The D-Monster written & directed by Kinga Suto
The D-Monster written & directed by Kinga Suto
The D-Monster written & directed by Kinga Suto
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writer & director: kinga suto<br />
DIRECTOR’S STATEMENT<br />
afi’s directing workshop for women presents: the d-monster<br />
Over ten years ago I was an intern on a major studio lot.<br />
I’d watched the academy awards every year and<br />
dreamed one day I’d be working in the film business.<br />
<strong>The</strong> excitement wore off on my first day at work. I found<br />
myself working long hours in a dark dirty basement<br />
racing forty other college interns to a red phone for the<br />
chance to run a beverage to a paid executive upstairs.<br />
Once upstairs I was submerged into an office culture that<br />
exhibited irrational behavior: execs firing assistants for<br />
giving them the wrong soda. Higher-ups expecting<br />
assistants to decipher their inaudible mumblings,<br />
becoming irate if someone asked them to repeat<br />
themselves and bosses firing assistants for using the<br />
restroom.<br />
When we are just starting out we are most vulnerable if<br />
placed in a morally unscrupulous environment, yet this<br />
is when most of us enter the workforce. How would you<br />
know that a superior has crossed the line, even if you<br />
instinctively felt it was wrong, if the entire office culture<br />
has deemed their bad behavior not only acceptable but<br />
also an attribute of their success, would you still question<br />
it? Lack of life experience puts you at a moral<br />
disadvantage, how do you weigh the costs of your choices<br />
when you are not fully formed as an adult?<br />
I wanted to go back to that time, when I was starting out,<br />
when I was impressionable and morally ambiguous. I<br />
remember feeling that things were inherently wrong but<br />
I questioned myself: maybe it wasn’t them, maybe I didn’t<br />
know how adults behaved.<br />
I was intoxicated <strong>by</strong> the Barbie-esque executives: young,<br />
successful and popular. I had never seen women like<br />
these before. I wanted badly to be one of them; I ignored<br />
the little voice in my head that questioned their<br />
behavior. I told myself I would never be like them, I<br />
needed to make it because I was gonna be successful<br />
and nice. But <strong>by</strong> moving up in an environment like that<br />
absorption of some bad behavior is inevitable.<br />
Years later, as an executive myself, on an incredibly<br />
difficult day, riding on lack of sleep, too much coffee and<br />
low blood sugar, my intern walked in with a salad. It<br />
had croutons in it. I hated croutons. How could he not<br />
know? I lost it. I threw the salad at the wall and fired<br />
the intern. When you do wrong, on a certain level - you<br />
know it instinctively, yet you don’t always admit it, you<br />
placate yourself and fabricate an embellished version of<br />
the event, a “story,” that makes it out to be the right<br />
choice. Bad people don’t think they are bad; they create<br />
their own version of the story, one where they are the<br />
heroes. But not even I could spin this in a good light. I<br />
stared at the mosaic of creamy crushed lettuce and<br />
croutons as they slid down the wall and realized I was at<br />
a true low point in my life. It made me question myself:<br />
was it the environment that had pressured me to<br />
change? Or was I a bad person to begin with?<br />
In making the d-monster I wanted to explore the idea of<br />
nature verses nurture. Can an environment really<br />
change someone, forcing them to choose to adapt or be<br />
fired? Or do we have a natural affinity for<br />
environments that allow our true self to come out?<br />
- <strong>Kinga</strong> <strong>Suto</strong>, April 2010