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Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong> • <strong>Edition</strong> Four<br />
It’s Not You,<br />
It’s Me<br />
Words by Arushi Thakral<br />
Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong> • <strong>Edition</strong> Four<br />
Art by Kat Kennedy<br />
I’ve been pirouetting around social media my entire life. It’s been my soul mate and<br />
my muse. Up until recently, I scrolled mindlessly and struggled to set boundaries, so<br />
much so that I preferred texting people over actually meeting them.<br />
What’s funny is that the online world makes me sick now. My phone, my laptop, and<br />
even television, make me want to cry out loud. They are like that toxic partner that<br />
you keep going back to and regret each time.<br />
It’s ironic how we once preferred sailing alone in the deep waters of our social media<br />
feeds, and that’s all we’ve got now. Distance isn’t a choice anymore, and technology<br />
is our only friend. I ask myself why it feels so weird – isn’t this what I always wanted,<br />
to be on my own, scrolling through Instagram or watching a random series on my<br />
laptop, without having to leave my bed?<br />
I have all the time in the world to do what I always wanted, and it turns out my<br />
perfect life makes me anxious, stressed, and surprisingly unhappy.<br />
All the while, I’ve been in contact with people more than I ever have before. Through<br />
texts, video calls, and emails, I can keep in touch in exactly the way I used to prefer<br />
– but now, all I want is to meet my friends at the cafe I used to resent going to. I want<br />
to sit together, have a glass of red wine, and “cheers” the night away. Being the most<br />
socially awkward person to ever exist, wanting a digital detox is a big deal.<br />
Now that online is the new normal and the internet our saviour, I wish I had a rewind<br />
button, to fall back to when virtual was a possibility and not a replacement.<br />
I think I’ve changed. The world around me isn’t the same anymore – well then, how<br />
could I be?<br />
So, I have a confession to make. Technology, my best pal, I don’t think it’s working<br />
anymore. It’s not you, it’s me!<br />
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