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Comfortable Madness First PDF 4-13-18

A Moment on the Corner

A Moment on the Corner Sunlight broke through clouds gathered like piles of raw wool. It cut through trees beginning to curl with new leaves. The corner was busy. This was where I nearly died. Cars growled and hissed on the wet asphalt. Windows in shops shined with greasy rainbows. No one paid me any mind. I was invisible to everyone but Gid. He came up behind me and put his hand flat on my belly. “This lasts forever,” he said. I nodded. “There’s no coming back,” he said. “I know.” Even in the bright light of day, things were cold. My fingers lost their blood and turned white. My feet were too heavy to lift. “I’ll be right here,” he said. “Go away.” I refused to look at him. There was nothing there to see anyway. His face was always lost to me. His hands, his chest, I knew too well. He had nothing I wanted. “Love lasts forever,” he said. “Nothing changes that.” All I had to do was take a step. If I timed it right, no one else would be hurt. It would be an accident. “There are no accidents,” Gid said. “This whole thing is an accident.” He laughed. “I chose you,” he said. “You chose me.” “No.” “Absolutely.” A logging truck roared past. That was my chance. Something that big would never stop in time. Something that big would finish the job.

“They did nothing to you,” Gid said. “Is this a memory you want to leave people?” Shame and guilt stole my resolve. “There’s nothing to be afraid of,” he said. “Tayla.” The wind whispered small prayers in the trees. “Yes,” Gid said. “Tayla.” When I turned away, he was gone. No one looked at me. I was just another girl walking on the street. No one knew how close I’d come to dying. No one knew what I was thinking.