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an old map that traced a meander or illustrated a branch that no longer<br />

existed.<br />

Sometimes, I would go out on a river alone, shoulder<strong>in</strong>g my kayak to <strong>the</strong><br />

edge <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> water at <strong>the</strong> ocher light just before dusk, and paddle until it<br />

was well after dark. Dipp<strong>in</strong>g my paddle spar<strong>in</strong>gly to steer, I would drift<br />

downstream with <strong>the</strong> slight current, not unlike a patch <strong>of</strong> float<strong>in</strong>g<br />

hyac<strong>in</strong>ths. Alone <strong>in</strong> <strong>the</strong> river darkness, I would brea<strong>the</strong> slowly and<br />

imag<strong>in</strong>e myself as nearly <strong>in</strong>visible. Wad<strong>in</strong>g birds would screech from <strong>the</strong><br />

dense river<strong>in</strong>e forest, fish would smack <strong>the</strong> surface to feed, and<br />

alligators would beg<strong>in</strong> <strong>the</strong>ir slow patient survey <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> dark primal water,<br />

reclaim<strong>in</strong>g <strong>the</strong> river as completely as <strong>the</strong> night itself. Without <strong>the</strong> noise <strong>of</strong><br />

my clumsy modern ego to drown everyth<strong>in</strong>g out, <strong>the</strong> river would rega<strong>in</strong><br />

its preem<strong>in</strong>ence and grace; and when I had <strong>the</strong> courage to allow it, it<br />

would rise up to touch my soul. If I was lucky I could reach a s<strong>in</strong>gular<br />

place nurtured by <strong>the</strong> full emotional sway <strong>of</strong> bliss, <strong>of</strong> respect, <strong>of</strong> fear. It<br />

was an experience beyond <strong>the</strong> safeguard <strong>of</strong> <strong>in</strong>tellect.<br />

Once, after spend<strong>in</strong>g years around a river, I wrote a book about it. In<br />

do<strong>in</strong>g so, I talked to scientists and river dwellers and read everyth<strong>in</strong>g I<br />

could f<strong>in</strong>d on <strong>the</strong> subject, from research papers to poetry. Even <strong>the</strong>n, I<br />

could not capture it fully; for to write about a river is not unlike sculpt<strong>in</strong>g<br />

clay that is never put <strong>in</strong>to a kiln. It's malleable, someth<strong>in</strong>g that is<br />

remolded over time. If we expect it to stay put, we are badly mistaken;<br />

for rivers-even those bulk-headed and channeled-tend to break loose<br />

every once <strong>in</strong> a while. Secrets, hidden well, slowly reveal <strong>the</strong>mselves,<br />

like totems <strong>in</strong> <strong>the</strong> benthic mud. Rivers have a mystic quality to <strong>the</strong>m, a<br />

way <strong>of</strong> help<strong>in</strong>g us remember someth<strong>in</strong>g we thought we had forgotten.<br />

<strong>The</strong> process <strong>of</strong> appreciat<strong>in</strong>g <strong>Florida</strong> rivers has noth<strong>in</strong>g whatsoever to do<br />

with ownership or territoriality. To love a river enough to want to write<br />

about it, pa<strong>in</strong>t an image <strong>of</strong> it, or compose a song to it is to have <strong>the</strong><br />

capacity to at once hold tight to it-and, just as completely, to let it go.<br />

BILL BELLEVILLE is an award-w<strong>in</strong>n<strong>in</strong>g author and documentary<br />

filmmaker who specializes <strong>in</strong> environmental issues. He lives <strong>in</strong> Sanford.

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