions. <strong>The</strong><br />
only way we will secure a result, is for the<br />
public, and the rest of the world to unite<br />
against this sort of barbaric activity.<br />
Claire said...<br />
June 19, 2017 at 3:10 pm<br />
It’s been far too long, innocent men left<br />
abandoned in a stinking hell hole. Wrong on<br />
every level.<br />
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more than me, for the five years prior to this sad<br />
time she had kept us from falling apart and<br />
sinking. If it wasn't for her I would have given up<br />
way before I did. We had reached the point that<br />
I was affecting the children and everyone<br />
around me, my spine was worse than ever and<br />
so was my mental health. <strong>The</strong> situation at home<br />
had reached the point where Nikki had reached<br />
the ‘end of her tether’ and she asked me to<br />
leave the house and go to the hospital and get<br />
the help that I so desperately needed,<br />
physically and mentally. Nikki said that until I<br />
had some help and some respite care I couldn't<br />
come home. Some may think that this was cold<br />
hearted, but you have to understand what I was<br />
putting my family through, she had no choice.<br />
March 2016 a month and year that would change my life forever. I<br />
left the Royal Engineers in 2010 after ten years serving my country<br />
and doing like many had before me, which ever service they were in.<br />
I was forced to leave with serious life changing injuries and mental<br />
health scars that would affect me for the rest of my life. I was<br />
assured that on my Medical Discharge I would be rehoused and<br />
cared for and supported by the NHS, unfortunately this was not the<br />
case. I tried my best with several Mental Health services, they all<br />
stated the same – this is a military issue, we can't help you!<br />
During this time I was undergoing further<br />
surgeries, I wasn't coping and couldn't<br />
understand what was wrong with me and sadly<br />
neither could my family. I was never a user of<br />
social media, but if I was I would have realised<br />
that there is a lot of fantastic support out there,<br />
unfortunately I was deeply depressed and<br />
depression does funny things to people, I<br />
couldn't handle even talking about my career,<br />
let alone join a group like FVUK. In June 2015<br />
my physical and mental health took a turn for<br />
the wors. My PTSD was worse than ever. I was<br />
still desperate for help and I was still being<br />
ignored and passed from pillar to post, no one<br />
knowing quite what to do with me, my<br />
desperation grew, the pain consumed me bit by<br />
bit. My whole life felt like it was spiralling out of<br />
control, my family stayed by my side equally as<br />
desperate and concerned about my future.<br />
I've been with my wife for nearly 20 years, the<br />
summer of 2015 would test our love and<br />
strength like no other time before. She could<br />
see what was happening to me but felt<br />
powerless to do anything about it, she's the one<br />
that deals with my depression, anxiety and<br />
panic attacks. She's the one that constantly<br />
runs me about to health appointments and<br />
making sure that I have the right medication.<br />
She's the one that has to cope with my pain<br />
and side effects that all these pills give me, the<br />
angry outbursts that I constantly had, and then<br />
the depression and my horrible and nasty<br />
attitude afterwards. Blaming myself, and<br />
convinced I was a bad person that didn't<br />
deserve the love that she gave me. She dealt<br />
with the house, the children, the pets, the<br />
nightmares, flashbacks, the bills, she would<br />
pick me up off the floor when I fell during the<br />
night or day. Nikki is the one that has struggled<br />
Nikki assumed that the amount of money that is<br />
raised for military charities annually in this<br />
country that someone, somewhere could offer<br />
me two weeks respite, giving me the help I<br />
needed and the break that my family so<br />
desperately needed. Before I left my home I<br />
rang one of the major charities and they said<br />
that they were not able to offer me respite care<br />
because of my poor physical and mental state.<br />
<strong>The</strong>y were very concerned for my safety and<br />
had stated that I must attend hospital and insist<br />
on them finding me some treatment. As they felt<br />
that the hospital would try and discharge me<br />
immediately, thus putting me on the streets, I<br />
was advised to stay and insist on treatment as<br />
the NHS had ‘Duty of Care’ for my wellbeing.<br />
Bearing in mind that I was in a Designated<br />
Military Hospital. As predicted they tried to<br />
discharge me at 2 o'clock in the morning<br />
despite many desperate pleas for mental health<br />
help and the fact that I was homeless and<br />
danger to myself and others. I felt my whole<br />
world was falling apart, I was submissive and<br />
very emotional, I felt I was fighting for my life<br />
and my screams were still being ignored.<br />
Luckily a junior nurse fought my corner and<br />
prevented me from being discharged, I was<br />
allowed to stay until the morning. In the<br />
morning I rang my welfare officer again and he<br />
said " Do not let them discharge you because<br />
you will be homeless and very vulnerable”. I<br />
didn't want to cause anyone any problems, I<br />
hold the medical staff in high regard and have<br />
great respect for their work, but I had no choice<br />
but to follow my instructions as I felt no one<br />
else cared. As you can expect the news didn't<br />
go down very well and for that I'm truly sorry,<br />
but I was promised by the Army I would get<br />
priority treatment. So over the next few days a<br />
Mexican standoff happened, of everyone<br />
insisting that it was the responsibility of the NHS<br />
to care for me and them insisting it wasn't. A lot<br />
happened over those days. I was being ignored<br />
by the senior staff and they tried every trick in<br />
the book to trying and discharge me, even<br />
saying that I would be referred for a mental<br />
health appointment if I left. <strong>The</strong> problem was<br />
they were referring me to the very place that I<br />
had already been turned away from, they<br />
claimed they were trying their best but yet still<br />
hadn't referred me to anyone who could or were<br />
willing to help. In the end I tracked down my<br />
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own help despite my serious mental state, I was<br />
visited by a charity representative who said they<br />
have a veteran’s home that I could go to for two<br />
weeks. Thank God someone finally was able to<br />
help! My wife was over the moon and said I<br />
could return home to the family after my two<br />
weeks respite. So I filled out the paperwork and<br />
everything looked positive. I got to keep my<br />
bed over the weekend, I still hadn’t seen a<br />
physio or a mental health worker by this point<br />
despite the mental health ward being only<br />
upstairs. I was told the only way I could get<br />
access to this ward was to be arrested as the<br />
police are the only ones that have the power to<br />
authorise this? Really, are we at the stage<br />
where a British war veteran can only get<br />
immediate mental health help through the NHS,<br />
in one of the biggest military areas in the<br />
country, is by getting himself arrested! But I<br />
knew no different and clearly the medical staff<br />
are not trained or funded to know what to do<br />
with us veterans, at least in the Hampshire area<br />
it seemed.<br />
<strong>The</strong> weekend passed and on the Monday<br />
morning I looked at my legs did not feel right,<br />
they were swollen and discoloured and more<br />
painful than ever, I could hardly put any weight<br />
on them. I told a nurse about it and she said<br />
that she would come back to me. She never<br />
did. Lunch had just passed and I was<br />
summoned to the patients’ room, so I hobbled<br />
down on crutches and was met by the man<br />
from the charity and the ward sister. I sat down<br />
and knew it was bad news because the sister<br />
would not look up from the floor. <strong>The</strong> charity<br />
guy said " It's bad news”, because I had<br />
admitted to being verbally abusive to my wife in<br />
the past the respite home would not accept me<br />
due to having no security!!! At that I stopped<br />
him and asked the sister "Sister since I arrived<br />
here and despite the problems I have had, have<br />
I ever been rude or aggressive to anyone”? She<br />
replied, still looking at the floor, "<strong>No</strong>". At that<br />
point I got emotionally upset, so I got up left<br />
because I didn't want to lose my temper with<br />
him. I hobbled back to my bed after pulling<br />
myself together to find a welcoming committee!<br />
It would appear that they, the hospital staff and<br />
the charity guy, had colluded to get me away<br />
from my room so they could pack up my day<br />
sack and remove me from the hospital. I didn't<br />
argue or show any resistance, I just begged for<br />
help. When asking the female Doctor for my<br />
personal medication out of the locked bedside<br />
cabinet she said " Are you going to sign the<br />
discharge form “ ? I said "<strong>No</strong> because you are<br />
removing me against my will". I was denied<br />
access to my personal medication. I was put<br />
into a wheelchair chair, in my pyjamas, and<br />
wheeled out of the hospital by a military Cpl,<br />
who kept whispering to me that he was so sorry<br />
about what they were making him do. <strong>The</strong>y did<br />
not inform anyone of their actions, did not give<br />
me any bus fare or instruction, they just wanted<br />
rid of the problem, me. I was left at a bus stop,<br />
opposite the hospital, crying, in my pyjama<br />
bottoms, polo shirt and flip flops with a severe<br />
infection in my legs, which turned out to be<br />
cellulitis, in the middle of the day with members<br />
of the public just staring at me ...... That I will<br />
never forget or forgive.<br />
I was there for about 45 minutes, in an area that<br />
I have no friends or people that I could ask for<br />
help. <strong>The</strong>n by chance my wife called to see<br />
how I was, I explained what had happened she<br />
simply stated " I may not like you at times<br />
recently but I have always loved you, I thought<br />
they would have to help that's the only reason I<br />
asked you to leave”. She came and got me and<br />
took me home, and was horrified by the<br />
condition of my legs. Within 24 hours I was<br />
back in the same hospital on an antibiotic drip<br />
as the cellulitis was so bad, it took about two<br />
months to clear. A complaint was filed<br />
immediately on my behalf as I had a full mental<br />
break down, I felt worthless, I was in no fit state<br />
to look after myself and at times could hardly<br />
string a sentence together. In the next few<br />
months the hospital tried every avoidance<br />
method that they could employ, my medical<br />
notes had been lost, my drug chart had gone<br />
missing etc. <strong>The</strong>y exceeded all and every<br />
response time targets they promised and<br />
prolonged the whole process for as long as<br />
they could. <strong>The</strong> charity that said they would<br />
help whilst I was in hospital, denied everything<br />
even my existence. <strong>No</strong> one from the hospital<br />
would take responsibility for their actions. Yet<br />
again I felt abandoned and failed on every level,<br />
I have still not received a proper apology. Sadly<br />
just before Christmas 2015 I took a huge<br />
overdose feeling that to leave this world, was<br />
the only thing I could do to end this constant<br />
nightmare that I was putting my family through.<br />
In my mind at that time it was the greatest way<br />
to show my children and wife how much I loved<br />
them. I tell you this not for pity or sympathy. I<br />
tell you this because I want people in a similar<br />
position to realise they are not alone and there<br />
are others that have also felt this way.<br />
<strong>No</strong>w we are at March 2016, I was still incredibly<br />
low and my attacks were worse than ever! I still<br />
hadn't had the mental health appointment that I<br />
was promised and waited eight months for,<br />
when the appointment came and I was<br />
discharged after one session being told that this<br />
was a military issue and they could not help. I<br />
wished I had done the job properly when I tried<br />
to take my own life. I felt like it would only be a<br />
matter of time until I tried again. One day my<br />
wife walked in with an IPhone, I had never had<br />
a smart phone before and initially wasn't<br />
interested. Nikki was just trying to cheer me up<br />
and give me something positive to focus on, I<br />
had never been on Twitter before so I joined not<br />
knowing what it was!?<br />
That was the moment that changed my life for<br />
ever! I know looking back this may sound a<br />
little soft, my first ever tweet was "I've never felt<br />
so alone since I left the Army". To my<br />
amazement the phone pinged and someone<br />
had ‘followed’ me, then again and again. I fully<br />
admit that initially it was all about me and my<br />
problems. After a couple of weeks I soon<br />
realised it was not just me that struggles this<br />
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way, there are many ‘Gary’s’ out there and<br />
some a lot worse off than I am. So I started to<br />
share my experiences and problems and I<br />
spoke to many about their issues and things<br />
that were holding them back. Soon I found<br />
myself loosely counselling Veterans and their<br />
families and the more I felt I was helping the<br />
more I felt I actually had a purpose in life. Every<br />
time I was thanked a little piece of the man I<br />
was came back to life. In the meantime follower<br />
after follower was starting to support me and<br />
the positive message I was trying to spread<br />
across Twitter. Seven weeks after I started on<br />
Twitter, I got an invitation to go to Westminster<br />
and speak to the Chair of the All Party<br />
Parliamentary Group for <strong>The</strong> Armed Forces<br />
Covenant about my experiences and the<br />
problems that veterans face in our community<br />
and the failings of the covenant. At first I<br />
thought it was a joke! But it was real, finally<br />
someone was willing to listen to my cries for<br />
help. It was a very constructive meeting and we<br />
are still in touch to this date. At this point I had<br />
five thousand followers on Twitter and it was<br />
this support that got me through each day, in<br />
August 2016 someone approached me and<br />
asked why FVUK wasn't on FaceBook? <strong>The</strong><br />
reason being I was still very ill and could just<br />
about cope with Twitter, also I hadn't used<br />
FaceBook in years and didn't understand it all.<br />
So they helped me start a group, then the<br />
group started to grow in the same fashion as<br />
Twitter. I soon had people asking me if they<br />
could donate, which I replied " I don't want<br />
people's money"! <strong>The</strong>y said "But why are you<br />
doing this then"? I simply stated that you don't<br />
need money to support people and show them<br />
you care and they are not alone.<br />
As the group has grown it has attracted some<br />
amazing people, all with their own passions and<br />
skills all wanting to help drive forward FVUK. All<br />
having the same morals and standards of<br />
wanting to do good with no reward to<br />
themselves. It took some time for me to initially<br />
realise what was<br />
needed, but as my<br />
experience grew my<br />
confidence and passion<br />
grew at an equal rate.<br />
For so long I had let my<br />
demons and health<br />
defeat me, but now I<br />
have started to except<br />
my disability and<br />
problems. I have finally<br />
come to the realisation<br />
that I have something<br />
positive and<br />
constructive to offer the<br />
world. I have made a<br />
few mistakes on route<br />
but they have been<br />
honest and with good<br />
intentions. What's<br />
important is I have<br />
learnt from them, and<br />
put into practice<br />
methods to stop them<br />
happening again. What are just as important<br />
are the people that I have chosen to help me,<br />
as I know my limitations! I have never hidden<br />
my flaws and like any good leader the council I<br />
have round me is paramount. I have some<br />
really experienced and honest, passionate<br />
people on our team and I wouldn't be able to<br />
function properly without them. My aim is to<br />
incorporate as many veterans or family<br />
members as I can, all bringing their own skills<br />
to the team, giving as many people as possible<br />
the same feeling of self-worth and belonging<br />
that I receive from FVUK. Sometimes people<br />
are just looking for a reason to get up in the<br />
morning, we all have our own reasons to want<br />
to produce something so positive.<br />
So here we are at the stage that trustees have<br />
been appointed and the Charity status<br />
application has been submitted to the Charity<br />
Commission. Our path is clear; we will step up<br />
and help whenever we can. We are the band<br />
aid to seal the wound until we can gateway<br />
them to the best possible agency. Whether it be<br />
a tent for the homeless or food vouchers for the<br />
families that are struggling to put food on the<br />
table, we will consider most things if<br />
desperately needed. We are aware that<br />
throwing money at the problem does not<br />
always fix the issue, that's why we gateway<br />
them to the correct place to try and solve the<br />
underlying problem that has got them to this<br />
stage in the first place. We believe that care<br />
doesn't stop at five o'clock, weekends and<br />
public holidays! Isn't it better they have<br />
someone instead of no one? We are also<br />
building a buddy scheme that will offer general<br />
support, information and comradeship from<br />
other veterans and associated family members.<br />
Quite often people just want to have a chat to<br />
break the isolation and loneliness, we use the<br />
power of Google to help source information<br />
local to the recipient. We are not qualified to<br />
give treatment, but we can direct them to<br />
reputable organisations and charities. As our<br />
charity grows we hope to expand our offers of<br />
assistance and grants, to train our volunteers so<br />
we can offer the best and safest service for all.<br />
Even if we immediately pass on a case to<br />
someone more suitable, if warranted, it is still a<br />
success in our eyes. What is important is the<br />
recipient not our ego's! We work tirelessly to<br />
build good relationships with other charities and<br />
organisations that share our ethos, and pride<br />
ourselves in offering help where ever possible<br />
to advertise functions and events and services<br />
of other organisations. For now I feel you have<br />
read enough! I hope this brings strength and<br />
courage to the forgotten to step forward and<br />
say that they are also struggling, and clarity to<br />
those who wanted to know more about who I<br />
am and who we are. <strong>The</strong> first step is always the<br />
hardest step admitting that you need help, I<br />
cannot change my past but I can change my<br />
future and hopefully that of others. To my team,<br />
my Trustees and most importantly my family,<br />
thank you for not giving up on me and believing<br />
in me. I owe you my life.<br />
Gary Weaving RE<br />
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<strong>The</strong> idea for Save Our Soldier came about because [Lee<br />
Hayward, the Founder of the charity] saw in newspaper<br />
headlines that suicides were occurring after combatants<br />
returned from war. It was unacceptable to see this frequently in<br />
the news, and to do nothing when something could be done.<br />
<strong>The</strong> problem is post traumatic stress, an injury triggered by<br />
exposure to extreme trauma. We call this condition PTSI, (Post<br />
Traumatic Stress Injury) but it is more commonly known as<br />
PTSD. Conversations with veterans led to research. <strong>The</strong> results<br />
highlighted a growing need for support of veterans, struggling to<br />
transition and reintegrate into ‘civvy street’, and for their families<br />
suffering from the legacy of combat. Lee knew with the right<br />
people, the number of acute cases could be reduced.<br />
Encouragement to become a charity came from <strong>The</strong> Medlock<br />
Charitable Trust, who provided initial funding to get the<br />
specialised emotional coaching for combatants started. <strong>The</strong><br />
charity was started in <strong>No</strong>v 2012, Save Our Soldier now has 20<br />
coaches from Scotland to Devon. <strong>The</strong> UK automotive industry<br />
is experiencing a significant shortage in personnel. <strong>The</strong> industry<br />
needs dedicated, mission-focused individuals, who like to work<br />
in teams, take pride in their work and maintain good standards.<br />
<strong>The</strong>y are required nationwide, for permanent roles with full<br />
training provided, where necessary. Many of these roles will also<br />
present opportunities for advancement. We wish to advise<br />
prominent Veteran’s support agencies about the diverse<br />
employment opportunities for those who have been out of the<br />
Services, perhaps for longer than two years, and are aged 18 to<br />
50 + . (Anyone contacting us within 2 years of discharge will<br />
also be reminded about the (CTP) Career Transition<br />
Partnership). Save Our Soldier cares for and helps, with<br />
coaching and emotional support for post-traumatic stress,<br />
individuals and their families who fall through the cracks in the<br />
statutory system. Experience has shown that the issue of finding<br />
satisfactory and appropriate work, and commonly the apparent<br />
lack of suitable openings, is a key issue for Veterans/ex-Service<br />
personnel. Moreover, it is often the central barrier to them<br />
reintegrating back into civilian society. Through our growing<br />
corporate connections, Save our Soldier is now firmly supported<br />
by and partnering with the automotive industry. Consequently,<br />
we are about to launch a job portal on our web site which will<br />
feature a vacancies board directly representing over 600 vehicle<br />
body repair shops across the country. (<strong>The</strong> job board is being<br />
provided by a car-repair organisation directly and this will<br />
involve no recruitment fees or any other fees). This type of work<br />
involves becoming an integral part of small teams of specialised<br />
operatives focused on a common goal; it represents a<br />
potentially rewarding environment for someone formerly trained<br />
to perform to high standards, with a similar ethos to the Forces<br />
and Emergency Services. It is well paid for those who learn the<br />
skills. Jobs range from receptionist and delivering customers'<br />
cars to all manner of vehicle body repair and finish coat<br />
spraying. Furthermore, opportunities can extend into the wider<br />
automotive industry, to areas like computing, sales and more.<br />
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I have always helped charities when i can by way of donating<br />
money. But having a lot of friends in the military helping military<br />
charities has been more important to me. 5 yrs ago i met Dennis<br />
mason whose son was lost in Afghanistan at the time i was<br />
printing t-shirts and he wanted some shirts for a fun walk he was<br />
organising to raise funds for his sons memorial fund. We started<br />
talking about things he could do to raise funds and even came to<br />
my house till early hrs in the morning to help me make the shirts<br />
from that day he has been like a father to me and my family<br />
especially my children. We all went to help out on fundraisers<br />
and charity events to help Dennis. I then had a job opportunity<br />
that i had to take and this meant i could not help as much as i<br />
could. 1yr into the new job i met Paul Ballard who was an artist<br />
and a veteran ex royal artillery he knew about the help i gave<br />
Dennis and wanted to do something to help he showed me<br />
some of the artwork and it was amazing we talked about how or<br />
what we could do and decided to offer the artwork to military<br />
charities for them to sell to help them raise funds for them self we<br />
both put in £750 each to get the artwork put into production and i<br />
created the Facebook page and started inviting people which is<br />
when we met Karin Sowerby who is another amazing artist and<br />
wanted to help and later found out she was also a Veteran and<br />
then later her Sister Angie Sowerby another amazing artist and<br />
also a veteran. Dennis Mason from <strong>The</strong> Lance Corporal Nicky<br />
Mason Memorial Fund was the 1st to take artwork. And living on<br />
the old garrison in Colchester & Nicky being in the parachute<br />
regiment contacting Stephen Cooper from Support our Para’s<br />
was the next charity who gladly accepted the artwork. From<br />
there it went up hill with other charities. Julie Cooper from the<br />
Dons War Memorial Bar, Ian Proud of the Gateshead poppy<br />
Appeal, Paul Lomax the Great War Heritage Project, Ian Inglis the<br />
War Museum Scotland, Gary Wallace the RECCE group and<br />
Donna Louise Armstrong, Soldiers off <strong>The</strong> Street Scotland. I<br />
send them the artwork in the large limited edition 20x30 canvases<br />
for them to sell at no cost to them, each being sold for £75 they<br />
cost £25 each to produce with the stretcher bars and certificates<br />
which is deducted to produce a replacement then the charity<br />
takes 50% of the balance the other 50% produces another canvas<br />
or goes towards other items like postcards pads pens mugs<br />
clocks and other items i can think of to print the artwork on every<br />
penny that comes back goes into printing more items to offer the<br />
charities and any new charities. <strong>No</strong>t to mention the donations we<br />
have donated in the last year since starting this over 40 large<br />
canvases to many fundraisers charities and families.I also attend<br />
military some of the events and fundraisers to set out a display to<br />
sell the artwork to help them on the day. Seeing the response<br />
from the public and the help it gives the charities makes it more<br />
worthwhile.<br />
Richard Betts<br />
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From the Pit to the Palace...<br />
This month has been very much of a roller coaster ride. <strong>The</strong>re<br />
has been so many positives in my life but also the hauntings of<br />
days past. Thankfully, these days, thanks to my own faith, I can<br />
pretty much talk myself around most problems that are thrown at<br />
me.<br />
When I look at others, I see struggles with very few answers.<br />
Sometimes it isn’t the fact that there are no answers, just the<br />
answers haven’t been seen yet. When we are in that position is<br />
very hard to maintain a positive attitude. My thoughts and<br />
prayers in this edition are very much with the Chennai Six and<br />
their families. What on earth can I possibly say to give comfort<br />
and reassurance to these very brave people going through such<br />
a difficult time? Well, there is one passage that I know of that<br />
can offer hope. This kind of dawned on me this Sunday when<br />
we were sat down having an afternoon of musicals. One of my<br />
favourites, and one I have also played in, is Joseph and the<br />
Amazing Technicolour Dreamcoat. Of course the play/musical is<br />
a dramatised production but the real story of Joseph can be<br />
found in Genesis.<br />
doing more than they know. We won’t know the true extent of<br />
their suffering and hardship because we are not there but we<br />
can be assured they are being guided. Just as Joseph when he<br />
was suffering.<br />
When we look at recent events, we can see the dtermination and<br />
strength, not only in the lads but the families that will stop at<br />
nothing to win the day. <strong>The</strong>y will win.<br />
We all know that life can be hard, it can pile pressure on like no<br />
tomorrow but all of these trials will make you stronger. That’s<br />
how it works. We’ve all heard the sayings, ‘What doesn’t beat<br />
you makes you stronger’ and God gives his hardest battles to<br />
his strongest soldiers’. When I look at the families and the lads<br />
in India, I see those two sayings. He knows you will all pull<br />
through regardless of what disappointments or victories may<br />
come, he know the lads can endure this, even though they think<br />
the opposite at times. He know the families will be their rock<br />
and will never stop fighting. He know that the fight will be won.<br />
In the mean time, whatever your faith, religion, denomination, I<br />
would like to ask you all to pray or think about the lads and their<br />
families. Give them strength to continue to fight with faith and<br />
hope, guide the authorities to see humanity and compassion<br />
and bring a swift end to this ongoing trial. Give them guidance<br />
to learn and to help others once this has ended. Amen.<br />
This has become one of my favourite chapters, not because of<br />
the musical story but because of the many lessons that we can<br />
take from it. <strong>The</strong> story originally talks of a boy that dreams<br />
many strange things, these dreams turn into foresights for the<br />
future. I don’t suggest for a moment that any of us will possess<br />
that gift but it does show that everything happens for a reason.<br />
If he didn’t get his dreams, he wouldn’t have been hated by his<br />
brothers, they wouldn’t have thrown him in the pit, he wouldn’t<br />
have been pulled out and sold as a slave, he wouldn’t have<br />
ended up in prison for something he hadn’t done (something<br />
familiar there), he wouldn’t have been in a position to help the<br />
Pharoah, he wouldn’t have saved millions from starvation and<br />
finally, wouldn’t have forgiven his brothers for a terrible crime<br />
and reunite his family.<br />
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<strong>No</strong>w we don’t know what we have in store for us but I do know<br />
that the guys currently sat in that awful prison cell in India are<br />
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Veterans Breakfast Clubs<br />
Armed Forces &<br />
Veterans breakfast Clubs<br />
www.afvbc.co.uk<br />
Website<br />
<strong>The</strong> VBC Website has now been revamped/redesigned and is now live.<br />
<strong>The</strong>re are several new features including a Post Code search facility that<br />
brings up the five nearest Breakfast Clubs to your Post Code, and we now<br />
have a News feature and links to the current issues of the <strong>Sandbag</strong> <strong>Times</strong><br />
and much more. To make it easier for people to get to it, funds have been<br />
made available to allow the acquisition of more domain names.<br />
<strong>The</strong> new address is www.afvbc.co.uk and the old address is pointed at the<br />
new site.<br />
<strong>The</strong> main alteration is that the email addresses have changed from:<br />
Support@VeteransBreakfastClubs.co.uk<br />
to<br />
Support@AFVBC.co.uk<br />
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Worcester VBC<br />
many thanks to Nigel from<br />
the Woofers for this photo.<br />
42 on parade in the end,<br />
I’m gobsmacked and so<br />
proud of you all for turning<br />
up... It's the new armed<br />
forces family you were<br />
always craving for...<br />
Harwich VBC<br />
Breakfast today in Harwich.<br />
More members every meet<br />
Macclesfield VBC<br />
Amazing turnout today for<br />
the Macclesfield launch.<br />
We think we had numbers<br />
of 75-80 but yet to be<br />
confirmed – Look forward<br />
to the next one!<br />
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Veterans Breakfast Clubs<br />
Hastings/Bexhill VBC<br />
12 attending at <strong>The</strong> Custom Cafe.<br />
Sadly the service on the day was<br />
not what was expected, with<br />
peeps waiting well over an hour<br />
for their food to arrive. With the<br />
cafe only being fully open for a<br />
few weeks, new staff and also<br />
with it being fathers day<br />
yesterday perhaps it was just<br />
'one of those days'.<br />
GrimsbyVBC<br />
<strong>No</strong>t many turned up<br />
today at GVBC but still<br />
had a great morning, the<br />
place is gradually being<br />
decorated with corp flags<br />
and it looks brilliant x<br />
Shrewsbury AFVBC<br />
A fabulous forty of us at<br />
Shrewsbury AFVBC today,<br />
and our new AFVBC Flag<br />
made it's debut.<br />
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<strong>Issue</strong> 31 | June 2017<br />
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10 Years on...<br />
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Hi Folks, welcome to <strong>Sandbag</strong> <strong>Times</strong> Radio :)<br />
For those that have been following the progress of the magazine<br />
and Radio Station, you will have seen and heard some<br />
significant changes to both the magazine, and the station.<br />
We are still very busy championing the plight of the Chennai<br />
6, both in print, and on air. This weekend 24/25 June, the<br />
whole team is attending a function in Worcester on behalf of<br />
the lads who are the "Chennai 6". SBT Radio will be "Live" at<br />
the New Inn in Claines, Worcester, supporting Pablo and Jane<br />
with providing entertainment, and trying to empty the pockets<br />
of those attending in order to raise funds in support of this<br />
effort to free the lads. <strong>The</strong> Chennai team are expected to be<br />
in attendance, and a BBQ and musical entertainment<br />
throughout the 2 days is planned.<br />
We still need your support folks. <strong>The</strong> main aim of the Radio<br />
Station is to provide news and information, as well as music<br />
and entertainment for our veterans and military. We would<br />
like to focus more on the Veterans and Military side of things<br />
during our live broadcasts, and not just be on air to fill the airwaves.<br />
If you would like to get involved in any way, please<br />
drop me a line at jim@sandbagtimes.com. I am always on<br />
the lookout for new presenters, to bring some diversity, variety,<br />
originality and character to the station. You do not need<br />
to be a pro, or have any broadcasting experience. Everyone<br />
has to start somewhere. We have the knowledge and experience<br />
to set you up, and all we ask of you is to be yourself,<br />
and have our Military family at heart when you broadcast.<br />
Those of you that watch "Big Phil"Campion, both on Sky's<br />
"Big Phils War, and more recently on his You Tube blog<br />
SOFREP.COM each evening at 2100 hrs, you will be pleased<br />
to learn that Phil will be writing regularly in the magazine, and<br />
doing some Q&A on air when we can schedule him in.<br />
Thanks to Pablo for cornering Phil and "persuading" him.<br />
Over the next few weeks, the station will be trialling a few new<br />
broadcast methods that you may find interesting. Picture<br />
this...... you have a party organised, or a BBQ or whatever,<br />
and need to organise some musical entertainment. What<br />
about your own personal DJ! I don't mean one that rocks up<br />
at your door and sets up a studio in your front room. What I<br />
am referring to is a bespoke service whereby you let me<br />
know in advance of the people attending your party/function<br />
beforehand.... preferably a week or two before the event. You<br />
give me the names, their musical tastes, and anything else<br />
about them you wish to disclose, and leave the rest to us :)<br />
On the day/night of the function, all you will need to do is log<br />
in to your favourite Internet radio station......Yes, thats US!.....<br />
turn your music up, and then go about your business. We<br />
will provide your music for the function, intertwined with comments<br />
and chat from your DJ, who will take requests etc.<br />
This is a new dimension to the station, and we are excited to<br />
see how this pans out.... but we need your input to see if it a<br />
viable proposition. Let me know your thoughts, and any suggestions/feedback<br />
in order that we can make it a really enjoyable<br />
experience for both you and your guests. I will be talking<br />
this over with he team over the next couple of weeks to<br />
iron out any snags.<br />
We understand that when the sun is shining (and it's been<br />
doing that a lot recently), the last thing folks want to be doing<br />
is sitting in front of their PC/Laptop etc listening to the radio...<br />
but just remember, you can add the URL (web address) to<br />
your tablet and smart phone, and take us wherever you go so<br />
that you don't miss a beat. <strong>The</strong> link you need is<br />
http://www.sandbagtimes.co.uk/sandbag-times-radio-show/.<br />
It is hoped that an app will be available soon to make this a<br />
simple connection.<br />
Right folks, that's about it for now. Time to get organised and<br />
make some preparations for the upcoming weekend in<br />
Worcester. If you are in the are, be sure to come and meet<br />
the team at the New Inn, Claines, Worcester, WR3 7DH<br />
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Ann Iverson is the author<br />
of four poetry collections.<br />
Her poems have<br />
appeared in a wide<br />
variety of journals and<br />
venues including Writer’s<br />
Almanac with Garrison<br />
Keillor. Her art work has<br />
been featured in several<br />
art exhibits as well as in<br />
a permanent installation<br />
at the University of<br />
Minnesota Amplatz<br />
Children’s Hospital.<br />
Her collection Art<br />
Lessons was selected to<br />
be in the Vincent Van<br />
Gogh Library the<br />
Netherlands. She<br />
recently wrote and<br />
illustrated her first<br />
children’s story which<br />
was published in 2016.<br />
Her writing and art can<br />
be viewed at<br />
anniverson.weebly.com.<br />
Ann feels fortunate that<br />
she has been given<br />
these gifts as a path<br />
through life – its losses<br />
and its loves.<br />
My step son, Randy Iverson, Jr.<br />
enlisted in the United States Army in<br />
2001 and in 2002 he was deployed to<br />
Iraq. He was trained as a Military Police<br />
Officer – Canine Unit and with a huge sense<br />
of patriotism and pride, he served his country<br />
in extreme conditions for over nine years.<br />
<strong>The</strong> years that Randy spent in harm’s way<br />
were beyond difficult, most certainly for him,<br />
but also for his father and me. <strong>The</strong>re is only<br />
so much one can do to keep your mind from<br />
going down the dreaded path of what could<br />
happen. I found that to document the<br />
experience through the lens of my poet’s eye,<br />
I was able to find new roads to travel that lead<br />
to a sense of healing – I think for all of us.<br />
Over the years I have published four<br />
collections of poetry, three of them contain<br />
war poems with Definite Space being<br />
predominantly about Randy’s three<br />
deployments. As our family continues to heal,<br />
I have relied on writing to sustain me and to<br />
help me find a way to make sense of the loss<br />
and the pain. If my words can lend meaning<br />
to a time that just seems inexplicable, then<br />
they have served their purpose.<br />
Experiences such as war that burrow so<br />
deeply inside, need to find a way to the light.<br />
For me, just when I think I am done writing<br />
about the war, another poem taps and I<br />
gladly open the door. I think that if you can<br />
put some pain on paper, it lessens the heart’s<br />
load - after all words and thoughts have<br />
weight. As a poet, if I did not transcribe the<br />
poems that come to me, then I would not be<br />
myself. Tampering with this arrangement is<br />
dangerous. Long ago, I made a bargain with<br />
the worlds of my life; if I made them poems,<br />
they promised me meaning.<br />
I have always encouraged my step son to<br />
find artistic ways to aid the healing process.<br />
He has done some of this. One of the photos<br />
included is an interesting drawing he did that<br />
renders the war from his dog’s view. It is<br />
fascinating that the soldier himself is mostly<br />
absent in the image, but the dog is forefront,<br />
alert to all before him. <strong>The</strong>re is a certain<br />
sense of mystery to this piece and I hope that<br />
he continues to think about ways to tell his<br />
story – as time and the heart allows.<br />
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From definite space<br />
When a Son Goes Off to War<br />
I walk out into the world alone at dusk<br />
watch blackbirds with no strategic plan,<br />
mission, or vision gather in the naked<br />
tree.<br />
Hundreds of them fly in for this<br />
impromptu session,<br />
where they put their wings together and<br />
form<br />
an ark of shadow, a coalition between<br />
light and dark,<br />
while from branches, decisions scatter<br />
in the air.<br />
Filled with privilege like never before,<br />
I open myself to the visual world<br />
where doctrine and creed do not matter<br />
so even God finds himself amongst<br />
their turning eyes looking West,<br />
knowing everything we long to know<br />
about how light ends<br />
and darkness has its way.<br />
From art lessons<br />
Walter Reed Army Medical facility<br />
December, 2009 for RJ<br />
Early morning, I gather soft murmurs on<br />
the hotel shuttle:<br />
<strong>The</strong> first surgery nicked his colon, ten<br />
more after that<br />
His dad left on Saturday<br />
Mom leaves on Sunday<br />
A sister leaves Wednesday<br />
An aunt arrives on Thursday<br />
Inside every heart, there’s a painting, one of oil never drying.<br />
Inside these walls are portraits of life impossible to render.<br />
One canvas offers:<br />
an Army Champlain around a make-shift altar in the jungle;<br />
one chopper hovers overhead.<br />
<strong>The</strong> soldiers’ hands are folded, heads bowed.<br />
If there is a silence beyond silence, here it is.<br />
As though on skateboards,<br />
legless boys cruise the grounds on electronic devices.<br />
Sisters and mothers chase them.<br />
Someone tries to tell me the left leg is target,<br />
key seat in the hummer, but I see the right gone too.<br />
I see the middle of nowhere.<br />
I see the nothingness.<br />
I digest the cost for freedom.<br />
<strong>The</strong>se days the wound is left open until signs of infection are gone.<br />
I wish you could cut the heart open, mend it<br />
then let it drain and dry for days in the sun.<br />
Second canvas provides: a priest washing a soldier’s feet.<br />
Some days, I think there is nothing holy left.<br />
But if there is a holy beyond holy, I’ll take it in.<br />
We lie on soft mats with soldiers in meditation.<br />
She tells us to forget about ourselves,<br />
introduces us to each part of our being.<br />
I whispered to myself no more war poems. I told myself that.<br />
Three a.m. First Call from Baghdad<br />
Like screaming maniacs,<br />
we plummet<br />
down the flight of stairs<br />
could have easily broken<br />
all our legs.<br />
<strong>The</strong> sharp pierce<br />
of the ring’s limited life<br />
find the phone<br />
find the phone<br />
where the fuck is the phone<br />
here it is<br />
here it is<br />
then<br />
your voice so sane.<br />
War poem<br />
Since we came to this field with pain<br />
is this the path where love should end?<br />
As wild lupine diminish<br />
and secrets of the garden unfold.<br />
What is told is mostly sorrow.<br />
We filled this prairie with so much sorrow.<br />
We took our hands<br />
and threw grief to the wild.<br />
It took it for a while, but then the deer<br />
who once came, left for good.<br />
<strong>The</strong>ir sudden darting disappeared.<br />
Even the bunnies are now just clay<br />
a statuary of their lives<br />
before we entered.<br />
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