Issue 9 - Gold Dust magazine
Issue 9 - Gold Dust magazine
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She was eight months<br />
pregnant with our first child. The<br />
words she's kicking again<br />
seemed to burn a hole straight<br />
through my head. The thought<br />
of my unborn daughter, and the<br />
choice we made to have a family<br />
of our own, cut through me<br />
as if I had just found out we<br />
were pregnant.<br />
I held back my tears.<br />
It was then that I realised I<br />
was staring at the arrivals<br />
screen as returning holidaymakers<br />
scrambled for their luggage.<br />
'Can you get me a trolley,'<br />
said a lady with bleached splitends<br />
protruding from her distinctive<br />
gray roots.<br />
I observed her, wondering<br />
whether I knew this woman.<br />
'Can you get me a trolley…sorry,'<br />
she paused,<br />
perhaps she'd mistaken<br />
me for someone else.<br />
'Do…you…speak…English?'<br />
she said, highlighting each syllable.<br />
Did I work here and just<br />
didn't know it?<br />
'Yes, I speak perfectly good<br />
English, thank you very much.'<br />
She was suddenly taken<br />
aback. She looked shocked,<br />
almost appalled. 'Well then, can<br />
you get me a trolley…please.'<br />
Her final remark sounded less<br />
like a polite pleasantry, more a<br />
'how dare you question my<br />
authority'.<br />
'The trolleys are over<br />
there.' I pointed. 'Get one yourself.'<br />
She scowled. 'How dare<br />
you speak to me like that! Get<br />
me your superior, I want to<br />
speak to your manager right<br />
away.'<br />
Lucy tapped me on the<br />
shoulder. 'What's going on?'<br />
'I wish I knew. This woman<br />
thinks I work here.'<br />
'Excuse me madam, but<br />
what makes you think my husband<br />
works here.'<br />
The woman eyed me up<br />
and down. She appeared<br />
embarrassed by her mistake<br />
but she wasn't going to let that<br />
stop her.<br />
Her expression became a<br />
scowl as she eyed Lucy's pregnant<br />
stomach. 'It's not right that,<br />
The first murderer and the<br />
eldest of the gang was Jason<br />
Liddle...He enjoyed riding his<br />
motorbike, listening to hiphop<br />
and rap music, and<br />
spending time with his<br />
friends.<br />
you know.' She seemed disgusted.<br />
'You and him…'<br />
'What!' Lucy lurched forward<br />
in defence, her expression<br />
that of anger.<br />
I put my arms around her,<br />
gently. 'C'mon, lets go.'<br />
I was embarrassed but I<br />
didn't know why.<br />
'How dare you say that,'<br />
screamed Lucy.<br />
Other people started to<br />
stare. I could feel their glares on<br />
the back of my neck, under my<br />
skin; each of them staring at the<br />
Asian man and his white wife.<br />
'C'mon,' I said again, grabbing<br />
the trolley and pushing<br />
both it and my wife away. 'Let's<br />
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get home.'<br />
Lucy pushed my hands<br />
away and we began to move<br />
towards the exit.<br />
As we walked it felt like<br />
everyone we passed was looking,<br />
judging. 'They're all wondering<br />
what a guy like me is<br />
doing in an airport…'<br />
She suddenly stopped, her<br />
face turning towards me. 'No,'<br />
she snapped, her voice nearly<br />
breaking from her overuse of it.<br />
'Don't ever think that. You're<br />
always going on about it - how<br />
people look at you, how people<br />
treat you differently, how waiters<br />
in restaurants put us on<br />
tables as far away from everyone<br />
else as possible. It's all in<br />
your imagination.'<br />
Tears streamed down her<br />
face. She never used much<br />
make-up but I could see her<br />
eyeliner had streaked.<br />
'That woman is the minority<br />
- get that through your skull.'<br />
She moved closer to me, placing<br />
her hands on my cheeks. 'I<br />
love you, Adrian.'<br />
I thought she was going to<br />
kiss me but instead I felt a stinging<br />
pain rise up on my face as<br />
she slapped me hard.<br />
'Don't ever talk that way,<br />
and don't think it either. No matter<br />
what people say, that sort of<br />
stuff doesn't come into our family.'<br />
I nodded. It was more out<br />
of shock than anything. I'd<br />
never seen her like this before.<br />
She grabbed the trolley and<br />
pushed it away. I stood there for<br />
a second, then chased after<br />
her, taking hold of the trolley<br />
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