Reconcile Magazine March 2019

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A Christian Magazine that is Kingdom minded. We believe that the things Jesus did are available to us today.

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A Note From The Editor

We're back! Welcome to the second edition of

Reconcile Magazine! We have focused on a theme of love

and kindness for this issue. God, Himself, is Love and we

are to be imitators of Him as little children. I pray that our

articles and stories will inspire and touch your heart.

I believe that God started this venture, but our future

is somewhat in your hands. We really want to know how

we're doing and if you've enjoyed this issue. Our hope is

that we make a difference and touch lives. Are we

polished, professional and fancy? No, but we have

endeavored to bring you something substantial from our

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see ways we can improve, please contact me directly.

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mind. Please share this with others if you feel it would

bless them. I wish for you all joy and every blessing. With

much love!

CONTENTS

Sons Of God, Where Are You?......... 5

Ask And Believe......................... 13

Met By Love..............................17

The Great Commission.................20

Who God Says You Are..................22

Our Stories Of Love and Kindness....32

Be Strong In The Lord................. 39

How To Study The Bible............... 44

As You Wish.............................. 47

Answered Prayer.........................51

Melodie A. Moss

Editor

Please be advised that the opinions expressed in these articles are

not necessarily those of Reconcile Magazine.

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About Our Writers

Jonathan shares his struggles, stories, and the miracles that have happened in his

life within his blog http://gotoheavennow.com The theme is “Go to Heaven Now!”

which is about the present implications of the gospel of salvation for those who

believe. Jonathan is an established author with of a number of books available on

Amazon. He is from the United States and now lives near Rio de Janeiro with his wife

and daughter,

Jonathan

Brenneman

Hi, I am Rachel Cain, from the UK.I was a host trainer with Inside Out Training and

Equipping Schoo for nearly 4 years. I enjoy reading, writing, going to the theatre,

lacemaking and going on short breaks away.

Rachel Cain

Sheila is the Director of Prophetic Studies at Inside Out T&E School, Author, Poet,

Board Member and Teacher at Follow the Light A+ Academy, Director of Visitation

Ministries at The Cave Ministries... She lives in Mobile, Alabama.

Sheila

Compatriotte

William Michael Cuccia has devoted over thirty years in education, investigative

research and public speaking. Founding and Former Pastor of Harbor Pointe Vineyard

Church. He has shared the message of hope around the world. William is a husband,

author, blogger and songwriter, He and his wife Nan (Master Herbalist / Iridologist) of

28 years reside in Southern California. His Daily Devotional, I See Jesus can be found

on Facebook. He plans to publish his daily Devotionals into a book in the Spring of

2019. William loves to write what he hears, when he listens in the quiet moments.

William Cuccia

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About Our Writers

John Gold

John entered the military in 1985 as a Military Policeman. John has been to Europe

and Asia as he served his country honorably from 1985-1991 & 1997-2000.

During John’s last military tour, unfortunately, he was critically injured while stationed

near the DMZ in Korea and is now a 100% disabled veteran. Always a civil servant,

John was a police officer, firefighter, and EMT serving his community.

In 2001, John was called to the ministry and does personal counseling. Through his life,

John always had a passion for photography and filmmaking so in 2014 he graduated

from the prestigious Ringling College of Art + Design earning his BFA in filmmaking.

Today John lives in Greenville, SC. as a minister, author, and filmmaker.

Olga Kievitt

I was born in England during the war in 1944. Was raised Christian. Learned the

bible at school. Served in the WRAF . Moved to America in 1986 after 18 months in the

Azores. The Lord has always been important in my life After living in Alaska for 3

years I moved to Lynn Haven FL where I have lived ever since that is till my recent

move to Crestview Fl. I have served as a Trainer at Inside Out training and Equipping

School for 5 years. I am an ordained minister and also have a ministry of my own,

Answering His Call Ministries. Until recent years I traveled a lot in ministry preaching

and teaching. Now I have settled down to do some writing. I still work a full time job.

Melodie published her first set of greeting cards, “The Golden Heart Collection” in

1985 under the Davand Company name. Today, she is a minister, teacher, artist,

publisher, author, editor and mentor for aspiring writers under her banner of Davand

Publishing. You will find her books available on Amazon. She founded RECONCILE

Magazine in 2018 and serves as the editor and designer of this publication. She has

more books slated for release in 2019.

Melodie A.

Moss

Pat describes himself as “A Christian in the middle of a storm and enjoying life with

Jesus!” His article in this issue, “Be Strong In the Lord” is a excerpt from his upcoming

book to be released later this year, Defeating the Sin Nature; Living From the Inside

Out, from his book series, The Unforgiving Heart. Pat and his wife reside in Orillia,

Ontario, Canada.

Pat Naccarato

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By Melodie A. Moss

Sons Of God, Where Are You?

Ladies, before you tune out thinking that this is directed just toward the men, please stay with me. The Word says

that the church is the Bride of Christ. If men are included as the Bride, then women can be sons of God. I love being a

woman, but I will be quick to include myself as a son. Let's take a look at some scripture.

There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free, there is neither male nor female; for you are all one in

Christ Jesus. And if you are Christ’s, then you are Abraham’s seed, and heirs according to the promise. Galatians

3:28-29

What qualifies you to be a son?

For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God. Romans 8:14

You must be led by the Spirit of God. Led by Him, not just possess Him. It's more like allowing Him to possess

you. To be led, is an acknowledgment of Him in your daily activities. It's following what the Word says to do and

quieting yourself to hear that still small voice.

A son of God submits his own will to the Father's will. Although man has been given free will by the Father and

can choose to pursue his own desires, a son of God will submit his or her own life’s goals to His plans. Can your own

desires be the same as God’s for you? Sure sometimes, but not always. How do I know that? Because even Jesus gave

up His own free will to follow Father's plan for His life. In the gospels, we see three accounts where the Lord prayed in

Gethsemane asking the Father to take that cup from Him. Of these three, I find account in Mark to be the most

poignant. And He said, “Abba, Father, all things are possible for You. Take this cup away from Me; nevertheless, not

what I will, but what You will.” Mark 14:36 Jesus clearly knew that anything was possible with God, ANYTHING. He

also stated His own will, which was to let that cup pass from Him, but submitted to His Father's will instead.

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Is that the only time we see Jesus submitting to the

Father? No, it certainly isn't. Let's look at two more

scriptures...

I can of Myself do nothing. As I hear, I judge; and My

judgment is righteous, because I do not seek My own will

but the will of the Father who sent Me. John 5:30

For I have come down from heaven, not to do My own

will, but the will of Him who sent Me. John 6:38

A child says, ”I want to do what I want, when I want

and how I want.”, but a son of God says, “Lord, this is the

dream of my heart and Your Word says that You give me

the desires of my heart, but I want to be certain of what

Your will is in my life because I want to do Your will and

not my own.”

There are certain things that we don't even have to

question because they are already spelled out in the Word.

The Bible says that God wishes above ALL things that we

prosper and be in health, even as our soul prospers (3

John 2). It says He wants a relationship with us, that He

loves us and that He knows the plans that He has for us

and they're good and they will give us a future and a hope

(Jeremiah 29:11), but do we really believe that? Jesus, the

Word that became Flesh, died for us. Can we not live for

Him? Do we trust Him? The Bible says in so many places

to have faith in God; not in ourselves, not in our own

faith, not in anything we can do or say, but IN HIM!

We pray and want God to open doors for us; doors that

we can't open ourselves, and yet, how many of us have

our own hand on the doorknob? Submission can simply

be to let go of the doorknob and trust Him to open the

door. To believe Him at his Word and to trust that He has

plans for us that are good and even better than our own.

He knows us better than we know ourselves. He sees

things from a different perspective and knows all of the

factors in every circumstance. Do we really believe that?

A son of God would settle that in their heart and choose to

make Him Lord by trusting and obeying His direction.

Proverbs 3:6 says In all your ways acknowledge Him,

and He shall direct your paths. What does that look like?

It's constant communication and relationship with Him.

It's involving Him in our daily lives and asking, “Lord,

what do You want me to do about this? What shall we do

today? What's the best choice in this situation for me to

make? He will direct our paths. We must trust His ability

to give directions as though He is the “Local” that has

been around town all His life (Forever) and knows how to

get you where you need to go.

Know that we are joint heirs with Christ. An heir

receives an inheritance and is usually a son or daughter.

When is an inheritance received? When someone dies.

Jesus has indeed died and rose again, so receive! His

glory is within you and the world is waiting to see it

revealed.

The Spirit Himself bears witness with our spirit that we

are children of God, and if children, then heirs—heirs of

God and joint heirs with Christ, if indeed we suffer with

Him, that we may also be glorified together. For I

consider that the sufferings of this present time are not

worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be

revealed in us. For the earnest expectation of the creation

eagerly waits for the revealing of the sons of God.

Romans 8:16-19

Did you get that? His glory shall be revealed in us

and the earnest expectation of the creation eagerly waits

for the revealing of the sons of God! Is this like a curtain

opening on a stage that will show you and me under a

spotlight so that we appear before a waiting audience as

sons of God? I think not! I believe it's up to us to find His

glory that is already deposited in our spirit. In order for us

to reveal it, we must learn how to manifest and release it

into this natural realm.. Another word for reveal is

manifest. Many of us are familiar with what is meant

when someone says a demon is manifesting. It means it

shows up, acts out and reveals itself by its actions and

words. It manifests from the spirit realm into the natural

one. Healing, provision and the promises of God are also

made manifest from the spirit into the natural world in

much the same way. It already exists, we just have to pull

it into our circumstances by faith with the power of God.

Sons of God are manifest in the same way. In our spirits,

His glory is already deposited in us. You already have it!

It's up to us to learn how to tap into it and to release His

Kingdom into this earthly realm at will.

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The best and most precious things are hidden. Valuables are often kept behind lock and key, tucked away in safes

and deposit boxes, hidden in walls, under beds and floorboards, on top shelves in closets and buried in the ground.

Some things are disguised and hidden in plain sight. We can be very good at hiding the things that are precious to us

unless you're me and you tuck things away in a “safe place” and promptly forget where you put them. Things are

hidden for a number of reasons. Surprises and gifts may be hidden for a time to be revealed on a special occasion. In

history, even people have been hidden away to help them escape horrific events. Precious or sentimental things and

items of great value are hidden to keep them from being stolen or damaged. On the flip side, crimes and sin are hidden

only for a time. The Word says in Luke 8:17 For nothing is secret that will not be revealed, nor anything hidden that

will not be known and come to light. All things come to light eventually, including the sons of God. We are hidden in

Him for our protection. He is our shelter and refuge and His glory is hidden in us. A good poker player doesn't reveal

his aces and a nation may not disclose all of their weapons. God may have a number of reasons for hiding His glory in

us, but it's not to be hidden from us but for both, our benefit and His.

He also hides secrets in the Word that are there for us to

find, if only we’ll look. Have you ever hidden Easter eggs for a

small child to find? When they're young, you hide the eggs so

they can easily be found and even then, they usually struggle

with finding them all. You may find yourself excitedly going to

the little one to steer her in ways to help her recover all of her

allotted eggs. When children are older, you can be more clever

in the way that you hide them because they understand more

and know how to look for those colorful treasures. Reading the

Bible can be much like that. There are hidden treasures within

the pages and Holy Spirit becomes the One that will steer us to

find those pearls of wisdom if we will only open the Book to

read it.

Jesus often taught in parables, which are earthly stories with

a heavenly meaning, and He explained them to His disciples.

The Word says, It is the glory of God to conceal a thing: but the

honour of kings is to search out a matter. Proverbs 25:2 It is

best that some things stay hidden in Him and for His glory to be

hidden in us for such a time as this.

Where do sons of God abide?

The Word says that we are seated with Him in heavenly places (Ephesians 1:20-23; Ephesians 2:6; Colossians 3:1),

but what does that look like? Do we sit at the feet of Jesus like Mary did? Do we sit on the throne with Jesus as we are

in Him? Maybe in a seat next to Him? Do we ever hop up into the Father's lap? What does it look like to have dual

citizenship? We are His ambassadors on the earth (2 Corinthians 5:20) which would make us citizens of heaven and

accredited diplomats sent from heaven as official representatives to the foreign land of this world. Is this still a bit

confusing to wrap your head around? Let's try imagining this in another way.

Congratulations on your new job offer here at God & Sons!

This position is called many things. You are a servant, a steward, a priest, a king, and a lord (1 Timothy 6:15)

among other things, but perhaps one of the best titles of your position is a son. After all, God Himself, is a proponent of

nepotism. He likes to stack the deck in the favor of His sons!

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Now imagine coming to work every day into this beautiful office with this unparalleled view! You can work quietly

at your desk or you are welcome to move over there, near the great cloud of witnesses. They have the best seats in the

house! Here you'll find everything you need to be successful in your new position. You have plenty of work space, a

nice desk and a comfortable chair, maps on the wall, music piped in that will relax, motivate and inspire. In this

corporation, you'll notice a large boardroom for meetings, fellowship and strategic planning for the betterment of the

nations and for Kingdom business in general. If ever you get stuck there are plenty of angels on hand willing and happy

to assist you and you can always take it up with the Big Man Himself. He likes it when you keep him in the loop on

what you're doing and your progress on His Pursuits and purposes for your assignment.

You will notice it's very easy to work here. You are far above principalities and powers. You won't be plagued with

distractions and the cares of the world. There's no strife, fear, worry, discouragement, antagonization, sickness, lack,

pain, office politics, competition or enemies here. No phones, doorbells, temptations or anything else to take you off

task. You will not have to contend with doubt or unbelief here. You couldn't find it here if you tried. You are expected to

be about Father's business now and it should be your primary focus. You take His mandates and direction and apply

them as you see fit. From your vantage point, you will speak to nations and behind the scenes you will oversee peace

negotiations, trade deals and matters of security. you will support world leadership with prayer and declaration from

your seat. It is your job to take care of the needs that you see globally, nationally, regionally, in communities, families

and individuals. What doesn't look like heaven, you must work to make it reflect what you see here. You will soon find

that all of Heaven backs you. What you say goes as long as it complies with our Kingdom principles.

I hope you heard that right and fully understand; that anything that you say will be done for you! If you know the

Father wants it, you don't have to ask special permission. You already know His will, and because you are His son,

what you say is as good as His word. This assignment is bigger than you. bigger than your family or community. We

have faith in you.

Of course, you may come and go as you please. We understand you will need to do much in the world and need to

be there. Just remember that it is much easier to work from here. You'll have the advantage of clearer vision and a place

to work without confusion, distractions and interference. You won't have to go check in with H.R.. Here, we are all part

of THE Human Resource department. Let's get to work!

What do sons of God do?

Let's see what Jesus, the Son of God, came to do.

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He who sins is of the devil, for the devil has sinned from the beginning. For this purpose the Son of God was

manifested, that He might destroy the works of the devil. 1 John 3:8

As I mentioned earlier, sons of God are to be revealed or manifested. Jesus was manifested for a purpose, which

was to destroy the works of the devil. Did He do that? You bet He did! He did so by becoming the final and perfect

Sacrifice which rent the veil to the Holy of Holies, giving us access to the Father again as it was intended from the

beginning. He has triumphant victory over the devil as we see in Colossians 2:14-15 Blotting out the handwriting of

ordinances that was against us, which was contrary to us, and took it out of the way, nailing it to his cross; And having

spoiled principalities and powers, he made a shew of them openly, triumphing over them in it.

So you might ask, “If the devil is a defeated foe, then why am I still dealing with him?” That's a great question and

the answer lies in authority. Adam handed over his authority to satan (his name is purposely not capitalized) at the time

of the fall. To be clear, satan has no authority in heaven, nor is he lord over hell. The lake of fire will be his punishment

one day. It's not his domain to rule. The Bible calls the devil the god of this world (2 Corinthians 4:4). This is why he is

so active on Earth and why he has so much influence over men. When we received Christ we became a new creation,

joined a new bloodline and gained new citizenship in heaven. You are no longer of this world (John 15:19), but you

now have authority over it in Christ. Jesus has restored authority to man and has given us authority over satan.

Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and nothing

shall by any means hurt you. Luke 10:19

Great! So what is a son of God to do with that authority? What did Jesus tell us to do after He was raised from the

dead and before He ascended to heaven?

“All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth. Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations,

baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all things that

I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” Amen. Matthew 28:18-20

He has ALL authority! We are commissioned to GO and do as He has commanded of us. We know that we are to

continue His work of taking authority over the enemy and establishing the Kingdom of Heaven here on Earth. As He is,

so are we in this world (1 John 4:17).

And as you go, preach, saying, ‘The kingdom of heaven is at hand.’ Heal the sick, cleanse the lepers, raise the dead,

cast out demons. Freely you have received, freely give. Matthew 10:7-8

Let's not forget, there's more.

“Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these

he will do, because I go to My Father. And whatever you ask in My name, that I will do, that the Father may be

glorified in the Son. If you ask anything in My name, I will do it.” John 14:12-14

Be about the REs

Huh? The REs? Yes, son of God. Be mindful to be about the Father's business of REconciling the lost, REstoring

hope, REnewing faith, REmembering Him, not just during communion, but in all things. REbuild, REdeem,

REpurpose, bring REstitution, REdefine, REvive, RElate and REjoice!

REst in Him.

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How can you spot a son of God?

One way you will know a son is

that they will lay down their life for the

sake of others; perhaps not on a cross,

but by being selfless in many ways.

(John 15:13) They may be the one who

will race to a hospital in the middle of

the night to sit with a worried family or

friend, the one who volunteers, who is

charitable, or who is helpful to a

stranger in need. He or she feeds the

hungry, clothes the naked and visits

prisoners. They are the ones who gives

of themselves and of their resources as

a habit and not an exception. They

bring comfort to the hurting. You will

know them by their fruit, by the way

that they love and the way that they

lead. A son is the one who chooses the

front line in a battle. They can face fear

with courage and will not waver or

back down. They endure even when they're weary. A son is a peacemaker amid strife, does right in all things and will

lead, even if that wasn't their choice. A son is the voice for the silent and a defender of the weak. They can be trusted

with secrets and give great wisdom in counsel. A son is more than a conqueror in Christ Jesus.

“Ye are gods.”

Oh, I know that this will make many of you cringe. It did me at first too, but I have scripture for your perusal. Lets

start with Exodus 7:1 And the Lord said unto Moses, See, I have made thee a god to Pharaoh: and Aaron thy brother

shall be thy prophet. God made Moses a god to Pharaoh. I didn't say that, the Bible did. Could it mean that Moses was

God's representative and spoke only what the LORD said to speak to Pharaoh? Sure. Maybe there was some issue with

the translation? Maybe, but as sons, aren't we also to be His representatives and speak His Word too?... Absolutely.

Here we go, let's look at another one...

God standeth in the congregation of the mighty; He judgeth among the gods...

I have said, Ye are gods; and all of you are children of the most High. Psalm 82 verses 1&6

Another translation flaw? Perhaps, it could be translated as judges. The children of the most High are gods? Notice

again that I didn't say that, Psalm 82 did. Either way, God has appointed men to positions of authority in which they are

considered as gods among the people. There's that word “authority” again. Jesus has ALL authority. Jesus also cited this

same scripture when He was threatened with stoning.

The Jews answered Him, saying, “For a good work we do not stone You, but for blasphemy, and because You, being a

Man, make Yourself God.”

Jesus answered them, “Is it not written in your law, ‘I said, “You are gods” ’? If He called them gods, to whom the

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Word of God came (and the Scripture cannot be broken), do you say of Him whom the Father sanctified and sent into

the world, ‘You are blaspheming,’ because I said, ‘I am the Son of God’? If I do not do the works of My Father, do not

believe Me; but if I do, though you do not believe Me, believe the works, that you may know and believe that the Father

is in Me, and I in Him.” John 10:33-38

“If He called them gods, to whom the Word of God came”...the Word came for US! In the beginning was the Word

and the Word was with God, and the Word was God... And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us. (John 1) For

God so loved the world, He gave His only begotten Son. (John 3:16). “I said, You are gods.” Jesus said that!

If a man has a son, it's a man. If a horse has a son, it's a horse, right? If a chimpanzee has a son, it's a chimp off the

ole' block, are you with me? If God has a son.... Is the light bulb coming on yet?... a god? At least own that you are a

son of God.

I'm not sure what eternity will look like, but I do have trouble wrapping my head around it. I once heard a preacher

say that if there was a steel ball bearing the size of the Earth and once every ten thousand years a dove was released and

its wing just barely brushed up against it in one pass before going away for another ten thousand years, that even after

that ball bearing was worn completely away by feathers, eternity would just be getting started. I think I would want

something important and meaningful to do with all of that time! You know, God created innumerable stars and planets

within the vast universe. Perhaps there is a planet out there with every son of God's name on it. I can tell you now, after

I've visited loved ones to my heart's content and spent plenty of time with all of those I long to meet and have been

abundantly satisfied to enjoy all of the splendor of my heavenly home where I will forever retain citizenship, this son

would rather enjoy squaring up to a planet that was without form and void and, with my Father smiling and looking on

behind me, I would love to call forth from the darkness of space, “Light be!”

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Ask and Believe and It Will be Yours

By Sheila Compatriotte

Are you one of those people who wonders why you aren’t moving in the gifts of the Holy Spirit as others do? Are

there other gifts that you desire to flow in but it never had the opportunity to do so? I think I may have a way to help

you with that, but let’s start with some information from the word of God.

There is only one Holy Spirit and all believers receive Him when they become part of God’s family. All churches

may not teach this in this way but the word of God is clear on the matter.

1Corinthians 12:13 For by one Spirit are we all baptized into one body, whether we be Jews or Gentiles, whether

we be bond or free: and have been all made to drink into one Spirit.

This scripture shows this there is only one Holy Spirit and that all believers receive the Holy Spirit when they are

baptized into the body of Christ.

Ephesians 1:13-14 When you heard the message of truth, the Gospel of your salvation, and when you believed in

Him, you were also sealed with the promised Holy Spirit. He is the down payment of our inheritance.

This is a scripture you can really chew on. What it says is that if we hear the Gospel and we believe in Christ then

we are sealed with the promise of the Holy Spirit. What this means is, not only that our seat in heaven has been saved,

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ut that we are made able by the Holy Spirit to have a foretaste (or a down payment) here on earth of the heaven we are

guaranteed.

Ephesians 1:3 May blessing (praise, laudation, and eulogy) be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ (the

Messiah) Who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual (given by the Holy Spirit) blessing in the heavenly realm!

Wow! Well wait, what are the spiritual blessings Paul is speaking about? The word blessing comes from the Greek

word eulogia which means benefit. Paul goes on to list the benefits in the same chapter verses 4 through 9, but for the

purposes of this article, let’s look at the most important word for our topic.

It is that little word, every. That word means all the individual things that make up the whole – without exception.

So what Paul is saying here is that we have received every single blessing that the Holy Spirit has to offer. Really let

that sink in for just a moment. If we’ve received every single blessing, that should mean that nothing is lacking in our

lives when it comes to spiritual blessing, right? So if you are not moving in the gifts of the spirit freely, something is

blocking them. Wouldn’t that be a logical conclusion to draw? It really would be.

If there is something blocking our ability to move freely in all the benefits of the Holy Spirit, know that it is not

being blocked on God’s end. God wants us strong, powerful and discerning. It is our job to take back territory and win

the world for Christ. We need all the tools we can fit in our tool belt to do that!

The first thing that will block the Holy Spirit from moving with power through you is your expectations. Most

people who are Spirit filled believe in all the gifts and the power of the Holy Spirit. Most believe that God can do

anything. Few, however, believe that God can do anything through them.

The gifts of the Spirit are gifts. They are not earned; they cannot be bought with good works or years of study or

anything else. You don’t have to be good enough to move in the gift of prophecy or healing.

Matthew 11:23 says this, "Truly I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, 'Be taken up and cast into the sea,' and

does not doubt in his heart, but believes that what he says is going to happen, it will be granted him.

Notice that it says ‘whoever’ which tells us that this gift is not just for special people, but for all of us.

In John 14:13, Jesus says “And whatsoever ye shall ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified

in the Son.”

God has chosen to move through us nearly all of the time – through us believers – and this word, too, is for all of us.

Matthew 21:21 states this again. "Truly I tell you," Jesus replied, "if you have faith and do not doubt, not only will

you do what was done to the fig tree, but even if you say to this mountain, 'Be lifted up and thrown into the sea,' it will

happen.” Can you see how Jesus Himself tells us that WE can do these things?…Not some of us, but whoever and

anyone who has faith. (see also Matt 17:20; Luke 17:6; Matt 28:18-20; acts 1:8; )

So your first order of faith is to believe that God can do anything through anyone – if they will believe – and that

includes you.

Still not convinced? This is who God used the most… How do you measure up to the Bible heroes?

Paul, once called Saul, chased down Christians and watched as those he appointed killed them with stones. (Read

Acts 7:57-8:1) Paul wrote 2/3 of the New Testament.

David committed adultery and set up the woman’s husband to be killed. (Read 2 Samuel 11) David was the only man in

all the Bible to be called a man after God’s own heart.

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Abraham gave his wife to another man, saying she was his sister – to save his own skin. (Read Gen 12:10-20; Gen

20:1-88) Abraham is called the father of the faithful and all believers are in his family. (Read Rom 4:13-17 and Gal

13:29) No other man had this honor.

Jonah told God no – and ended up in a whale. He changed his mind and God used him to save a city. God thought

he was important enough to include his life story in his own book in sacred scriptures to be read until the end of the

world. (Read the book of Jonah for his whole life story)

We could go on and on – everyone in the Bible was a sinner, before they were saved by grace. Most were very

ordinary people – fisherman, carpenters, shepherds; young and old and male and female – saved or not – God can and

did use all kinds of people.

Christ’s stripes and His death paid for your right to sit in the heavenlies, to lay hands on the sick and see them

recover, to move mountains, to raise the dead, to be a light and a witness and so much more. Embrace everything that

the Lord suffered for – all that His family has been given.

Release all that is to be yours by simply taking the Lord at His Word. God does not lie. There is a whole life

adventure in the Spirit awaiting you … all you have to do is ask and believe and it will be yours.

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Met By Love

By William Cuccia

Walking down a road searching to become something of value, respected by others; in search of some level of fame

or fortune, I come upon one who is lost sitting by the side of the road. Possibly homeless, despondent and in great

need. No words are necessary; his lost eyes are crying out for love.

I hear the Spirit call to the lonely one on the side of the road. “My love is all you’ll ever need.”

The Love of Christ will see you through friend, in those lonely places, during the hours when no one else is there to

comfort, to acknowledge the need to be loved. When there’s no one else.

“My love is all you’ll ever need. My love touches deeper than the sensual, deeper than the one whose a lover of

your flesh.”

The Good News friend, in midst of your loneliness, this homeless journey, the same love that motivated Christ to go

to the cross for the sins of man, the love that drove him to the cross, the nails and crown of thorns, all He endured was

out of love for the one by the side of the road; the one lost on this journey called life.

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Sitting next to the one on the side of the road, the one in pain and obviously has no where to go, I risk, reaching out

touching the hand of the lost one, allowing a love to flow from one lost soul to another. A love that washes feet, a love

that confronted the money changers.

Side by side on the road to no where special two become one by a love that neither understands. Pain is soothed,

needs are being met, by one simple innocent touch of the love of Christ, pure, holy love that has no conditions, no ex -

pectations.

This is the Authority of His love. It meets needs, it speaks without words, His love heals blind eyes, deaf ears, it

breaks chains of bondage, all with a touch. Our Father’s authority is released when the love of Christ is expressed and

shared in ways the world doesn’t understand.

This love requires no words yet it speaks volumes, there’s communion, acceptance of each other. The authority to

touch another life with this love that only Jesus truly expresses. It translates to every language, its in a look, a pure eye

to eye contact, a connection to understand another’s pain and just sit and be with them. The authority of His love does

the work, the responsibility is in the expression of the touch, the acknowledgment that the love of Christ is being acti -

vated.

So we sit, no longer in search of anything to fill the void of our lives, the love of God is meeting us in this moment

where two become one in the presence of a love that is unexplainable.

What can be explained is two lives having crossed on a road going in different directions are met by love that releases

forgiveness, washes away despondency, erases loneliness and all emptiness is filled where two lost souls are met

by love. Not love for one another although there is a bond of brotherhood at some level; two strangers are met by the

presence of God’s love.

Love that reaches down and says enough of the torment, no more pain, no more rejection, in the connection of these

two lives, love flows with great authority.

I hear the Spirit of God crying out, “There’s freedom, liberty, truth springing forth and healing the soul, all in the

authority of My love; I am Love.”

The one who I reached out and touched with this great love suddenly comes alive with hope, peace flushes over his

face and he looks as though he desires to express thanksgiving yet not sure where to direct the joy that obviously has

overcome him.

He reaches out and squeezes my hand, holds on, we sit awhile longer basking in the presence of this great love. It

washes us, cleansing all that brought us to this place in time. The Authority of God’s love is making us new, refreshing

and allowing us to have the freedom to let go of the past and accept one another in this moment of love’s expression.

In this place by the side of a once lonely road, every thought that would speak of unworthiness now receives the

love that conquers all.

I realize there’s satisfaction in reaching out to love with God’s authority to touch a life and express His love. Yes,

I’m fulfilled in this moment, not by the touching of another soul, but in the communion of coming together and receiving

the fullness of the love of God.

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I hear Jesus calling us to go deeper, to wait with him in this place and allow love to have its way, do its work, accomplish

the purpose of this ordained meeting.

Could it be Love has met us here not only to set one captive free from the torment of life, the pain of homelessness,

the anguish of disappointment. Could it be that this great love of God desires to show me that my fulfillment, my desires,

the pursuit of dreams can only be found when I step into the Authority of Love and become a broken vessel

poured out.

The sun begins to set on this moment, there’s no concern about where I’m headed, no need to get up and get going.

This is my destination, to sit and commune in the Love of God.

As I sit touching the hand of another soul, I hear, “God so loved” ringing in my soul.

My soul has been quieted, I’m at rest, I don’t think I’ll be leaving soon.

Take time to read: Matthew 18.19-22, John 15.13, 1 Corinthians 13.8, John 3.16, Zephaniah 3.17 with new eyes.

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The Great Commission

By Olga Kievitt

What I am about to say may upset a few people, I am going to say it anyway. When the Lord told us in Mark 16 to

lay hands on the sick that they may be healed, to cast out devils in My name, He never once said you need a special

anointing to do this. Now before you start getting offended, let me ask you a question. Are you born again? Are you

filled with the Holy Spirit with the evidence of speaking in tongues? If the answer is YES, then let me enlighten you.

You have ALL the power of God living inside of YOU. The Holy Spirit in you is the same power of God that raised

Jesus from the dead. There is no junior Holy Spirit. When you got filled then you got filled..... You don't have to wait

for "a feeling" before you lay hands on someone Jesus said, “You in ME, I in You.” You have the anointed One living

inside you. You don't have to wait for the anointing that destroys the yoke. The anointed One lives in you. The Lord

says in His word, Ask the Father anything in My name (The name of Jesus ) and it shall be done. The Lord said in His

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word while ministering to someone, “Be it unto you according to YOUR faith”.... Now He wasn't talking about us

having faith in our words, but having faith in GOD and His WORD. If you are born again then you are a child of God

and joint heirs with Jesus. The WORD says that Greater things would we do than He did.

Now back to Deliverance and Healing...... Nowhere is the bible does it talk about having a Healing or Deliverance

ministry. As children of God we ALL have the same power and authority living in us. The Holy Spirit, the third person

of the trinity but no less important than the other two. EVERY CHILD OF GOD IS MEANT TO DO THE GREAT

COMMISSION. It isn't for a select few. EVERY child of GOD is EQUAL in the eyes of GOD. Not one person is more

special to God than another. When Jesus hung on that cross he did it for ALL mankind no matter who there were. ALL

means ALL.

I have heard many people yell

and scream at people trying to get

them healed or delivered from

demons and nothing ever happens.

People ask why. The answer is

simple.... plenty of zeal but NO

FAITH. Zeal will NOT move a

mountain only FAITH. The bible

says to build up your most holy

faith. How do you do that, you

ask?.... Well, I will tell you. You

study the word. You listen to some

really good bible teaching... you

spend time on your knees before the

Lord. When you meet a person that

you are interested in how do you

get to know them? Right... You

spend time with that person so that

you can get to know them.... You do

the same thing when you are getting

to know Jesus. The more you get to

know Jesus through His word the

more you get to know your true

identity. It's time for you to step out

and walk in that identity. Get out there and lay hands on the sick. If the Lord says they have a demon then cast it out.

Remember His words in Luke 10:19. I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and over ALL the

power of the enemy and NOTHING shall by any means harm you. Now get out there and be the feet that tramples

those demons down. Put on those combat boots. Put those demons under your feet. Crush them. If you saw the movie,

The Passion of the Christ, then you will remember the starting scene. It shows you a foot in a sandal crushing the head

of the serpent. You be those feet. When you get out of bed on a morning the demons should be running in fear knowing

they are about to be crushed. Don’t ever be afraid of a demon if you see one. You are the one with ALL the power and

authority given you by Jesus himself. The demons know this, but they will try to convince you otherwise. Don’t let

them. As a child of God you are a warrior in His army so you are more than a conqueror.

Remember, God loves you. You are very special to Him. So special He gave His life for you.

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Who God Says You Are

By John Gold

The Mind of Christ

“I am to be loved, honored and respected solely because I exist. I am to be cherished, spoiled, celebrated because I Am!

I was made to be admired. I am a beloved child of God after all.” —Emmanuella Raphaelle

he greatest discovery we will ever find is when you understand and accept who God says you are form His

Tperspective and not our own. We are instructed to have the mind of Christ, not the mind of ourselves.

For “who has known the mind of the LORD that he may instruct Him? “But we have the mind of Christ. (1 Corinthians

2:16)

Let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus (Philippians 2:5)

And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind… (Romans 12:2)

To renew our minds and take on the mind of Christ we must first understand our brains. Our five senses, spirit,

flesh, soul and imagination reside between our ears. Everything that we are connects in our brains. When people say, “I

know it in my heart.” What they are saying is I know it in my mind. The emphasis in the above scriptures is on the

“mind.”

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Why? Because in totality it is where everything in us

connects, everything we are resides in our minds. The

space between our ears is the most significant battlefield

in history.

In 1 Corinthians 2, there are truths concerning the

mind of Christ.

1) The mind of Christ stands in sharp contrast to the

wisdom of man (verses 5-6).

2) The mind of Christ involves wisdom from God,

once hidden but now revealed (verse 7).

3) The mind of Christ is given to believers through the

Spirit of God (verses 10-12).

4) The mind of Christ cannot be understood by those

without the Spirit (verse 14).

5) The mind of Christ gives believers discernment in

spiritual matters (verse 15).

To have the mind of Christ, one must first have saving

faith and concrete belief in Christ (John 1:12;1 John

5:12). After salvation, the believer lives a life under God’s

influence. The Holy Spirit indwells and enlightens the

believer, infusing him with wisdom—the mind of Christ.

The believer bears a responsibility to yield to the Spirit’s

leading (Ephesians 4:30) and to allow the Spirit to

transform and renew his mind (Romans 12:1-2).

Taking Responsibility

Beloved, I used to be the greatest at the blame game.

When I was eleven years old, I was molested until the age

of thirteen. In this period I lost my identity, my authentic

self. As an unconscious defense, I took on a false identity

to protect myself. From the age of thirteen until the age of

thirty-eight I lived a lie, a false identity.

I became furious at everyone and everything. I blamed

myself, my parents and the man who did the dastardly

deeds. I always pointed the finger at everything but

myself. I became a control freak, went in the military at

eighteen years of age and then had the attitude of a drill

sergeant for years. I was right, and everyone else was

wrong. If something had to be done, it was going to be

accomplished my way or the highway. I had so much rage

and anger in me and yet never realized it.

In February of 2000, I committed suicide and was

dead for two days. In my death, Jesus came and saved me.

He literally raised me from the dead. This led to a

confrontation, an actual battle between me, Jesus and the

enemy. In this battle for my life, I made a choice and

gained salvation and was filled with the Holy Spirit. This

began a journey of discovering my identity, truth, taking

on the mind of Christ and growing in the Kingdom of

God.

Upon relenting and asking for help, the first question I

was asked by the Holy Spirit was this… “Who are you?” I

grappled with this question for about a week. I said I am

John Gold. The Holy Spirit said, “No, that is your name,

not who you are.” I am a soldier (I was in the Army at that

time) I responded. The Holy Spirit stated, “No, that is

your job title, not who you are.” This went on until I

exhausted everything, and I just said to the Holy Spirit. I

have no idea of who I am. He said, “Yes, you do not know

your identity or who you are.”

Shortly after this, I felt so empty as I realized I was

living with a false identity and I broke. I fell to my knees

and travailed and cried what seemed like forever, but it

was just a few hours. All the anger, all the hurt, all the

blame, I confessed all I had done and all I had become

until that day.

Then something miraculous happened. On my knees,

with a tear-soaked shirt, a messy face, I literally felt a

hand go into my chest, grab my heart and for the first time

in my life felt what His love honestly feels like. I felt the

healing power, the love power of God overtake me, but I

want to explain the importance of this… it was the first

time I felt the love of God which is nothing like earthly

love. It is unexplainable. It was the first step of my

journey of discovering and regaining my true identity.

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Jesus and the Holy Spirit are gentlemen first and foremost. The love of God does not force itself, it does not

condemn, and it does not cause pain. Jesus is interested in our inner man, the core of our being. The way you come to

yourself and gain your identity is the process of peeling an onion. Jesus in His time will begin removing layers of your

false self and false beliefs but at the same time reveal the truth. For me, to this day it is an ongoing process. It is a

process you cannot rush and just to save you the suspense it will continue throughout your natural life until you are

taken home to heaven. This is the life of Christ in you, this is the process of awakening the Kingdom within you as you

discover your authentic self and it is the most significant change you will ever have in your life - The renewing of your

mind.

The first lesson is this. You can no longer blame anything outside yourself. You are in the position you’re in today

because of choices you made. Did circumstances happen that you did not ask for? Sure, there are but to begin this

journey of discovery, from this day forward no longer can you place blame or point fingers. You will find, if you are

honest with yourself, you indeed are in the position you are in today because of choices you made. The great news is

you can also make good decisions and choices.

This is where many people will stop, they will stop because they do not

want to face themselves and take responsibility for their actions, they do not

want to see the truth in the mirror. 90% of most people do not want to take

responsibility, admit failure and confess who they truly are. The devil has had a

hayday with these people, and they are in his grip and blinded by false truths,

lies and false identities. Fear, doubt and unbelief are the main factors of why

they refuse the truth and fail to become who God created them to be, and most

important fail to become who God says they are. The freedom and power that

comes from knowing your identity are fantastic and amazing. Truth is the

greatest freedom, power, and weapon in the world.

Then Jesus said to those who believed Him, “If you abide in My word, you are

My disciples indeed. 32 And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make

you free.” John 8:31-32

The time to be honest

It is my honor and privilege at this time to stop the merry-go-round you have been on, it is time to stop living a lie

based on your false identity, it is time to be real and honest with God and yourself. It is time to begin to peel the onion.

I am going to offer a practical and truthful prayer into the Kingdom of God. You can pray this word for word, or you

can just pray what is on your heart it is up to you, but this will be the greatest thing you have ever done and will begin

your journey to your true and authentic self and will give you access to the Kingdom of God.

Whether you are saved or not there are only two requirements to gain Salvation, and it is found in Romans Chapter

10, specifically verses 9-10.

Brethren, my heart’s desire and prayer to God for Israel is that they may be saved. 2 For I bear them witness that they

have a zeal for God, but not according to knowledge. 3 For they being ignorant of God’s righteousness, and seeking to

establish their own righteousness, have not submitted to the righteousness of God. 4 For Christ is the end of the law for

righteousness to everyone who believes.

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For Moses writes about the righteousness which is of the law, “The man who does those things shall live by them.” 6

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But the righteousness of faith speaks in this way, “Do not say in your heart, ‘Who will ascend into heaven?’ ” (that is,

to bring Christ down from above) 7 or, “ ‘Who will descend into the abyss?’ ” (that is, to bring Christ up from the

dead). 8 But what does it say? “The word is near you, in your mouth and in your heart” (that is, the word of faith which

we preach): 9 that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him

from the dead, you will be saved. 10 For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth,

confession is made unto salvation. 11 For the Scripture says, “Whoever believes on Him will not be put to shame.” 12

For there is no distinction between Jew and Greek, for the same Lord over all is rich to all who call upon Him. 13 For

“whoever calls on the name of the LORD shall be saved.” Romans 10:1-13

Dear Jesus, I am tired of living a lie, I am tired of trying to live this life by myself. Right now reveal to me all sin

that I need to confess, not really to you, but so I am aware of the state I am in. (at this time just be silent and still

and soon the hurts, pains, lies, wrongdoings will come to your mind and just say them out loud.) Jesus, I am tired of

living this false identity, but it is all I know. I don’t know how to find my true identity, but I know you do. If you are

willing Jesus, I am ready to receive your salvation and begin the journey with you to reveal my true identity of who

you say I am in faith and fully believing in you. I am willing to have my onion peeled away and allow you to begin

creating in me who I have always been to you, My true and authentic self. I confess with my mouth that you are the

Christ, that you willingly laid down your life for me on the cross, died and rose again. I believe what you did for me

and that I am now righteous before you. I chose this day to renounce Satan and all his works in me through his

demons and any control they have had over me. I surrender my life battle to you, Jesus, I believe with all I am, in

my whole heart that you are my Lord and Savior, that you are the Christ. I give you and your Holy Spirit permission

to come into my mind, my heart, Spirit, and life and create in me the true me by the true you and your kingdom.

Amen.

Congratulations! This is the first day of you becoming the true authentic you. The real You God created you to be!

Faith and Believe – Renewing our minds.

In Hebrew, the word faith is “emunah” meaning firm, something supported or secure. It is someone firm in their

actions. Faith in English is usually perceived as a knowing while the proper Hebrew word “emunah” is a firm action.

To have faith in God is not knowing God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit but instead having faith beyond any doubt they are

true, and the Word of God and His promises are true beyond any doubt or fear.

Faith is our firm, secure belief that God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit are who they say they are and in faith, we take

laser-focused action concerning the Word and our relationship with Him. There is absolutely no doubt, fear or unbelief.

It involves acting to prove what the heart already knows. Faith without works is dead. James 2:14, 20, 26 .

The Hebrew word for believe is Aman which means stability and confidence. To be steady, firm and trustworthy. To

believe is not only cognitive (the mental act of acquiring knowledge) but also personal for we believe without doubting

God’s word of promise. This is a black and white issue and non-negotiable because who we indeed are, depend on it. I

can tell you that the views of the world are 180 degrees in opposition to the Kingdom of God.

I want to give an example of faith and believe concerning renewing our minds. In Romans 8:1 Paul states, There is

therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but

according to the Spirit. How many times do you get down on yourself, how many times do you speak negatively of

yourself? How many times do you condemn yourself? If you were like me, I did it all the time until I came to

understand these two most powerful words - faith and believe.

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One day the Holy Spirit said to me “you have a spirit of antichrist.” I was stunned, that statement stopped me in my

tracks, as it truly shook me to my core. I asked the Holy Spirit how I had this spirit of antichrist, and He said “because

you do not believe and have faith. My Word told you There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in

Christ Jesus, so why do you condemn yourself? I honestly had to ponder this and meditate on it. The Holy Spirit was

right, if Jesus does not condemn me, then why because of guilt and fear do I condemn myself? Beloved, fear, doubt and

unbelief is the faith of the enemy, it is the spirit of anti-Christ and has no place in the life of a believer.

Beloved it is not enough to kind-of-believe or half-heartedly believe, we must without question believe every Word

of God with blind childlike faith. If the Word says it, then it is true. The day the Holy Spirit pointed this out opened my

mind and radically changed my life, and it will dramatically improve your life too, but first, we need to get very real

and very honest with ourselves.

I would like to regress for a moment because there have been some wrong teachings for too long and they need to

be rectified. This will help in the renewing of our minds, solidifying our faith and beliefs because until we get very

honest and real with ourselves and take responsibility, we will continue a mindless merry-go-round with no end in

sight.

Confronting wrong teachings

“We gain strength and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to

look fear in the face...we must do that which we think we cannot." —Eleanor Roosevelt

One of the greatest deceptions the enemy has used is the issue of sin. Believers to this day continue to struggle with

what they perceive is sin in their lives. The enemy keeps the body of Christ jumping from one foot to the other as they

draw close to God only to do something, they perceive is sin and then fall away. To be strengthened just to be crushed

again and again is the greatest struggle the body of Christ personally faces. Sin has been taught incorrectly in the body

of Christ, and many have opinions but let us get this truth down deep in our Kingdom minds. On the cross, Jesus took

all sin upon Himself. All sin from the past, present, and future for those in Christ is gone. We are told by Paul in

Romans 8 “For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made me free from the law of sin and death.”

Beloved, upon your salvation the old man passed away, and we are now a new creation, wholly righteous and free

of sin. We are in fact saints. You cannot be a sinner and a saint, you are one or the other. You may have heard someone

say that “I am a sinner saved by grace.” That is the Spirit of stupid. You are a saint saved by grace. From this day

forward get deep down in your Kingdom mind that you are a saint and wholly righteous. Not because of what you do or

do not do but because of who Christ is and what Christ did for us all. You no longer can make yourself unrighteous or a

sinner, it is impossible. To say you do is a spirit of antichrist and a lie from the Devourer.

Post-It-Notes and Sin

Remember the following example and if you want to do this you can, I did, and it was fun. As I struggled in my

walk with Christ gaining wisdom and knowledge in Him and His Kingdom, I would do something stupid, act

incorrectly or flat out do something I knew was wrong, and then I would be crushed as condemnation, fear, doubt, and

unbelief entered my mind.

The Holy Spirit one day told me to get post-it-notes and write down the things I struggle with. I sat and wrote about

eight things I personally struggle with that I perceived is a sin. Holy Spirit told me the following: “Walk to the far end

of the room and place those post-it notes all over yourself.” and so I did. He told me to “walk and as you walk to pull

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the post-it notes off.” I did as He requested, and upon arriving at the other side of the room, the post-it notes were on

the floor in a trail behind me. This is what the Holy Spirit explained to me, and it is true. “In our relationship continue

to walk towards me, continue to study the Word, seek, knock, gain knowledge, understanding, and wisdom. Spend time

with me but always move forward, grow, mature and as you do these things you perceive as sin or bad habits, wrong

thoughts, etc. will fall away. Many stop walking. They will pull off a post-it note and just stand there and stare at it

because they are focused on the issue which holds them back from moving forward instead of focusing on me and

pressing or walking towards me. What your mind focuses on is what will manifest. Either focus on self and be out of my

will or focus on me and I will help change your “self.” That’s our relationship, that’s how you renew your mind and

gain your identity. Faith is action.”

Let’s take a new believer. They have just come out of the world and could have addiction problems, anger issues,

they might be hooked on pornography, are bold face liars, gossips, etc. The moment they receive Christ are they any

less saved and righteous than a believer who has walked with God for twenty years? Of course not. Salvation and

righteousness are not on a sliding scale. Does the new believer have old habits and issues more so than a believer who

has walked with the Lord for 20 years? Sure they will. So how do we reconcile this?

Believers new or old all have issues or post-it-notes, these post-it-notes will diminish over time as we continue to

grow in Christ but make no mistake, all will keep having problems until we are taken home to heaven. Are we to be

condemned for the post-it-notes? Absolutely not, for there is now, therefore, NO CONDEMNATION in Christ Jesus.

Post-it notes are simply relationship issues. God uses our weaknesses to draw us closer to Him. If we were perfect

would we need Him or desire a relationship with Him? Let's take lust as a post-it-note. I had an issue with lust, and

every time I thought I conquered it there, it would come again. So one day I just got sick of it and said, “Holy Spirit I

have an issue and I am tired of it. I have done everything I know, but I still have it, and I simply want to overcome this,

will you help me?” It took a few months but things began to happen, I went to church, and it was a topic the preacher

was teaching on. I was led by the Holy Spirit to scriptures concerning lust, and I became more dependent on Him for

answers.

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Now at the time, I worked in downtown Greenville, SC. On my lunch break, I would leave the office, go to the

park, read scripture, talk to the Holy Spirit and eat my lunch. One particular day as I was walking back to work. I was

at a crosswalk waiting for the light to change and across the street, at the intersection, a gorgeous woman was standing

to wait for the same light to turn. I began undressing her with my eyes when suddenly Jesus showed up behind her and

said to me “What are you doing? This is my creation, my daughter and what you are doing to her you are also doing to

me.” I looked down as that truth shocked and rocked my thinking. I was not just doing this to her but to Jesus Himself.

As I looked up Jesus was gone and for the next few days pondering this. Was I cured immediately? No, indeed not, as a

matter of fact everywhere I went for the next thirty days had scantily clad women someplace, billboards with models,

magazines in grocery lines but something occurred in me. All I did was see Jesus in everything I saw, and today I no

longer struggle with lust. Today I look at all women as His daughters and now see a woman through His eyes and no

longer my own.

Did I condemn myself? Did I think I was an evil Christian? Did I hang my head in disgust of myself? Was I some

sort of sick sinner? Not at all because I knew who God said I was. I had an issue, but together with Christ, I became an

overcomer. That is the relationship.

“Remember who you are. Don’t compromise for anyone, for any reason. You are a child of the

Almighty God. Live that truth.” —Lysa Terkeurst

The Ammunition to Overcome and Renew Your Mind

I’m going to give you the ammunition to win

the battle of your old mindset and give you truths

of scripture of who God says you are and the

ability to renew your mind. These scriptures tell

you who God says you are. Anytime you think or

are told something other than what these

scriptures say, you are to say NO! and then repeat

these. I want you to copy and paste these in a

document and place them everywhere to keep

them before your eyes as much as possible.

Speaking truths out loud will help transform and renew your mind. We must believe and have the concrete faith to

change and renew our minds.

I am complete in Him Who is the Head of all principality and power (Colossians 2:10).

I am alive with Christ (Ephesians 2:5).

I am free from the law of sin and death (Romans 8:2).

I am far from oppression, and fear does not come near me (Isaiah 54:14).

I am born of God, and the evil one does not touch me (1 John 5:18).

I am holy and without blame before Him in love (Ephesians 1:4; 1 Peter 1:16).

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I am God’s child for I am born again of the incorruptible seed of the Word of God, who lives and abides forever (1

Peter 1:23).

I am God’s workmanship, created in Christ unto good works (Ephesians 2:10).

I am a new creature in Christ (2 Corinthians 5:17).

I am a spirit being alive to God (Romans 6:11; Thessalonians 5:23).

I am a believer, and the light of the Gospel shines in my mind (2 Corinthians 4:4).

I am a doer of the Word and blessed in my actions (James 1:22,25).

I am a joint-heir with Christ (Romans 8:17).

I am more than a conqueror through Him Who loves me (Romans 8:37).

I am an overcomer by the blood of the Lamb and the word of my testimony (Revelation 12:11).

I am a partaker of His divine nature (2 Peter 1:3-4).

I am an ambassador for Christ (2 Corinthians 5:20).

I am part of a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a purchased people (1 Peter 2:9).

I am the righteousness of God in Jesus Christ (2 Corinthians 5:21).

I am the temple of the Holy Spirit; I am not my own (1 Corinthians 6:19).

I am the head and not the tail; I am above only and not beneath (Deuteronomy 28:13).

I am the light of the world (Matthew 5:14).

I am His elect, full of mercy, kindness, humility, and longsuffering (Romans 8:33; Colossians 3:12).

I am forgiven of all my sins and washed in the Blood (Ephesians 1:7).

I am delivered from the power of darkness and translated into God’s kingdom (Colossians 1:13).

I am redeemed from the curse of sin, sickness, and poverty (Deuteronomy 28:15-68; Galatians 3:13).

I am firmly rooted, built up, established in my faith and overflowing with gratitude (Colossians 2:7).

I am called of God to be the voice of His praise (Psalm 66:8; 2 Timothy 1:9).

I am healed by the stripes of Jesus (Isaiah 53:5; 1 Peter 2:24).

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I am raised up with Christ and seated in heavenly places (Ephesians 2:6; Colossians 2:12).

I am greatly loved by God (Romans 1:7; Ephesians 2:4; Colossians 3:12; 1 Thessalonians 1:4).

I am strengthened with all might according to His glorious power (Colossians 1:11).

I am submitted to God, and the devil flees from me because I resist him in the Name of Jesus (James 4:7).

I have the mind of Christ (1 Corinthians 2:16; Philippians 2:5).

I have the peace of God that passes all understanding (Philippians 4:7).

I have the Greater One living in me; greater is He Who is in me than he who is in the world ( 1 John 4:4).

I have received the gift of righteousness and reign as a king in life by Jesus Christ ( Romans 5:17).

I have received the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Jesus, the eyes of my understanding being

enlightened (Ephesians 1:17-18).

I have received the power of the Holy Spirit to lay hands on the sick and see them recover, to cast out demons, to speak

with new tongues. I have power over all the power of the enemy, and nothing shall by any means harm me ( Mark

16:17-18; Luke 10:17-19).

I have put off the old man and have put on the new man, which is renewed in the knowledge after the image of Him

Who created me (Colossians 3:9-10 ).

I have given, and it is given to me; good measure, pressed down, shaken together, and running over, men give into my

bosom (Luke 6:38).

I have no lack for my God supplies all of my need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus ( Philippians 4:19).

I can quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one with my shield of faith ( Ephesians 6:16).

I can do all things through Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:13).

I show forth the praises of God Who has called me out of darkness into His marvellous light ( 1 Peter 2:9).

I press on toward the goal to win the prize to which God in Christ Jesus is calling us upward ( Philippians 3:14).

For God has not given us a spirit of fear; but of power, love, and a sound mind ( 2 Timothy 1:7).

It is not I who live, but Christ lives in me ( Galatians 2:20).

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Sometimes Words Speak Louder

My earthly father never said much. A man of few words yet I know he loved.

As a twelve year old little leaguer, I’d led the league in hitting but had not hit one home run. I knew my father was

proud of me for my hitting prowess, yet he sent messages of the thrill it would be to see me hit a home run.

My twelfth birthday just happened to fall on the day of our first all star game. I was the lead off hitter and on the first

pitch of the game, I drove a ball over the center field fence for my first home run. As I rounded second base I heard a

resounding voice yelling above the little crowd cheering, “That’s my boy! That’s my boy!”

I looked up as I rounded third base and my father, already with the ball in his hand was standing pounding the ball in

the air yelling, “That’s my boy! That’s my boy!”

In that moment I knew he was proud of me and loved me, not for the home run. The emotion of how he really felt

about me was being displayed for all to witness.

That was my Bar Mitzvah, my right of passage; my father’s approval with those words, “That’s my boy!”

Seven years later, my father and I were on a trip from Southern California to Fort Lewis Washington. I was now a

nineteen year old young man who had recently enlisted in the United States Army. My father decided to help me drive

my truck north to my permanent post.

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We hardly spoke during the two day 1100 mile drive up the interstate. I can’t recall any of our conversations; nothing.

I do remember walking to my barracks, turning and seeing my father wiping tears from his eyes as he got in the taxi

to go to the airport. Moments before he had given me a hug, the kind of hug I remembered 40 years later as I sit waiting

for a train to take me home from work.

He hugged me and said, “I love you son.” I don’t remember anything else. I just remember him getting in the taxi

wiping tears off his face.

The taxi drove off.

We had a falling away the last 30 years of his life. He passed away.

I realize as I sit waiting for the train with tears streaming down my face, emotions spilling from my guts that sometimes

words speak louder than actions.

I have fallen in love with written words. I love to write. I’m not very adept with spoken words or actions. I do know

words are an effective tool for communicating emotion.

I grew up a broken man in many respects but I know that my father loved even in my brokenness.

When I doubt the love of my heavenly Father I remember those words; “That’s my boy! I love you son.”

By William Michael Cuccia, Author of Hope Books

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The Source Of Love

Some of my best Valentine’s day memories are from the church Youth Group’s Valentine’s day celebration. One

year we all watched the movie The Passion Of The Christ.

I was in tears at the end of the movie, as many of us were. I remembered the desperation and oppression I felt

before Jesus had set me free, and I was so moved to be reminded of what Jesus did for me.

After the move, we received heart balloons with scripture verses about love on them. Almost everyone knows John

3:16. Well, my balloon had First John 3:16 taped on it, which is surprisingly similar to John 3:16.

1 John 3:16 (NKJV) By this we know love, because He laid down His life for us. And we also ought to lay down our

lives for the brethren.

This verse challenged me. Lay down my life for others, like Jesus did for me? I’d just been reminded of the

torturous death that Jesus suffered. I had read of Christians who were tortured and suffered because they dared to share

the gospel in the face of persecution. But it felt like I didn’t have the strength to ever go through what they did and

continue to love my enemies as they (and Jesus) did. Still, I wanted to be willing to follow Jesus at any cost. I didn’t

want to ever be tortured, but I asked God to help me because I wanted to be faithful if it ever came to that.

After many people had left, I was there to the end playing

with the kids. A little girl, very dear to me, gave me a second

heart balloon that was left over. It had a few verses from 1 John

chapter 4:

1 John 4:9-11 (NKJV) In this the love of God was

manifested toward us, that God has sent His only begotten Son

into the world, that we might live through Him. In this is love,

not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to

be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we

also ought to love one another.

I had been in a somber state, thinking of the challenge of

loving Christ more than anything. But this verse reminded me

that love is not in us loving God, but in Him loving us. The

focus is always what He did for us. If the focus is first on us

loving God, then we fail to receive God’s love unconditionally.

In fact, we are unable to love God and love others as scripture

teaches us to unless we first receive God’s love for us.

The teachings the church needs to hear the most are often the most basic. We need to be reminded again and again of

God’s love for us. Christians need to keep hearing the message that Jesus died for us. He saw your suffering, sin, pain,

and sickness and said “Father, lay it on me! I would rather suffer with it than see them continue to suffer.”

The fruit of receiving God’s love is peace, unspeakable joy, and fearlessness. When you receive God’s love it

overflows to others. Is that what’s manifesting in your life right now?

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Have you fallen into discouragement and depression? Do you find yourself snapping at people around you, and then

feeling bad about it and wanting to do better with loving people? Do you find yourself falling into self-criticism, guilt,

or condemnation?

When we find ourselves in that negative place, we need to be reminded again of the gospel. It’s not that we need to

“get saved again,” but we need to allow the gospel to continue to transform us. The heart of the gospel is God’s love.

When turn from focusing on trying to be loving, to receiving God’s unconditional love, we go back to the source. The

love we receive through Christ’s forgiveness flows through us back to God and to others.

By Jonathan Brenneman, Author of the Heaven Now Trilogy

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If You Were Here

If you were here

I’d have to get up early on Christmas morning

And if you were here

I’d spend a lot less time feeling lonely

I’d have a lot more stuff than I already do

And most of it would belong to you

Closets full of broken toys

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And pictures from dances with awkward boys

And I’d probably be planning a college graduation

And dreaming about grandbabies that came

From the right situation

And if practice makes perfect I’d be a much better cook

I’d have spent far fewer hours with my nose in a book

And more time in playgrounds and playing Candy Land

And listening to god-awful teenage boy bands

I’d remember making birthday cakes and watching cartoons

And wishing on stars and blowing up balloons

If you were here I’d have memories of

Skinned knees and braces and tubes of lipstick

And talks about haircuts and short skirts and

Staying up all night when you were sick

And monkey bars and first cars and oh my God

First dates and first kisses and the first car’s near misses

And geometry tests and camping trips and

A tiny hand in mine and coloring in the lines

Somewhere there would have been costumes of

Xena the Warrior Princess and Hello Kitty and rodeo stars and

Parallel bars and a tiny tutu – of course in pink shell

There would have been more doggies and kittens and

Those bunnies I always wanted myself

And tummy aches from Halloween candy

And Sesame street jingles that haunt you forever

and the sound of a million promises that never

would you ever do that again

and sleepovers and surprise parties and blowing bubbles

and first pimples and training bras

and oohs and aahs over farm animals at the fair

and tears over you cutting your own hair

and the sound of temper tantrums and tiny demanding

and being thankful I wasn’t the last one left standing…

By Sheila Compatriotte, Author of God's Marriage Manual: Keeping Holiness, Joy and Intimacy By Doing It

God's Way Click Here for more information.

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Overwhelmed By Love

I'm not usually very good with remembering dates, but I remember this one because people talked about this event

for weeks after the fact. It was February 1 st , 2004 and I was on the phone with my sister Denise during the Super Bowl

halftime show; yes, the infamous show with Janet Jackson's wardrobe malfunction. Denny and I often chatted on the

phone, but this call was different. My sister sounded like she had just woke up and Her speech was slurred, almost as if

she were tipsy. When I asked her about it, she said that she wasn't tired and hadn't been drinking, but complained of

having a bad headache and said she had taken something to alleviate the pain. Still, something didn't seem right. It

wasn't long before I’d learn that she had other symptoms begin to surface like more trouble speaking, eating, breathing

and trouble using her arms. Because of our family history, she saw a doctor and went in for tests that confirmed her

worst fears. She was diagnosed with Lou Gehrig's disease or ALS which is a terminal illness that affects the nerve and

muscular systems of the body. Some people that contract this disease can live with it for many years. Our father only

lived about two years with it and Denise’s condition degenerated very quickly. I got a call that she choked and nearly

died trying to eat scrambled eggs relatively early on after her diagnosis and I made numerous trips back and forth,

about a thousand miles each way, for the next few months trying to juggle my life at home and being there for my sister

states away. My brother, Ryan did this too, but from the east coast.

She was already using a BiPAP machine to breathe easier at night as she slept and the day that they fit her for that

contraption, a part of me died as I cried softly in the next room. She nearly starved to death because she couldn't eat or

move her mouth and swallow normally, so she then had to have a feeding tube surgically implanted in her stomach.

they taught us in the hospital how to feed her and how to clean the wound as it healed with rubbing alcohol. I cried

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knowing how it stung and hurt her when I had wipe down her fresh incision. It made her cry too. My brother and I

couldn't bring ourselves to eat in front of her because she couldn't have food. Denise also had to go in for a procedure

where they would vacuum out her lungs as well, which was tricky because her body was weak and it was hard for her

to recover from the anesthesia. I could go on and on about the hell of this disease, but the purpose of sharing this is to

focus on the love and kindness all around her and on one day in particular.

I was fortunate enough to have a front row seat to see love personified. I saw a community come together to love

and give to a dying young woman. On a Saturday in late April of that year, there was an Angel Poker Run, a dinner, and

an auction to honor Denise and to raise money to help with her medical expenses. Motorcyclists from all over came to

the event along with family and friends. Before we left for the venue with her, a large parade of men and women riding

motorcycles rode through the neighborhood and parked for a short while right in front of my sister's house. Every rider

gathered in the front yard and they presented her with a huge bouquet of flowers. Each one came up to give her hugs

and encouragement before heading downtown where the dinner and auction would be held. The doctors advised Denise

not to go, but if she insisted, she could only stay a few minutes, but that's not how she rolled.

When we arrived, there was a huge buffet and music for dancing. Before the event got underway, the guest of

honor, Denise, wanted to read something from her heart that I had to transcribe for her because her arms and hands had

already betrayed her. She was introduced, went up on the stage, stood before the mic and read from that piece of paper.

You could have heard a pin drop and yet no one, including those closest to her, could understand one word she said, but

everyone listened to her heart and understood it perfectly. There wasn't a dry eye in the place when she ended with “I

love you.” Those three mumbled words were obvious. What was on that page was beautiful and heartfelt, and she

spoke it so eloquently it touched every soul in that room. After that, there was thunderous applause amid tears.

The auction itself was like none I've ever seen before. Many people donated items to be auctioned off and that was a

gift in itself, but there was so much more. One man bid on some golf balls and paid a handsome price for them and

won. When the auctioneer tried to give them to the winner, he said, “I don't even golf. Let me donate those to be bid on

again”. That was the first of many items like that. People would buy items they bid on and won, pay for them and then

donate them back to give someone else a chance to win them knowing that that money would also go for the cause.

There were also a number of people that did win items and immediately took their prize and walked them directly over

my sister and laid them on the table before her. I think she ended up with maybe a third of all the items won that were

given to her to enjoy personally.

Denny didn't obey her doctor's orders and stayed most of the night so that she could be with those that showed her

so much love on that amazing day. There was a spirit of giving and love that was so thick you could feel it that started

even before the parade in front of her house and culminated long after that night was over. There is great power when a

community comes together and becomes love for someone that needs it. Denise lost her battle on June 8, 2004, merely

five months after her first symptom surfaced. Just remembering that day envelops me in that overwhelming power of

love. Love, Himself, made us and moves us to do amazing things.

By Melodie A. Moss, Author of Life After Brokenness: A Ministry Guide for Trauma Victims that Dissociate

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By Pat Naccarato

Be Strong In The Lord

This concept of being strong in the Lord has been

written throughout the entire Bible and has had a dramatic

effect on every person throughout the scriptures who has

made it their goal to be strong in the Him. When we look

at the scripture of Ephesians 6:10 (NKJV) Be strong the

Lord and the power of His might... it's evident that this is

to be a characteristic of every Christian. We cannot look

at things from our own perspective. It's better to look at

everything from a heavenly perspective. Once you

understand and master this power that you have in the

Lord, you'll finally understand when Paul wrote, “All

things are possible.” I will take you through some

scriptures to ensure you that some of these great men of

God put their strength in Him. Believe me, there is

nothing more powerful than a person who puts their trust

in the Lord. As it is written, Proverbs 3:5-6 (NKJV) Trust

in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own

understanding; 6 In all your ways acknowledge Him, And

He shall direct your paths.

Let's look at Daniel, chapter 3, with Shadrach

(Hananiah), Meshach (Mishael), and Abed-Nego

(Azariah). These three men would not defile themselves

by bowing down to the golden image that King

Nebuchadnezzar had created. They were so strong in the

Lord, that they would not bow down to the golden image

or be forced into doing something that would corrupt

themselves. Let's look at what they were asked to do.

They were being challenged at what they really believed.

The consequences of refusing to bow down to the idol

was a death sentence of being thrown into a furnace of

fire. Let's look at the accusation brought forth to the king.

Daniel 3:8-12 (NKJV) Therefore at that time certain

Chaldeans came forward and accused the Jews. They

spoke and said to King Nebuchadnezzar, “O king, live

forever! You, O king, have made a decree that everyone

who hears the sound of the horn, flute, harp, lyre, and

psaltery, in symphony with all kinds of music, shall fall

down and worship the gold image; and whoever does not

fall down and worship shall be cast into the midst of a

burning fiery furnace. There are certain Jews whom you

have set over the affairs of the province of Babylon:

Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-Nego; these men, O king,

have not paid due regard to you. They do not serve your

gods or worship the gold image which you have set up.”

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There's always a challenge to what you believe. The enemy places obstacles in your path to try and avert the move

of God through your life. The only thing that keeps you from moving forward is YOU. The three boys had to choose

between obeying God and yet losing their life , or disobeying God and saving their life. When you look at the situation

from a heavenly perspective, obeying God is life and disobeying God is death, so the boys in the situation made the

right choice. They chose to be strong in the Lord. This is their response to the accusation, Daniel 3:16-18 Shadrach,

Meshach, and Abed-Nego answered and said to the king, “O Nebuchadnezzar, we have no need to answer you in this

matter. If that is the case, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and He will

deliver us from your hand, O king. But if not, let it be known to you, O king, that we do not serve your gods, nor will we

worship the gold image which you have set up.”

Words are very powerful and you need to be able to stand behind and honor the words that come out of your mouth.

As Christians we are to live a different life than the world does. What you stand for can anger some people. King

Nebuchadnezzar got very angry as the story continues Daniel 3: 19 Then Nebuchadnezzar was full of fury, and the

expression on his face changed toward Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-Nego. He spoke and commanded that they heat

the furnace seven times more than it was usually heated. 20 And he commanded certain mighty men of valor who were in

his army to bind Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-Nego, and cast them into the burning fiery furnace. 21 Then these men

were bound in their coats, their trousers, their turbans, and their other garments, and were cast into the midst of the

burning fiery furnace. 22 Therefore, because the king’s command was urgent, and the furnace exceedingly hot, the flame

of the fire killed those men who took up Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-Nego. 23 And these three men, Shadrach,

Meshach, and Abed-Nego, fell down bound into the midst of the burning fiery furnace.

When you begin to learn and understand how you are to be strong in the Lord, this will astonish even nonbelievers.

The fact that these three boys were so strong in their faith, God showed up even in the fiery furnace. This is what true

faith (trust) looks like. Everyone can have this tenacious faith. Let's continue with the story in Daniel 3: 24 Then King

Nebuchadnezzar was astonished; and he rose in haste and spoke, saying to his counselors, “Did we not cast three men

bound into the midst of the fire?” They answered and said to the king, “True, O king.” 25 “Look!” he answered, “I see

four men loose, walking in the midst of the fire; and they are not hurt, and the form of the fourth is like the Son of

God.” 26 Then Nebuchadnezzar went near the mouth of the burning fiery furnace and spoke, saying, “Shadrach,

Meshach, and Abed-Nego, servants of the Most High God, come out, and come here.” Then Shadrach, Meshach, and

Abed-Nego came from the midst of the fire. 27 And the satraps, administrators, governors, and the king’s counselors

gathered together, and they saw these men on whose bodies the fire had no power; the hair of their head was not singed

nor were their garments affected, and the smell of fire was not on them.

When God moves, hearts are changed. This really changed the heart of King Nebuchadnezzar. His answer reflected

his heart change as the story continues. Daniel 3: 28 Nebuchadnezzar spoke, saying, “Blessed be the God of Shadrach,

Meshach, and Abed-Nego, who sent His Angel and delivered His servants who trusted in Him, and they have frustrated

the king’s word, and yielded their bodies, that they should not serve nor worship any god except their own God!

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Therefore I make a decree that any people, nation, or language which speaks anything amiss against the God of

Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-Nego shall be cut in pieces, and their houses shall be made an ash heap; because there

is no other God who can deliver like this.”

Let's take a look at another person who was strong in the Lord, and this time we will look in the New Testament.

Let's look at Acts 6:8 And Stephen, full of faith and power, did great wonders and signs among the people. When people

see that you're walking out what the Lord Jesus has called you to do, jealousy arises from others around you. Acts 6:

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Then they secretly induced men to say, “We have heard him speak blasphemous words against Moses and God.” 12

And they stirred up the people, the elders, and the scribes; and they came upon him, seized him, and brought him to the

council. 13 They also set up false witnesses who said, “This man does not cease to speak blasphemous words against this

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holy place and the law; 14 for we have heard him say that this Jesus of Nazareth will destroy this place and change the

customs which Moses delivered to us.” 15 And all who sat in the council, looking steadfastly at him, saw his face as the

face of an angel.

After the accusations come and Stephen was brought into the Sanhedrin, he explained what the people of Israel had

gone through. Then Stephen brought a complaint against the leaders of that time. Stephen's accusal still stands today.

The charge starts in Acts 7:51“You stiff-necked and uncircumcised in heart and ears! You always resist the Holy Spirit;

as your fathers did, so do you. 52 Which of the prophets did your fathers not persecute? And they killed those who

foretold the coming of the Just One, of whom you now have become the betrayers and murderers, 53 who have received

the law by the direction of angels and have not kept it.” 54 When they heard these things they were cut to the heart, and

they gnashed at him with their teeth. 55 But he, being full of the Holy Spirit, gazed into heaven and saw the glory of God,

and Jesus standing at the right hand of God, 56 and said, “Look! I see the heavens opened and the Son of Man standing

at the right hand of God!”

Some people today don't want to hear the truth. They don't want to hear of the healings and miracles that Jesus is

still doing today. As it is written Hebrews 13:8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever. The religious

people today may not go as far as stoning you, but they will shun you or even go as far as throwing you out of the

church. As Christians, we are still to love them regardless of what they do to us. Stephen was a great example of that as

we read Act 7: 57 Then they cried out with a loud voice, stopped their ears, and ran at him with one accord; 58 and they

cast him out of the city and stoned him. And the witnesses laid down their clothes at the feet of a young man named

Saul. 59 And they stoned Stephen as he was calling on God and saying, “Lord Jesus, receive my spirit.” 60 Then he knelt

down and cried out with a loud voice, “Lord, do not charge them with this sin.” And when he had said this, he fell

asleep.

Those two are great examples of how to be strong the Lord. How we react to what comes against us is found in

1Corinthians 13:4-8 (NASB) Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant

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does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered,

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does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things,

endures all things. 8 Love never fails.

As we continue to walk out this journey of faith and being strong in Him, we

are to put on the whole armor of God, which is found in Ephesians 6. I am going to

go through each piece of the armour which ties back to the Old Testament and

show you that every piece is Jesus. Let's look at the armour now.

Ephesians 6: 13 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able

to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. 14 Stand therefore, having

girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness, 15 and

having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; 16 above all,

taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of

the wicked one. 17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit,

which is the word of God; 18 praying always with all prayer and supplication in the

Spirit, being watchful to this end with all perseverance and supplication for all the

saints.

1) Grid your waist with truth - Isaiah 11:5 Righteousness shall be the belt of His

loins, And faithfulness the belt of His waist. In Isaiah 11 it starts off with the rod

from the stem of Jesse which is Jesus. So the belt of truth that you put on is Jesus. Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the

truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me. John 14:6

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2) Having put on the breastplate of righteousness. Isaiah 59:17 For He put on righteousness as a breastplate, And a

helmet of salvation on His head; He put on the garments of vengeance for clothing, And was clad with zeal as a cloak.

So you see here, we are to put on righteousness as a breastplate. Jesus is our righteousness. He is the one who is

guarding our heart. One day the Holy Spirit told me that you could never wear the breastplate of righteousness if you

say you have a sin nature. You can't wear righteousness and sin nature at the same time. You get to choose which one

you want to wear. Jesus became our Righteousness as it is written, But of Him you are in Christ Jesus, who became for

us wisdom from God—and righteousness and sanctification and redemption 1 Corinthians 1:30

3) And having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace. Isaiah 11:10 And in that day there shall be a

Root of Jesse, Who shall stand as a banner to the people; For the Gentiles shall seek Him, And His resting place shall

be glorious. Isaiah 52:7 How beautiful upon the mountains Are the feet of him who brings good news, Who proclaims

peace, Who brings glad tidings of good things, Who proclaims salvation, Who says to Zion, “Your God reigns!”

Nahum 1:15 Behold, on the mountains The feet of him who brings good tidings, Who proclaims peace! O Judah, keep

your appointed feasts, Perform your vows. For the wicked one shall no more pass through you; He is utterly cut off.

Isaiah 61:1 The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon Me, Because the LORD has anointed Me To preach good tidings to the

poor; He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, To proclaim liberty to the captives, And the opening of the prison to

those who are bound. Again here this is Jesus who is the gospel of peace. As it is written For unto us a Child is born,

Unto us a Son is given; And the government will be upon His shoulder. And His name will be called Wonderful,

Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace Isaiah 9:6

4) Above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one.

Psalm 5:12 For You, O LORD, will bless the righteous; With favor You will surround him as with a shield. Remember

our faith is to be in Jesus and that strength of faith in Him is your shield. Jesus is or shield as our faith is to be in Him.

Looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross,

despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Hebrews 12:2

5) And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. The helmet of salvation was

mentioned back when the breastplate of righteousness was discussed. Jesus is our salvation and that's why we wear it as

a helmet to guide our thoughts. Romans 10:9 that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your

heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. Isaiah 11:4 But with righteousness He shall judge the

poor, And decide with equity for the meek of the earth; He shall strike the earth with the rod of His mouth, And with the

breath of His lips He shall slay the wicked. Isaiah 49:2 And He has made My mouth like a sharp sword; In the shadow

of His hand He has hidden Me, And made Me a polished shaft; In His quiver He has hidden Me. Hosea 6:5 Therefore I

have hewn them by the prophets, I have slain them by the words of My mouth; And your judgments are like light that

goes forth. Jesus is the Word made flesh John 1:14 And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we beheld His

glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father, full of grace and truth. It's His words that separate like it's

mentioned in Hebrews 4:12 For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword,

piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents

of the heart.

The three men and Stephen all faced death and yet trusted God. As we

go through our own trials and tribulations in this life, it is evident that we

are to be strong in the Lord. Our power comes from our strength in Jesus

and this is why we are to put on the full armour of God, which is Jesus

Himself, the armour of light....

And do this, knowing the time, that now it is high time to awake out of

sleep; for now our salvation is nearer than when we first believed. The

night is far spent, the day is at hand. Therefore let us cast off the works of

darkness, and let us put on the armor of light. Romans 13:11-12

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How To Study The Bible

By John Gold

Proverbs 2:1-5

My son, if you receive my words and treasure up my commandments with you, making your ear attentive to wisdom and

inclining your heart to understand; yes, if you call out for insight and raise your voice for understanding, if you seek it

like silver and search for it as for hidden treasures, then you will understand the fear of the LORD and find the

knowledge of God.

You are getting ready to step into an amazing adventure through the Word of God. A new season is upon us, and the

Word of God is the beginning of this adventure. This requires, like a new wineskin, discipline, and training. We see

throughout the gospels Jesus separating Himself from others and going to the Father alone to receive instruction. As

Jesus, being our example, we also need to separate ourselves from the world and in Shalom (that peace that passes all

understanding) then step into His Word to receive instruction.

Find a place of quiet solitude away from the world and all distractions; this could be a room in your home, a park,

the beach, woods, etc. Everyone has a secret place. Remove all distractions such as cell phones, people, etc. You will

want to have a Bible, a notebook, highlighter, maps, bible dictionary, etc. You can use google and the Internet if you

stay focused and for the moment keep the world out of your place of Shalom. You may want to set a new block of time

aside like first thing in the morning and let people know in advance that you’re going to the Father. You do not have to

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do this full outline in one setting, it is not a race, it is a walk, but you can’t move forward to the next scripture until it's

finished.

Like anything else, this is just you and God. You will get out of it what you put into it. Just like in school, put the

date, name, subject, etc. so you can reference it later. I personally use Microsoft Word and many online “trusted and

legitimate” sites to gather information. I also ask leadership questions to get a well-rounded explanation of things when

I am not sure. The point of this study is “relationship,” to instill truth in you, which will bring forth the renewing and

transforming of your mind, of who we are and how we operate IN HIM, for IN HIM we live and move and have our

being.

1. Pray and place yourself in a position of reverence, peace, thanking God for this opportunity. Call on wisdom,

invite the Holy Spirit in and begin your study.

2. Ask Holy Spirit to give you a book, chapter or verse. If all else fails, start in Ephesians 1.

3. Read through the scripture once.

4. Read through that scripture again but this time, highlight any words, people, names and places you do not know

and write them down.

5. Define all highlighted words first in Hebrew. Look up all the highlighted words one at a time and get the root

meaning of the word or phrase.

6. Read again and answer from the scripture – Where, when, who, what, why and how…

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● Where – Where is this physically taking place? Where are they writing from, what is the history of the area?

Look at it on a map, find ancient pictures and present day pictures; what is the political and social climate of

the area, why did God use this scripture in this place and time?

● When - When did this take place, what is the era, year, date or season?

● Who - Who is the person or persons in the scripture. Who is writing, who is the audience? Where are they

from, what is their background, why do they appear now, who is it addressing?

● What – What is the narrative and subject of the scripture, what is it saying? What issue is it presenting,

addressing or solving? What is the scripture revealing to you?

● Why – Why is this happening, is there a problem? What’s going on? Why did this occur? Why are you being

shown this?

● How- How did this happen? What are the circumstances? How is the scripture speaking to you? How can

you use this in your walk in Him?

7. Read through scripture again and see if and how God, Jesus or the Holy Spirit is represented. What is the

practical and spiritual significance you're being taught?

8. In the scripture, is there a prayer you can obtain from it? Is there a revelation or a truth? Grab the nuggets that

can be taken from it and implant them in your heart.

9. Verse by verse in your own words rewrite the scriptures you just learned. How would you write this scripture?

What is the message you would share?

NOTE: A good practice scripture to start with is 2 Kings 4 – The Widow's Oil.

In Closing… Abba, thank You for this amazing opportunity in Your Word. Thank you for Your providence, wisdom,

and love. With all that is in me, I pray. You will reveal Yourself through Your Word to us all. Holy Spirit we invite you

in to reveal truth, revelation and the oracles of God. I pray sincerely that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of

glory, may give to each of you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him, that the eyes of your

understanding being enlightened; that you may know what the hope of His calling is.” In the authority of Yeshua

Messiah, Immanuel- God with us! Amen!

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y Rachel Cain

As You Wish

Some of you may have watched the movie, The Princess Bride, or read the book in which the farm boy, Wesley,

when he spoke with the Princess Buttercup, would only say "As you wish" every time the Princess asked Wesley to do

anything. These words, "as you wish" were his way of communicating his love for her, and after a brief separation, he

returns disguised as the dread pirate Roberts only to find that she is bequeathed to marry a Prince. He then sets out to

find her and finally meets her. At first, the Princess did not recognise that the dread pirate Roberts was really her first,

true love until he sees the Prince coming with his troops, and wanting to escape him shouts, "As you wish" as he rolls

down the hill. The Princess then realises that the pirate really is her true love and follows after him. They both then

embark on an adventure together in which his strength, courage, determination and love for her is put to the test.

This story made me think about how we communicate love to others and how God has shown us His love in so

many ways. We read "for God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him

should not perish, but have everlasting life."(John 3:16) Isn't that amazing and wonderful? That God so loved the world

that He gave His only Son Jesus who said "He that hath seen me hath seen the Father (John14:9). Throughout the Bible

we read of God's amazing love for His people and we read how this is shown through Jesus. He showed love and

compassion by looking out for those who were often excluded like Zaccheus, a tax collector, as well as those who were

deemed 'unclean' like the woman with the issue of blood or the lepers, and those that were demon possessed, sick, blind

or crippled. He did not overlook them, but took mercy and compassion on them, why, because He loved them.

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Not only did Jesus extend and demonstrate His Father's love to all people, He paid the ultimate sacrifice for us, by

dying on the cross in our place, taking all our sins, sicknesses, transgressions, iniquities and diseases upon Him so that

we could have a direct relationship with His Father and therefore enabling us to know His Father as well. As the

songwriter John Schweers writes in the song "Amazing love, what sacrifice, the Son of God, given for me, My debt He

pays, and my death He dies, that I might live, that I might live!" That is true, unconditional love! So, Jesus showed us

what true love looks like and if we are followers of Him, and have made the decision to follow Him, then we are

ambassadors for Christ" (2 Corinthians 5:20) and an ambassador is someone who represents the person wherever they

go. We therefore are to represent Christ wherever we go and are to follow His example. Not only are we to do this but

we are to ensure that we do not neglect our first love (Revelation 2:4). How do we neglect our first love I hear you ask?

Well, this happens when we don't spend time with Him by reading His Word, worshipping and communing with Him.

It is easy to say a quick prayer before jumping out of bed and starting the day, yet if we consistently do this and do not

put aside time during the day to spend with Him, then how will our walk with Him grow and how will our relationship

deepen with Him? Like all friendships and relationships, we need to spend time with the other person and by doing so,

then we learn more about them and ourselves. I have found that on the days whereby I don't rush my time with the Lord

first thing in the morning, I feel refreshed and ready(ish) for whatever the day may hold; however, if I have gone to bed

a bit later than normal, and set my alarm clock for later which has resulted in a shorter quiet time, this sometimes feels

rushed and I then regret not waking up at my normal time. Let us take steps to ensure that we don't forsake our first

love by daily seeking Him.

When we seek Him, it is important that we lay down our agendas and plans and focus on Him. By doing this means

that we are walking in unity or oneness with Him. As we do this, we often find that thoughts or ideas will come to us

as to things to do or people to speak to during the day. By doing those things which we feel the Lord has shown us or

revealed to us, we are obeying Him and this not only blesses the person who is on the receiving end, but it also deepens

our trust in God and His trust in us. That said, not every situation that we walk through is easy, sometimes it feels like

we are walking through a bed of thorns whilst searching for the roses. Jesus experienced pain and loneliness and knew

that He would have to be nailed to the cross in our place. Indeed, Jesus prayed “Father, if it is Your will, take this cup

away from Me; nevertheless not My will, but Yours, be done.” (Luke 22:42) He knew what His Father had asked of

Him, and that by obeying, He would experience separation from His Father but would demonstrate the ultimate act of

love for us all by dying on the cross. Whilst we may not have to die on a cross like Jesus did, we do need to learn to

walk in love and obedience to the Father, as we are told "this is love, that we walk after his commandments. This is the

commandment, that, as ye have heard from the beginning, ye should walk in it." (2 John 1:6) Let us therefore walk in

love and obedience to Him, and by so doing, we will demonstrate that we are walking in His ways.

We are to" love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all

your strength." (Mark 12:30) To love in this manner is one that is deep and sacrificial, as it means to focus our attention

on the Lord and on His ways, rather than ours and those of the world. It is easy to love the people that we like and get

along with, but it can be a challenge to love all people which includes your enemies or those who persecute you. Jesus

said "love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully

use you and persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven" (Matthew 5:44-45) Notice that by loving all

we show ourselves as being sons of our Father as we are following in His ways and example. Let us think of the

different ways in which we can show love to all. One way may be through random acts of kindness, taking time to

listen to them to find out what things they may be dealing with and helping where you can as well as praying for them.

I enjoy finding ways to bless others - sometimes it may be stopping by a homeless person and offering to buy them

something to eat and drink, other times it may be that I've noticed the person hasn't been themselves and have stopped

by to talk (or to try to make them laugh) yet sometimes it can be the kind words which can hit the mark. Proverbs 16:24

says "Pleasant words are like a honeycomb, sweetness to the soul and health to the bones."

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Recently, I was in a shop in town and had gone to the checkout only to find that there was no shop assistant there

for me to pay for what I had picked up from the shelves. I then went to a different checkout only to be told that I

couldn't pay for the goods there but would have to go to another checkout and pay, which I did. I then went to a

different shop and was served by a shop assistant, only this one had a kind manner about her, she offered to pack my

bag and then when I enquired if a discount had been applied, she said that it hadn't but then gave me the time to find the

code. As I was searching for it, I was aware that there was a queue of people waiting to be served and apologised for

not having the code ready, her response was "not a problem, that's why we have extra staff here." When I had found the

code, it wouldn't scan on the barcode, so one of her colleagues assisted her by telling her that there was a paper copy of

the code, which didn't scan. Eventually, the discount code was applied and I had paid. I then decided to take out the

bus ticket for the journey home, but proceeded to take out several ones which were for bus journeys earlier in the week.

I apologised as I was sure that I had it in there and she commented that it was not a problem and that there was a table

nearby which I could go to if I liked. I then saw that there was a man standing next to me waiting to pay and he was

told that there was a till further down which was free, but he replied "I want to see her" (referring to the sales assistant

who had just served me) and as I picked up my bags, I thanked her for her kindness and left the store. I was so taken

back by her kindness and pleasant voice that a tear rolled down my cheek, it was no wonder that the man didn't want to

see any other sales assistant as he had seen how kind she had been to me.

Let us therefore willingly follow Christ's example to us by spending time with the Father, showing love, care,

kindness and compassion to others whilst walking in faith and obedience.

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Answered Prayer

By Olga Kievitt

*This is a true story and names have been changed to protect the people involved.

I have heard people say many times, “I wonder if God really answers prayers.”

The short answer is Yes! He does. Sometimes the answer comes quickly and sometimes it takes years to come, but

the answer will come in God’s timing, NOT yours. To prove it I am going to share a part of my life with you. A part

that has been hidden for almost 50 years.

At a very painful time in my life, I met a wonderful man. For my story, I will call him Paul. We met in a local

grocery store. If there was such a thing as love at first sight, I would say that was what happened. I knew I was smitten.

He was very handsome and made me feel like a million dollars. He was very attentive and very caring. All things that

were new and wonderful to me. We went on our first date to a night club where we danced. I was in heaven. Just to be

held in his arms so close and so lovingly was amazing. One night I shared with Paul something that had happened at

home and told him I needed to move out. He only lived a very short distance from me and suggested I move in with

him. I agreed and moved my personal belongings to his home, Paul was amazing and I fell more in love with him every

day.

I was working for a shoe shop down town and Paul got into the habit of meeting me from work and driving me

home with him. We did everything together. I loved him so much. Our relationship was wonderful. There is no way I

could have been any happier. We were both extremely happy at that time and as time wore on, we just got closer and

closer. Then one day I found out I was pregnant. I was going to have Paul’s baby. Our love child. My emotions were all

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over the place. I didn’t tell Paul right away, but when I did he seemed happy. During that time our buses were on strike

and I was completely dependent on Paul to get me home. Then, the day was Saturday and he wasn’t at the bus station to

meet me. I called home and no answer. I decided to go back to the bus stop and just wait for the next bus, whatever

time it came. Paul must have had something at work hold him up. After a long wait, almost an hour, a bus came that

was going my way. I eventually got off the bus and had to walk about half a mile to our home. I remember being very

tired that day. It had been a very busy day at work and I had been on my feet all day. I could hardly wait to get home

and put my feet up and spend the evening with the love of my life. When I opened the front door, I got the biggest

shock of my life. Every stick of furniture in the place was gone. I was stunned I didn’t know what to do. I was in

complete shock.

My sister lived a couple of hundred yards away, so I went to see her and tell her what had happened. She was as

shocked as I was and even more so when I told her I was carrying a baby that was due at the end of the year. She gave

me some advice and told me to go see my parents and ask them if I could live with them. I did that and they said yes.

That night, I went back to the place that had been my home for months and spent one last night there. The phone was

still connected and the next morning, while I was gathering my things, I received a phone call from a very angry, foul

mouthed man. Out of his mouth came these terrible words of abuse. He called me some terrible names at which time I

hung up the phone, not before realizing that all this time, Paul was married and had a family in another town. The

reason his family wasn’t living with him was because they were having a new home built in a town a good distance

away and his wife and two kids had moved in with her parents to keep an eye on the home as it was being built. The

home was now finished and Paul had moved all their stuff down there. The angry man was Paul’s father in law.

My world was shattered. The love of my life was gone. I had never known about his wife and kids. In my mind I

had been planning this wonderful life together only to have my hopes and dreams shattered like a glass door that had

been hit by a mac truck. My God, what was going to happen to me now? As you can imagine, all kinds of thoughts

were running through my head. My mind was all over the place. I had no clue what was going to happen. I don’t even

remember if I prayed.

However, one thing was made very plain to me. I

couldn’t keep the baby. That was not something I could do

back then. An unwed mother was a no no. I would have been

cast out or shunned. There was only one thing to do, I was

told. That was to put the baby up for adoption. Coming to

terms with that was an extremely hard thing to do. However,

after my emotions settled down some, I realized that letting

my baby go was the best thing for him. He would have a

good life with his adopted parents. I went to see the relevant

people and they quickly found a couple that wanted a baby

very badly. I was told very little about the couple other than

they would make great parents for my son. I had known in

my heart all the time I was pregnant that my child would be

a boy.

I was told by the adoption people that I had to provide a layette for my baby. My sister made some baby clothes.

She was a great help to me for sure and a whiz with knitting needles. It was bitter sweet going to the baby shop and

buying what I needed for my baby. The baby I was going to have to give away.

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Then the day came that I would go into labor. I was home alone. My parents had gone to Newcastle as usual on that

particular day of the week. My back started to ache very badly so I decided to get in the bathtub and see if it would ease

the pain. I hadn’t been in there long when my folks came home. I shouted for my mother and told her about the pain.

She told me I was in labor and had my dad call for an ambulance. They took me to the local hospital where my son

would be born a short time later. After a few stitches, I was taken to the maternity ward to be greeted by a bunch of new

mothers. None of them knew my story and they quite naturally thought I would be keeping this big beautiful baby.

I wanted to give my son everything I could and I knew that to breast feed a child for however long or short a time

would help him. So I did that. He was a hungry little fella and I cherished every moment I held him in my arms. I

wanted to make memories in my heart and mind that no one could take away from me. This baby, this wonderful,

beautiful child, was my last remaining part of Paul and I was giving him away. Was I crazy? I was sure I was for a few

moments then I remembered something a friend had said to me. If you love something let it go and it will come back

one day. The thing in this case was my son. How was I ever going to do that? Well, a few days later I was about to find

out. I was feeding my son when a nurse came into the ward and said to get him ready. The authorities had sent someone

to pick him up. All I could think was my breasts are full of milk. My baby needs that milk. As I took my son off the

breast, milk was flowing everywhere, but I had to get him dressed. I couldn’t fill my eyes enough, or my mind with

what he looked like. I was drinking in every feature. Then all of a sudden, the nurse was back, she took my child and

told me to get dressed. I was going home. I felt like I was in a whirl wind. Everything was happening so quickly. I don’t

remember clearly what happened after that other than I was at home with pills to stop the milk and no son. I had gotten

to be very good at hiding my feelings. I don’t think my family ever realized the heart ache I was going through. I talked

a lot with my sister. I spent hours at her home talking about Paul and my baby. There were times I was sure I was

driving her batty. All I could talk about was Paul and how much I missed my beautiful son.

I knew I had to put that part of my life behind me. I went out and got a new job working for a company I had

worked for years before. I threw myself into my work. I was good at it and had a great reputation with the owner of this

huge national company. Then one day, I was pulling this box down from a high shelf and it hit me in my breast. The

pain that went through me was dreadful, so on the way home I dropped by my doctors office. I was informed that I had

a boil on my breast and he would have to lance it. That didn’t happen. The thing just burst from fright when I saw that

little knife. The doctor cleaned me up and dressed it. Told me to put a poultice on it till the core came out and I would

be fine. If it got too painful just get two bowls; one with warm and one with cool water and alternate dipping my breast

in each one. What a mess! But it worked. It left a hole about as big as the head of a pin. I healed quickly and it was

soon gone. I did ask my doctor how I had gotten a boil there. He said I had been through a lot of trauma in the last few

months, so it wasn’t surprising. All that stress and I was trying to keep it all hidden. He said that your body gets run

down when you go through some rough times and your body can break down in some way. In my case, a boil. Amazing

how the devil will throw stuff at you to bring back painful memories. It was only a month since I gave my baby away

and I was still suffering, but I knew I had to be strong and fight my thoughts, otherwise I would be a basket case. Those

thoughts kept on coming just the same. Sometimes I was able to suppress them. Other times, if I was alone I would let

the tears flow.

Over the next two or three years I began to mend. I threw myself into all kinds of things. I started flying again. I

worked hard I was given a store of my own to manage not far from the one I was working at. I did well at my job and

was offered a deal I couldn’t refuse and was eventually given a store further away. It meant traveling a much longer

distance to work on a bus and I wouldn’t get home at night till 7pm so I was up at 6 am and on the bus by 7 am. Long

days. I used that time to try and put Paul behind me. I could never understand why he had never told me he was married

or why he would just leave without telling me he was going. We had loved each other so much. I was at a loss. I used

to try and keep myself busy on the bus by doing the Daily Telegraph crossword. But my thoughts would wander to my

son. Where was he? What were his adopted parents like? Were they treating him well? Over a long period of time the

pain of loss began to subside, but it never went completely away.

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To lose Paul was something, but to lose the child that came about because of that love was something different

altogether. I used to have thoughts like, would I ever see him again? Would I ever be able to go find him without

getting into trouble? If I could just hold him one more time. The thoughts were endless for a long time.

For this reason I will never be able to understand how women can willingly abort their babies. How can they ever

allow their babies to be ripped apart in the womb and put them through tremendous pain. I am so glad I never did that.

Much better to let him be adopted. Maybe one day I will see him again. Why did God allow me to get pregnant when

he knew I would have to give my child away? Why did he let me fall in love with a man that was already married?

Why did he allow me to go through all this pain? The questions, the questions... in my mind I thought they would never

stop. I am aware that God knows our thoughts from afar off. So he always knew what I was thinking.

Fast forward 48 years and my prayers and questions were

answered. Thanks to social media My son has found me. Oh, the joy

in my heart! That empty hole that only my son could fill has been

filled up. A lot of questions answered. He is every bit as handsome

as Paul, but looks like my side of the family. I have two

grandchildren I never knew I had. I also found out that Paul regrets

making the choice he made to leave me, but he thought he was doing

the right thing at the time, He loved me very much. Oh. the joy in

my heart to know that! Every time I think about him, I can smile

now knowing he loved me so very much. Oh how I would love to

see him again, to talk to him again, to tell him I forgive him! Only

God can make that happen. I will never give up praying that one day

I will be able to do just that. I will be forever grateful that my son

never gave up looking for me. It has taken him 20 years to find me. I

feel like a huge hole of emptiness inside me has been filled. I hope to

meet my son face to face in the not too distant future. How I long to

hold him in my arms and let him feel that love for himself.

Since my son came back into my life, the Lord has shown me many things. It was all part of a puzzle of my life.

Now God is bringing the pieces of the puzzle together. I am learning that everything happens for a reason. That God

truly does have a plan, a good plan for our lives and even when the devil gets in the way, he still hasn’t got the power to

stop God’s plans from working. I realize that because of all the things that have happened to me in my life. They have

only made me stronger.

I have only truly loved two men in my life. Paul and Michael, the father of my youngest son. They both have their

own special place in my heart. I will always love them. I will pray for them. For God to save them and protect them and

keep them healthy. I am so grateful for both my boys. So blessed. All I can say is Thank you Lord for loving me and

bringing my family together even if it is only on social media. It’s a whole lot better than nothing.

So I will end my story by saying this, NEVER GIVE UP! Never stop praying. God hears ALL your prayers and HE

will answer them, but in His time. I have waited almost 50 years for my prayers to be answered, but God is faithful.

Remember that. HE will never let you down. Love HIM. Tell HIM how much you need HIM. For me, I need the Lord

more and more every day. I love HIM so much. Put your trust in God and He will never let you down. He is Faithful

and True.

I hope sharing part of my life this way has helped you in some way. Never give up HOPE.

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