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We have tried our utmost to give young adults and children
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did not have a platform for. So far, they have spoken about
many sensitive topics and in various issues. In this issue, you
will find bold contributions addressing mental health issues
like teen depression and even topics such as self-harm.
Nowadays, teenagers and their parents are overwhelmed by
these increasingly common problems that have seeped deep
into our society. We encourage young adults to express their
concerns of this harsh reality that they are facing in their lives
On a lighter note, we are all geared up for some more
creativity for the approaching year. We welcome contributions
from everyone! Please do not hesitate if you have written
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By Amn Zain ul Abidin
13 years old, LGS 55 Main, Lahore
Photo Credits: Zain-ul-Abidin
A Letter to Kashmir
My hands tremble as the nib of my pen touches this paper. I write this letter, not
knowing whether you will be alive to read it. For the past few days, I have only
been thinking of you, my old friend, but failed to bring my emotions into words.
And today, here I am, wiping my tears and burying my fears. With every minute,
thousands of precious lives are lost because of a petty war between long lost
I remember the day when the announcement for the creation of Pakistan was made,
I came running to you and pulled you into a warm embrace. For finally, brother, both
our dreams were coming true; we were gaining freedom. The same day, you made
me promise that I would protect you with my life. And I replied, “Always.”
Now, it has been months since the lockdown took place. Uncountable days, since
you have been barely surviving, or in other words, wailing in agony. The valleys
which once oozed with sparkling blue water have now become red pools of misery.
The lullabies you once sang to your children are now deafened by the sound of
firing guns. The snowy mountains once crowded with rosy-cheeked youngsters are
now a picture of isolation and darkness. The air that once gave off a fragrance of joy
and melody has now been coated with grief and melancholy. My soul is tormented
by the thought of your youths, who leave the house in the morning and fail to find
their way back home ever again. I am unable to sleep at night, as howls of innocent
children, calling for help echo in the room; praying to God for a miracle which can
change their life and help them find refuge from all the trauma. I mourn the death of
every Kashmiri, who has given up their life because of traditional hostility. It kills me
to even think about all of this.
Every day, at dawn, I kneel down on my prayer mat and ask my Lord to keep you
safe; to keep your children safe. I am sorry brother, that I was unable to keep my
promise to you. I was not able to become your companion, your supporter, I left you
alone to fight wars which never concerned you.
But I believe in miracles and that tough times always end. And when they do, bliss
takes their place. I have faith that the same will happen for you. Today, I am using
my pen to warn the enemies, tomorrow I will be using my sword to finish the threat
for once and for all. I will fight for you, Kashmir, and this time I will succeed in
getting you free.
Remember brother, one day you will be saved.
By Zainab Imran
LGS 55 Main, Lahore
The Journey of Self Growth
Be yourself. Most of us have heard these two words
almost all our lives. Sometimes they were said to us
as words of wisdom and other times, as a revelation.
But I never really gave it importance. Usually, I would
brush them off, just like any other rebellious and naive
teenager, on a journey to find themselves.
And now I’m sixteen years old, more than half of my
teenage life has passed by and I think it’s safe to say
that I’ve matured as a person. My perspective of events
that happened in the past is distinctly different from
what it is present day. Words which would have hurt or
upset me back then, don’t even affect me anymore. I’ve
come to accept the fact that specific events in my life
have shaped and moulded my thoughts and personality.
If three years ago, someone would have narrated these
exact words to me, then I would’ve certainly laughed.
And thought to myself ‘easy for you to say, you’ve
already been through it.’ I agree, anyone in my position
would have done the same but during these years we
experience different things and most of all learn. Every
single day, we overcome new hurdles, which lead us
towards the road of success. Thus teenage years can be
looked upon as a staircase; with every year, we climb a
step higher and higher. Until a time comes when we are
at the top and from there we become free to discover,
grow and learn.
By Najwa Moin
LGS 55 Main, Lahore
Mood Swings Madness
When we are all reaching the verge of
being tweens, or teens or maybe nearto-adults,
we start getting moody. I feel
that there are times when all 11 to 16
years olds reach a point that we don’t
even understand our OWN emotions.
At times we are horribly angry and
irritated at everything. Then again, we
can be very happy for no reason, yet
the pettiest arguments make us cry.
Own up. At least there is one time in a
month when we all feel this way. I have
mood swings just like this. So do my
friends. All teenagers do.
Ask yourself these questions if you are a
teen experiencing mood swings. IS THIS
NORMAL? ARE WE GOING THROUGH
SOME SORT OF DISORDER? DO WE
Answers: Yes. No. Maybe?
Mood swings for teenagers are
perfectly normal. Everyone gets them.
I apologize but -as usual- science plays
a big part. This is all due to biology.
It isn’t our fault, or at least most of
the time. When we all hit the stage
of becoming adults, our body needs
to create new hormones, in order to
survive. Most days we just feel cranky
because of a few chemical changes
occurring inside our brains.
This isn’t to be considered as an illness.
Some of the time our parents don’t
understand the changes in our behavior.
They love us more than ever, but they
also start realizing that we are growing
up, that we can’t stay tied with their
apron strings forever. Now, this leads to
a whole new chapter in our minds. Who
am I? Why can’t I do this myself? What
does life have in store for me? All these
surges of independence are a sign of
healthy adolescent behavior. Switching
choices, for example, show that we
are taking charge of our lives, and
being unable to understand anything,
identifies the chemical reactions in our
brain, that make us cranky.
But this doesn’t mean we should be
throwing ourselves pity parties all the
time. There are still ways to overcome
these mood swings. Exercising helps
cool our minds. If we reduce our intake
of caffeine, and eat regular meals, we
might not have such a high boost, and
then sudden drop of energy. However,
mostly, we should definitely improve
our sleeping habits, so we won’t feel
tired or cranky the next day.
Moving on to the last question. DO
WE NEED HELP? Watch it fellow
teens. Don’t let your mood swings take
too much control of your emotions.
Overcome them. Smile, be brave, and
live through these few years. Because
later onwards, severe mood swings can
lead to depression, anxiety issues and
health diseases. You definitely don’t
want your age to control you. But if
mood swings are way too frequent,
talk to your parents, or maybe a child
psychologist. They really can help!!
Au revoir for now!
Stay headstrong through adolescence…
By Amn Zain-ul-Abidin
13 years old, LGS 55-Main, Lahore
Do the Scars ever Fade Away??
Self-harm is something which is very
common in today’s world. Not a day
goes by and you hear yet another tragic
story. From a teenager’s perspective,
harming oneself seems not only
rebellious but also a way of easing your
pain. Some people leave it to God to
help them with the rage that they feel,
while others take matters into their own
hands. About four years ago, I tried to
fill the hollow pit in my heart, desperate
to control some part of my life, whether
it be a minor dilemma or a life-changing
decision. A few days passed in relief
until everything went downhill. That
same satisfaction turned into shame that
I wasn’t even able to look my parents
in the eye; how could I tell them that
their love and support was not enough
to prevent me from harming myself. I
was repulsed by my negative thoughts
which took over my well-being like a
beast, encouraging me to do something
outrageous. I felt disgusted by my hands
which had committed the very sin.
question my worth. Because I knew that
this girl who was constantly battling with
herself, was so strong that she wouldn’t
abide by decisions that she would later
live to regret. This girl cared about
her parents who had invested all their
energy, trying to provide a stable life for
their child. She realised that her family
never deserved this and nor did she.
This girl was so strong that no demon
in her mind could convince her to be so
From that day, I learned that everyone
in this world is always trying to fight
different battles in different ways.
But what we all have in common is
the courage, patience and most of
all resilience to survive through all of
it. My scars may never fade away but
they are a reminder of my dark times
and how I morphed into a strong and
indestructible girl, who learned to fight
I felt weak. I felt destructive.
You see, all my life I have lived under this
shadow of perfection; the daughter with
the good grades and a bright smile. But
who knew that under this facade there
was a girl who had lost herself. Millions
of thoughts paced in my mind, making
me feel restless. So I did the only thing
I could think of at that moment: I called
my friend and told her everything. She
helped me in an extraordinary way by
giving the most helpful and practical
advice. Doing everything as she said,
I went and stood in front of my mirror
and looked at my scars; the same scars
that I designed myself, on my own skin.
In a soft tone, I took an oath to never
harm my body, my mind or to ever even
Photo Credits: Damia Nauman
We should remember, that life isn’t just about pain, it’s about counting the stars in
the darkness of the night. So go, look for your stars, you won’t be disappointed
By Zainab Imran, LGS 55 Main, Lahore, Pakistan
When we hear the word depression, we probably always think we know what it
means. We might even use the word casually in our daily conversations with our
friends, “Oh yeah, I’m feeling so depressed today. I don’t want to be here.” But
do we really know what depression is, and how it affects people, physically and
What is Depression?
While we may think being depressed means being sad, depression is more than just
a normal emotion. It is actually a serious mental illness which affects how you feel,
think, and act. Just like other illnesses, depression can happen to anyone and is
cured with time.
Depression symptoms can include:
-Deep feelings of sadness or grief
-Loss of interest in activities that were once enjoyed
-Changes in appetite, behavior or speech
-Increased fatigue or unnecessary physical activity
-Low self esteem (feeling of worthlessness)
-Thoughts of suicide
These symptoms continue over long periods of time in order to be ruled out as
People can undergo depression for numerous reasons. For example,the death of
a loved one can cause someone to fall into depression. However, depression in
teenagers has become a pressing and unfortunately very common issue all over
the world. It is one of the leading causes of death in adolescents. About one in six
teenagers withstand depression.
But why is this type of depression most common? This is because the world has
expanded so much in social life and education. Adolescents are being pressured in
schools and are expected to do more than they are up against.
Social media has a very strong influence in today’s world, thus people use the chance
to post hurtful things about others behind their backs or often in their faces. These
strains can be extremely hard to endure, especially when we are changing mentally and
figuring out what we want to become in the future. On top of that, tobacco and drug
abuse affects the developing mind and increases the risk of depression.
So what can we do? How can we help the people around us? It is very important to
understand and be able to detect the signs of depression. Teens in this world don’t
always receive the help they need, and are being taken lightly when they ask for
it. Having a healthy diet and getting enough sleep helps decrease stress. But most
importantly, talking about our worries to someone we trust, is a great start to address
mental health and making ourselves happier.
We may never know what someone is going through, so it’s crucial to be empathetic
and kind towards others. Just being there to listen to someone’s worries can really help
the person to understand that they are not alone. One should have courage and be
‘Kindness is seeing the best in others when they cannot see it in their selves’
13 years old
Inside the Mind of a Depressed Teen
Anaya, a bubbly 16 year old, trying to cope with social pressure, depicts the life of
a normal teenager in today’s world. Many years ago, Anaya suffered from clinical
depression and anxiety, but managed to pull through all of it. An interview with her
was conducted, to help people understand mental illness and to remove the taboo
Q) How old were you when you started feeling depressed?
Most teenagers get depressed when they are fifteen years old, but I became
depressed at the age of twelve. It was a crucial time in my life, when nobody in my
family really understood what mental illness was nor was there much awareness
about it in Pakistan.
Q) How did you feel during depression?
I was in absolute chaos, my mind was cluttered with insecurities regarding my
grades and appearance. The worst part was staring at myself in the mirror, which
reflected an image of a girl with pudgy thighs, acne and a bulging belly. At school,
I would feel conscious around my friends and at home, I would feel alone and
isolated. There were multiple voices in my head, screaming and shrieking for help
and comfort, but nobody could hear them except for me.
Q) How did you realise that you were suffering from depression?
I’ve always had a love for psychology so I used to read articles and books about
it. And when I started feeling disturbed and distressed, I realised that it was
depression which grew more and more serious, with the passing of days.
Q) How did depression affect your relationships with family and friends?
When I was depressed, I drifted away from my loved ones, which was a wrong thing
to do because at the end of the day, they were the ones who were standing by
my side, helping me through thick and thin. Although I kept a smile on my face all
the time, everyone was still able to see the cracks in my facade. After overcoming
depression, I became the person that everyone discussed their problems with
because I could understand their pain. So overall, depression taught me more than I
expected it to in a good way.
Q) How did you diagnose your mental illness?
I started to find peace in my faith by praying and depending on my God for a better
tomorrow. All the while, I started therapy and it helped me overcome my fears and
anxieties. I found comfort by believing in myself and slowly but gently, I started to
Q) According to you what does mental illness mean?
To me, Mental illness means the state of a person in which he or she loses their
sanity and peace of mind. It’s when everything in one’s life appears in black and
white, the perfect picture of dreariness. Mental illness is a very serious issue which is
becoming increasingly common in Pakistan and should be treated immediately.
Q) What should be done to remove the taboo around mental illness?
Everyone should start sharing their experiences on large platforms with huge
audiences or on social media. Mental Illness Organisations should conduct
seminars in schools and universities and make sure that their best therapists are
available for service at all times. People should not shy away from the fact that
they need therapy or are visiting a therapist. Parents should start taking their
child to the therapist (if needed) the same way they take their child to a physician.
Always keep in mind that a disturbed mind is just as worse as an aching joint.
Q) How did you change after going through depression?
I changed in so many ways that it was insane. My mind matured so much and I
started to understand the saying ‘Time is the best healer.’ I began to accept life
with all its happy and unhappy moments. After depression, I was finally able to
identify myself as a strong, resilient woman who could overcome anything. I would
look at the mirror once again and smile at my appearance instead of flinching like I
Q) Do you have any advice for people to help others in depression?
The best thing that anyone can do for a person in depression, is to help them heal
by giving them time and by being patient. Sometimes even holding their hand
makes a world worth of difference. Or even whispering a few kind words can help
uplift their spirit.
Q) Do you have any advice for people going through depression?
I would tell them to hold on and fight with all their might. And to remember that
this hard time that they are going through will also end and when it does then they
will finally find peace.
16 years old
LGS 55 Main
How are they affecting your child’s mental health?
It is quite normal for parents to argue, but their impact on a child’s mental
health is quite extensive. Although parents try not to have a row in front of their
adolescents, sometimes, it is, in fact, inevitable.
In a research, it was deduced by the University of York that the children whose
parents are divorced are most affected by the arguments that led to the divorce,
rather than being affected by the annulment itself. Furthermore, in the research,
it was concluded that by witnessing a fight at home, the children are 30% more
likely to develop certain behavioral issues than those children with happily married
It is healthy and normal for parents to sometimes argue with each other. What
harms the child’s mind is the part where the argument is left inconclusive .
Children learn from this experience and sometimes are unable to have constructive
arguments. This affects their ability to resolve conflicts in their personal life.
As unbelievable as it may sound, children as young as six months show corporeal
symptoms such as having a higher pulse rate being in front of parents fighting,
whereas, their pulse rate is lower when any other adults are arguing.
These symptoms get worse as the child grows. An adolescent may show external
changes such as sudden waves of aggression and by becoming hostile and violent.
Some of the internal changes that take place are that children begin to suffer from
anxiety, depression and having low self-esteem. In extreme cases, however, the
child may also have suicidal thoughts.
To prevent taking multiple trips to the therapist, it is important for the parent(s)
to recognize the noticeable signs of mental instability. In a blog-post by National
Alliance on Mental Illness, it was said that the signs the children of different grades
displayed, required psychological assistance. According to the post, students
from kindergarten till the third grade blame their own selves or their misbehaviour
for the divorce. More signs include complaints of headaches and stomach
pains. With students from fourth to sixth grade, multiple signs can be observed,
concerning the abrupt rise in conflicts with peers and the sudden occurence of
anger, embarrassment or frustration. Moving towards older students until the
twelfth grade display extreme mood swings and demonstrate a lack of interest in
schoolwork and extracurricular activities.
By Damia Nauman
16 years old
LGS 55 Main, Lahore, Pakistan
I sat down at my desk and sifted through the mail that had been placed in front
of my computer. All junk of course. I was about to dump it all in the recycling bin
when I saw my favorite magazine at the bottom of the pile. Tossing the rest aside,
I snatched it but something unexpected fell out from between the pages- divorce
papers. The smooth white paper suddenly felt heavy in my hands. I dropped the
bag in the bin with the silky paper still in my hand. I adjusted my glasses to make
sure I was reading it carefully. As I once again read the title on the paper: “Divorce
filed” written in bold and underlined.
Shazia and I have been married for over five years now, and we have a two year
old son, Abdullah. It seemed absurd for her to file for divorce, we have been a
happy married couple, and I’ve always tried to be a rational husband, straying away
from the conventional depictions of a desi husband. We never quarrelled over
unnecessary issues, and tried to make the most of our little time together, as she
was a full time neurosurgeon. Although I had observed that lately Shazia had been
taking advantage of my leverage. She disliked spending time with Abdullah and on
the weekends she had started to become too occupied with her friends. I pointed
that out on multiple occasions, and I remember her being argumentative about it
and calling me, “narrow minded”. But I never expected her to file for divorce.
Just like any other couple we have had our share of problems. I also have my own
set of issues, but there was nothing that can not be resolved.
I refuse to let my son grow without the affection of both, his mum and dad, he is a
two year old. I can not put Abdullah through the misery of having divorced parents.
I took him in my arms, stroking his face lightly, and brushing his auburn colored hair
from his face, he looked so peaceful as he sucked on his pacifier, so tranquil even in
times of utter chaos. I pressed him against my chest, gently cradling him. What have
I not done to be a good husband? What do I have to pay the price of being a bad
I clenched the divorce paper and grabbed the car keys from the coffee table. I
called out, “Ruqayya! Stop washing the dishes and please look after Abdullah, while
I go run some errands.” Ruqayya immediately catered to Abdullah. Ruqayya was a
maid that had been working at our house for a year and a half as Shazia was always
too busy with work to look after our child.
Grief stricken, I started the car, breathing heavily as I steadied my hands on the
steering wheel. Yes, Shazia had been busy, but she had never been disrespectful.
She was humble and loving, this seemed out of character. I was overwhelmed with
rage, as I slammed the sheet of paper on the passenger seat pressing it down from
Eventually I reached the hospital. I stepped out of the car as apprehension took over me. I
was fidgeting with the paper, unknowingly tearing the top of it. I took slow heavy footsteps to
her office. Without feeling the need to knock, I barged in. I did not mutter a word, but waved
the page incredulously, as if it were a red flag.
She straightened her back, and stood up. She pushed her chair back, and approached me.
“Oh this? I had been thinking about talking to you about this for quite a while now.” I felt sick
at heart by what she had just said, my mouth went dry and turned bitter. It felt as though my
heart was throbbing in my throat, as I murmured, “Why?”
She let out a nervous laughter, her eyebrows arched as she exclaimed, “Why? Taimur are
you asking me why? Have you forgotten about your bad drinking habits? Do you remember
slapping me twice this week while you were drunk?I do not want Abdullah to grow up in such
All the color from my face drained as I heard the harsh truth. “Shazia we can change that. I
can change,” I pleaded. She shook her head vigorously while rummaging through her drawers
only to pull out a brown manilla envelope. She replied, “Taimur, this has been going on for far
too long, and on multiple occasions I’ve tried to stop you, but you are stubborn and strong.
You said this then, and you are saying the same thing now.” She pulled out the signed divorce
papers and handed me a pen. “I’ve signed mine, please do me a favor and sign yours.”
I knew I had put her through a lot and there is no denying that I had hurt her on several
occasions. Swallowing my pride, I tightened my grip on the blue pen. And that was that. She
had divorced me.
14 years old
LGS 55 Main, Lahore
My hands were trembling out of angst;
I was most definitely not prepared
for this exam.I had been known to
top most subjects all my life. Yet I
sat there, doodling with my pen still
without a thought processing in my
mind. I had already thought of the vile
repercussions I would have to face in this
moment of failure. I spent my whole life,
devoting all my efforts and time to this
particular moment. I was bewildered
by how my mind had gone blank, as if
I had appeared for a different subject
altogether. My heart began sinking
as it dawned upon me; I was going to
fail. This would be one of the defining
points of my entire career, one of the
most crucial initial steps for success.
Unfortunately, I was already failing at
I felt suffocated by the eerie silence that
filled the room. I looked around, meeting
the gaze of few other candidates who
also seemed perplexed by the paper in
front of them. The rest were hurriedly
writing down answers. This seemed
to be a common phenomenon that a
student would forget all the information
that they had prepared. Up until now,
I was fortunate enough to be immune
to ‘blanking out’. But there I was, blank
as a slate. The invigilator announced
that out of the two hours allotted for
the exam, one hour had already passed.
The candidates around me were clicking
their pens fervently showing how fast
solutions were pouring into their minds.
This ear piercing sound made me feel
more inadequate than ever before.
As I accepted my fate as a failure,
I slumped into my chair and let all the
disappointment engulf me. I walked
through all the conversations that I
likely would have to encounter. My
heart ached as I visualized the disdain
on parents’ faces. I looked through my
half-answered paper one last time and
as I was about to hand it in; a question
popped at me. Suddenly, I was struck by
the influx of information that I felt I had
forgotten completely. Afraid that I would
forget it again, I grabbed my pen. It felt
as if my pen could not keep up with the
thoughts racing through my mind.
As time was winding down I
began answering all the questions in an
attempt to finish my paper onS time.
My mind was overwhelmed with all the
information which was pouring in all at
once. I tried my best to organize my
thoughts and to answer all the questions
as precisely as possible. I could feel my
stiff body begin to relax as I neared the
end of my paper. I finished my exam
moments before time was up. I glanced
down at my hands and saw how swollen
and sweaty they were after completing
The hall erupted in chatter as
candidates were instructed to exit. As
I walked out of the hall, I became even
more aware of my convoluted thoughts.
The built up anxiety of exam preparation
and performance had almost pushed me
to failure. Once I had faced my fears, I
relaxed and could recall all of the learned
information. I made a mental note to
never let fear overcome me and make
it difficult to work on the task at hand. I
walked out with the firm determination
to never allow this to happen to me
14 years old
Learning Alliance (Gulberg), Lahore
Winners of Harry Potter Competition
LGS 30 Main
Hassan Raza Shirazi
Learning Alliance DHA
LGS 55 Main
Learning Alliance (DHA)
Photo Credits: Damia Nauman
Young Poet's Corner
Her Hidden Pain
To the world she shows only happiness,
Whether at life’s worst or best.
But behind the mask is endless pain,
When she sees where her father was once lain.
Now, he’s forever gone,
She says it feels like there’s no dawn.
It unbearable, the pain, the grief,
Shaking hard in the wind like a leaf.
I hold her close, try to soothe her,
And realize there’s no one I know who’s stronger
By Maheen Salman Ahmad
12 years old
From the Eyes of a Teenager
I Don’t Know it Myself!
Screams and cries, arguments galore,
I want to howl, don’t want this anymore,
My emotions are scattered across the room,
I’m shrieking, trapped in a depressing gloom.
Wish my world was as organized as my shelf,
Ask me the cause, I wouldn’t know it myself,
Now I look at today, I’m all smiles and laughter,
Yesterday’s mood hanging from the rafters,
The world is great and my life is better,
Forget all those tears, burn my devastating letter,
I feel like jumping for joy and dancing like an elf,
Ask me the cause, I don’t know it myself,
But now, here I am, crying in the shower,
My mind is blank, before my own self I cower,
Don’t want to go on, just want to stay here,
My independence is crushed by this world full of fear,
What is my fault, that I was amazing the day before?
And the day before that, wanted to bolt, wanted to roar?
I’m confined in this body, for God knows how many years
Ask me the cause, I don’t know it myself.
By Amn Zain ul Abidin, 12 years old, LGS 55 Main
Have you tried Graphology?
The human mind remains a mystery to us till this day. It is as perplexing as ever
despite all the advances that have been made to solve this mystery. Handwriting
analysis has intrigued many people and they speculate why two signatures do not
look exactly alike. There are many questions.‘Why is everyone’s handwriting unique?
Is it because of a connection between the mind and body?
You must have heard about instances in which the handwriting of suspects are
used as evidence in a crime investigation. This study of handwriting is called
graphoanalysis; which allows analysts to prevent forgeries and investigate crimes
etc. Graphology, in other words, is learning to identify the psychological state of
a writer and evaluate their personality. It is usually considered a pseudoscience (a
collection of beliefs or practices mistakenly regarded as being based on scientific
method). Many people believe that one’s personality cannot be described by solely
looking at their handwriting. They believe graphology falls in the same category as
palm-reading and astrology. People who take up graphology as a profession are
called graphologists. However, if you are looking for some fun then you can sit with
your friends to have a look at each other’s handwriting! Who knows? There might
be some truth to it.
There are still many people who believe that this science can help you read the
mind of a person. Graphologists look distinctively at your slants, angles and letter
spacing. They observe the three main elements of handwriting: movement, spacing
and form. A graphologist would study these aspects and associate them with
Look at some of the general handwriting analysis tips:
It is an amazing phenomena, right?
However, this does not mean that we discriminate each other based exclusively on
their handwriting. Remember that this analysis is highly generalized and does not
apply to every individual. We must learn that every person has their own personality
and unique qualities.
By Damia Nauman
16 years old
LGS 55 Main, Lahore, Pakistan
Breast Cancer Awareness Month
In Pakistan, one in nine women develops breast
cancer at some stage of their lives. Every year
thousands of females lose their lives due to lack
of awareness, several women do not share their
health issues with others and are shy to go for any
kind of breast examination. Not only elder women
but it has affected younger too. Around 77 percent
of women with breast cancer are over the age of
50. From age 40 till she is physically active, every
woman should have a mammogram and a physical
exam by a doctor at least every two years.
Source: Shaukat Khanum Website
More information is available at https://shaukatkhanum.org.pk
An Interview with Dr Samina Khokher
An Expert on Breast Cancer
Dr Samina Khokher, MBBS, FCPS, PhD
Dr Samina Khokher topped Lahore Board in FSc and graduated from King Edward Medical
College in 1982. She chose to specialize in General Surgery and qualified FCPS in 1987.
Later she had training in Plastic Surgery from Malmo General hospital Sweden and took
Breast Surgery as Super speciality. She was awarded the first PhD in Surgery by University of
Health Sciences Lahore for research on Breast Cancer. Currently she is practicing as “Breast
Surgeon” at Faisal Hospital Lahore and is actively involved in the Breast Cancer awareness
activities in the various educational institutions.
What is Breast Cancer, in the view of an expert?
In simple terms, cancer is the uncontrolled growth and spread of cells in any part of the body.
So, to be specific, breast cancer is the development of cancer in the breast. It can develop
in women at any age after the age of 18. Maximum number of women are affected between
40 to 50 years in Pakistan. Breast cancer consists of four stages: In the first, it is barely even
there and with treatment it is easy to completely eradicate. In stage two, it has increased
in size but still there are high chances of cure with treatment. With the correct treatment,
it can be cured and the patient can make a full recovery. In the third stage, however, it has
spread locally in the breast and also to the armpits. At this stage the chancestage chance of
full recovery is less. In the fourth stage the cancer has spread beyond the breast to any other
part of the body, like lungs, liver or bones and chances of cure are negligible. All we can do at
this stage is to ease the patient and relieve them of pain. We help them as much as we can to
help them live the remainder of their lives surrounded by their family and friends in a happy
At what age should girls be educated about breast cancer awareness and begin
As breast cancer starts to appear at the age of eighteen, girls should be made aware of it
around this age. They should be instructed on how to examine themselves once in a while,
as well as when to go to get a professional opinion. It is safe to get clinical evaluation once
every three years, and self-examination once every month till the age of 40 years. Advanced
countries like America and England have developed a system called ‘screening’ which is
based on periodic X-Ray of breasts called “Mammography” and this contributes greatly to
the early diagnosis of breast cancer.
What is the incidence rate of breast cancer in Pakistan?
Pakistan alone has the highest rate of Breast Cancer than any other Asian country as one out
of every nine women develops breast cancer in her lifetime. It is the commonest cancer in
women as it accounts for 48% of all cancers of women and it is also the commonest cause
of cancer related deaths of women in Pakistan. It is extremely common, in simple words.
It is mainly because of unawareness. Women do not know how to pick up on it. Illiteracy
has a big part in this. When it is not identified, it grows until ultimately, it is fatal.
Should teams of doctors and nurses visit schools and offer free sessions and free
evaluations at their clinics?
Yes, but not exactly at schools more than colleges. Schoolgirls are a little too young to
know the details of breast cancer. Early overexposure can lead to trauma and fear, so
we avoid making that negative impression on such young minds. In colleges, however,
girls are old enough to be made aware. Free sessions and evaluations should not only be
offered at colleges but also to uneducated, poor women in order to lessen the biggest
hurdle to early diagnosis of breast cancer. If we raise breast cancer awareness, we could
lessen the frequency in which breast cancer is diagnosed at late stages in Pakistan, and
with appropriate treatment these cancers can then be cured.
By Maheen Salman
11 years old
SCIL, Lahore, Pakistan