7 months ago

Comfortable Madness First PDF 4-13-18

from the sink. A call

from the sink. A call button hung from the wall waiting for something awkward to happen. I peed, and just sat there. Alone. Scared. Sad. Tayla tapped on the door. I wasn’t ready yet, but I couldn’t keep hiding. Tayla stood near the bed. Nerves rattled. Breathing deep, moving slowly I sat in the chair in the corner and put my head in my hands. “You okay?” Tayla asked. She put her head against mine. Her breath tickled the little hairs on my neck. I wanted to go home. I wanted to get out of here. “I’m sorry,” I said. We sat together, and the silence folded over us. The weight of her eyes was more than I could take. “I’m okay,” I said. “Are you?” Tayla asked. I held my breath. “I will be,” I said. “Really?” The anger came back glittering in the air between me us. I swallowed and shivered. “Yeah,” Tayla said. “I thought so.”

Friends Miss Tris and Tad came with flowers. “You look so sad,” Tad said. Miss Tris held my hand. “Jesus,” she said. “That’s nice.” Tad flushed. “It’s okay.” Large windows at the end of the hall looked out over the west hills and the freeway. Tad went and pressed his hand to the glass. “No jumping,” I said. Tad flinched. I hated it. Awkwardness was a hair coat on all of us. “We love you,” Miss Tris said. “This is just a hiccup.” Tad nodded. None of us believed it though. This was my life. “This Gid,” Miss Tris said. Another flinch. They knew things I wished they didn’t. “Tayla told us,” Tad said. “Does he treat you right?” Miss Tris asked. I shook my head. “He’s real,” I said. “If he’s real to you,” Tad said. “He’s real to us.” It was sweet. It was nice. It was also a complete lie.