Detained Lives: the real cost of indefinite ... - Detention Action
Detained Lives: the real cost of indefinite ... - Detention Action
Detained Lives: the real cost of indefinite ... - Detention Action
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“ ”<br />
Empty to be honest. Without my boy<br />
it’s empty, it’s nothing. To be honest my<br />
future is nothing, it’s nothing to me.<br />
Rafik Bouzid, detained 22 months<br />
“<br />
I don’t see my future. Everything is going against<br />
me. I’ve lost my family and everything. When I<br />
think about [<strong>the</strong> future], it’s just a blank,<br />
”<br />
a black<br />
page, that’s it, nothing on it, just a dark black page.<br />
Liban Al Kadi, detained 16 months<br />
Some interviewees did maintain a sense <strong>of</strong> optimism.<br />
Hopes for <strong>the</strong> future were associated by nine interviewees<br />
with a possible return to “normal life”, involving family,<br />
work and day-to-day routine. These interviewees retained<br />
a sense that <strong>the</strong>y could get <strong>the</strong>ir lives back, “go back to<br />
society” and become again like everybody else.<br />
“<br />
You know, I am looking to start a family, to<br />
make a good life, you know, like business,<br />
like education, like something – I like to help<br />
people. Help, you know. There’s many<br />
”<br />
things<br />
I want to do in <strong>the</strong> future, everything.<br />
Mojtaba from Iran and Manchester,<br />
detained 21 months<br />
“<br />
If I get outside I will look after my life, I will<br />
move to my country, I want to be like my fa<strong>the</strong>r<br />
what he done when he bring me [up]. I want to<br />
get children, I want to get married, I’m<br />
”<br />
27 now.<br />
They should understand but <strong>the</strong>y not understand.<br />
Ali Saifi, detained 19 months<br />
“<br />
I don’t want to be rich. I just want to live a<br />
normal life like everybody. A job I wake up<br />
to, I go, I work, I come back home, I have nice<br />
woman, a couple <strong>of</strong> kids, I got a house, I got a<br />
tiny car like a VW, just a bit <strong>of</strong> money in <strong>the</strong><br />
bank like everybody, in case somebody fall ill<br />
or some emergency, that’s all what I want and<br />
ordinary as possible. I don’t want nothing out<br />
from <strong>the</strong>m except to let me go, let me go, <strong>the</strong>y<br />
have no right to steal my life away.<br />
Karim Benhamou, detained 8 years<br />
Interviewees felt acutely a sense <strong>of</strong> lost time, that <strong>the</strong>ir lives<br />
are passing without <strong>the</strong>m and will soon be gone. Days in<br />
detention accrue nothing, <strong>the</strong>y vanish without trace, unlike<br />
prison days which mark steps towards a release date.<br />
Seven interviewees worried about ageing and whe<strong>the</strong>r <strong>the</strong>y<br />
will have time left to catch up <strong>the</strong> wasted years.<br />
“<br />
I am over 40 years now, I was born in 1967, I<br />
have no much left to sort out my life now…<br />
I have to accept it and move on so I can start<br />
a new life <strong>the</strong>re… I’ve been waiting for<br />
”<br />
<strong>the</strong>m<br />
for 20 months now.<br />
Achene, detained 21 months<br />
“<br />
Each day I’m getting a day older.<br />
In terms <strong>of</strong> human life, [what] is<br />
maybe an hour outside, in here it’s<br />
like a lifetime. People age quicker<br />
than <strong>the</strong> people outside.<br />
”<br />
Zyad Al-Saadon from Iraq and Medway,<br />
detained 19 months<br />
“ ”<br />
My beard is getting whiter<br />
every day... I feel like I’m<br />
85 years old, like my life is<br />
gone, it’s wasted.<br />
“ ”<br />
Karim Benhamou, detained 8 years<br />
Sometimes you sit, and you think about<br />
your life and you think, oh my God, it’s not<br />
just one day, two days, three days, but three<br />
years, and three years where somebody gets<br />
from 27 to 30 – he’s quite missed out on<br />
his life.<br />
Shirazi, detained 2 years 5 months<br />
And my time will run out, I’m not enjoying<br />
my life. Especially at this time, Christmas,<br />
you see it on <strong>the</strong> TV. People laughing. Seeing<br />
people enjoying <strong>the</strong>ir life but I’m living low<br />
life. This life is hard… a couple <strong>of</strong> days ago<br />
my birthday… three birthdays in detention.<br />
“Daniel, detained 20 months<br />
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