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Comfortable Madness William L. Alton

© 2018 William L. Alton Edition 10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 ISBN 282828282828282 Credits Cover: ProDesign Hibernian Publishing, LLC New Jersey

  • Page 4 and 5: Dedication For Lisa, who showed me
  • Page 6: still the only teacher who let me g
  • Page 9 and 10: I reached for his face, but it was
  • Page 11 and 12: the curb. I smoked and paced, and I
  • Page 13 and 14: med thing? Was this the start of an
  • Page 15 and 16: Science and Spirit They made physic
  • Page 17 and 18: Target I was neither the biggest ki
  • Page 19 and 20: Crossing the Line In English, we ta
  • Page 21 and 22: Episode Voices and faces bubbled ou
  • Page 23 and 24: God Porn Four girls stood in front
  • Page 25 and 26: Lunch Color drained away except for
  • Page 27 and 28: Telling Secrets Miss Tris sat with
  • Page 29 and 30: Water I danced and Tayla played. Ta
  • Page 31 and 32: “We have to do something,” Miss
  • Page 33 and 34: Insomnia Sun rise. Jays screamed in
  • Page 35 and 36: Love and Madness Our bed was old. K
  • Page 37 and 38: Someday Queertopia was the last tab
  • Page 39 and 40: There were no words. There were no
  • Page 41 and 42: Voices and Visions Night. Everythin
  • Page 43 and 44: Answered Questions Tayla sat in the
  • Page 45 and 46: A Thing Homecoming. I didn’t want
  • Page 47 and 48: I backed away. People were really s
  • Page 49 and 50: Tayla rolled over and looked at me.
  • Page 51 and 52: Delusions I was too cold. White air
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    Room A creek ran on the edge of tow

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    Questions Water dribbled through a

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    Show Folks came through the door, t

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    gathered in his fists and face. I s

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    “I love you,” he said. Was this

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    Spells in the Corner The music was

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    Silence. We looked at Tad. He shrug

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    The Mormons stumbled and turned. Th

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    “I understand,” Tayla said. “

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    PE I watched the game without watch

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    He got off the couch and came to me

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    Tayla grunted in her sleep. I didn

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    I didn’t know that for sure. Gid

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    How do you explain what it was like

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    Air seemed to slice through me. Par

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    Glass The room was mine. The walls

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    “I love you,” she said. Sweet w

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    “Turn away from sin,” he shoute

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    down and grabbed my arm. He hauled

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    Secrets Sadness verged on depressio

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    Real Enough Orion hung in the south

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    Escape Tayla and Angie took me to t

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    We crouched behind a hedge. The cop

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    Shit Follows Voices told me to run.

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    “You’re dying,” he said. Spot

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    Emergency Darkness. Thick, vast and

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    Friends Miss Tris and Tad came with

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    At the corner, I sat in a hard chai

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    Awkward Everyone stared at Angie an

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    The Dead On the edge of sleep, just

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    Real and Not Real Visiting hours st

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    I stared at the trees on the other

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    Home Part of me thought things woul

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    He was a wall of bone and muscle. H

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    She came back to the bathroom. “I

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    Tayla put on Duke Ellington. We hel

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    gulped down. That was it. This was

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    Worry Broken leg. Broken ribs. Disl

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    “She hates me,” I said, soundin

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    Soon I knew things. I knew someday

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    Open Communication Pain and oxy str

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    Tayla gave her the finger. I grinne

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    “You’ll make it,” Tad said. I

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    Love Oxy made everything okay. Not

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    Things Come Out “Sweet Jesus,”

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    Fight For days, we fought but we fo

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    “Really?” she asked. The word h

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    An old man stopped. He looked from

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    Faith There he was. Gid. In the win

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    The First Shot Queertopia. Tayla, r

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    Always and Forever I dreamed of lig

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    Temptation Last call. The stage emp

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    Empty Promises It started. But then

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    Gifts Music lifted into the air, br

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    Object of Admiration Mr. Skarey cal

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    Black birds came from the corners.

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    This Body I dreamed of music, compl

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    Miracles I was late. I was never la

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    laughing. I had nothing to laugh ab

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    “You’re talking religion,” Co

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    Tayla’s drawn face tore at me.

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    This Is Love First, I saw his hands

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    Making Sure Posters of smiling wome

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    Something Hard and Sad Rain fell li

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    Looking Forward Dance team girls ga

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    Closet Water stains made dark masks

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    “You okay?” he asked. “Fine,

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    “The baby! Jesus, the baby!” So

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    “I love you,” Gid said. He went

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    “You’re not a guy,” he said.

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    Heavy Music and movement. I spun an

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    It felt as if my skin were going to

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    “They did nothing to you,” Gid

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    I smiled a fake smile. Tayla watche

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    “Really,” I said. “They can s

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    I closed my eyes. “Let’s go,”

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    “What’s up?” she asked. “Te

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    I smoked and waited. Tayla came and

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    Waiting I danced. I danced and hope

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    The Talk “What’s his name?” T

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    Almost a Victim I sat on the floor

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    pushing his fingers into my pie and

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    “She thinks I cheated,” I said.

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    “You know better.” Suddenly, I

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    “You know,” she said. “No one

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    “No,” I said. “Yes. And other

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    “I know.” Her fingers squeezed

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    That put an end to it.

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    “What happens,” I asked, “if

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    didn’t trust her because they ass

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    “Have you thought of adoption?”

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    “I have some newborn clothes here

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    Safe Dead folks filled the room wit

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    Consequences Mr. Skarey’s office

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    A Domestic Moment I lay on the bed

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    Birth It started with a rush of wat

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    When they handed me my son, I cried

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    He fought with me, but there was a