Chavez Fall 2011 Issue - Seton Hall University
Chavez Fall 2011 Issue - Seton Hall University
Chavez Fall 2011 Issue - Seton Hall University
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See the Sudden Light<br />
By Alison Elgayar<br />
I felt it. The burning emotion inside tore me down and ate me alive as I stood there. The anger, the<br />
hurt, the mourning that was soon to come cluttered my mind. There was no use in looking towards<br />
a bright side. The bright side was overshadowed – not again, but forever.<br />
He was gone. The second part of the single soul that had brought me into this world had vanished<br />
from mine, right before my very eyes. Although my vision might not perfect and I tend to wear<br />
glasses from time to time, I had refused to see the trouble that lend to this event.<br />
“Was it me? Was it something I did? Did I make you so mad that you felt you needed to run away?”<br />
Those questions plagued my mind. As I continued to sit in silence and think, I failed to notice that<br />
I had chewed down on my bottom lip so much that I could feel the blood seep onto my tongue.<br />
The pain of him leaving did not fully hit me until I became a mock at someone else’s expense.<br />
Did you ever feel that? When you’re going through a rough time on one of the most cheerful and<br />
spirited days of the year, the sadness eats you up and spits you out ten times harder than it would<br />
on any other day.<br />
On Christmas Day, I cried. Christmas was certainly not what it was 10 years ago, when everyone in<br />
the family would gather around and open their perfectly wrapped presents Santa Claus had brought<br />
to them. Christmas back then was about running out into the living room and letting your eyes<br />
wonder on all the magic that was left from the night before. The gifts, the twinkling, bright lights<br />
of the tree, and the spark of joy that your eyes held when you noticed the cookies and milk you laid<br />
out were missing.<br />
It just wasn’t the same. Not this year.<br />
My mind goes off topic a lot. When you’re in a worked-up state as bad as mine, I think scattering,<br />
pointless thoughts are permitted. When I felt the hot tears rolls down the flesh of my cheeks and<br />
burn my eyes like acid, that’s when I knew things were never going to be the same.<br />
I don’t think anyone ever feels that sad but once. Sometimes it only takes one person to make you<br />
feel that way; then again, sometimes it only takes one person to make that feeling go away.<br />
And then there was him.<br />
The one that could make it go away.<br />
I was never one to believe in that mystic connection one feels when they meet their true love, but<br />
that day, that night, my beliefs came to a stop.<br />
“It’s going to be okay,” he whispered slowly, holding onto me as if he feared I would slip away.<br />
“I’m going to make everything all right.”<br />
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