Whatever happened to the 'Miracle Baby'? - Subud Voice
Whatever happened to the 'Miracle Baby'? - Subud Voice
Whatever happened to the 'Miracle Baby'? - Subud Voice
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heap of suitcases, her grandmo<strong>the</strong>r suffering not so<br />
silently. They arrived in Jakarta and were put in <strong>the</strong><br />
only guest room available. The next afternoon, jetlagged,<br />
<strong>the</strong>y went <strong>to</strong> meet Pak Subuh.<br />
Pak Subuh had always been part of Deana’s life. At <strong>the</strong><br />
same time Bar<strong>to</strong>k discovered she was pregnant, she<br />
learned she had a potentially life-threatening ovarian<br />
cyst. Doc<strong>to</strong>rs recommended surgery for its removal,<br />
which would have killed <strong>the</strong> fetus.<br />
Bar<strong>to</strong>k, <strong>the</strong>n already involved in<br />
<strong>Subud</strong>, moved from Los<br />
Angeles <strong>to</strong> its compound<br />
at Coombe<br />
Springs outside<br />
London, where she<br />
awaited a visit from Pak<br />
Subuh. Following his<br />
instructions, she put off <strong>the</strong><br />
surgery and <strong>the</strong> cyst miraculously<br />
disappeared. He also<br />
decided that <strong>the</strong> child would<br />
be called Donald if a boy, or<br />
Deana if a girl. Deana Grazia<br />
was born in Oc<strong>to</strong>ber 1957.<br />
“He was beautiful and warm,”<br />
she says of Pak Subuh. “There<br />
was light all around him when he Eva Bar<strong>to</strong>k<br />
walked in<strong>to</strong> a room. He loved children,<br />
and he called me over and asked me<br />
in Indonesian how I liked Wisma <strong>Subud</strong>.<br />
He was so revered. His wife was fantastic,<br />
<strong>to</strong>o, we became very close, and she<br />
loved Mum a lot.”<br />
She calls Wisma <strong>Subud</strong> a “little<br />
island” of calm from which she<br />
would venture out <strong>to</strong> <strong>the</strong> sidewalk<br />
stall along Jl. Fatmawati <strong>to</strong> buy ice<br />
cream. The transition <strong>to</strong> <strong>the</strong> tropics<br />
was sometimes daunting, Sinatra<br />
admits, describing <strong>the</strong> differences –<br />
curious smells, birds singing, house<br />
lizards scurrying across <strong>the</strong> walls –<br />
as “gobsmacking”.<br />
Frank Sinatra.<br />
Respected Sinatra<br />
biographers support Deana's<br />
contention that Sinatra was her fa<strong>the</strong>r<br />
(Courtesy of Jakarta Post)<br />
While Deana attended Jakarta International School, her<br />
mo<strong>the</strong>r threw herself in<strong>to</strong> <strong>Subud</strong> activities. “I think she<br />
wanted <strong>to</strong> become a better person and let go of all <strong>the</strong><br />
trappings of being a film star,” she says. “She always<br />
believed in a much higher power ... she came in<strong>to</strong> this<br />
world with a spiritual thread.”<br />
Omar Martinez, who has created an extensive online<br />
tribute <strong>to</strong> Eva Bar<strong>to</strong>k, agrees. “From <strong>the</strong> time she was a<br />
child she was questioning her place in <strong>the</strong> universe,” he<br />
says. “She was very intelligent and sensitive.”<br />
The idyllic Jakarta interlude ended in 1971. Pak Subuh<br />
asked Bar<strong>to</strong>k <strong>to</strong> spread <strong>Subud</strong>’s philosophy throughout<br />
<strong>the</strong> world. The family moved <strong>to</strong> Los Angeles, and later<br />
<strong>to</strong> Hawaii. “My mo<strong>the</strong>r left here on a mission that was<br />
asked of her. And she never ended up coming back here<br />
<strong>to</strong> live.”<br />
Perhaps, Deana Sinatra says, that is why she has come<br />
back. She has also returned <strong>to</strong> <strong>Subud</strong> after several<br />
years’ absence, adding that its way of living and<br />
viewing <strong>the</strong> world always remains part of its followers.<br />
The city, and her small circle of friends, is<br />
helping her tie up <strong>the</strong> loose ends of <strong>the</strong> past.<br />
Meaning over Movies<br />
Bar<strong>to</strong>k’s spiritual quest led her <strong>to</strong> put aside her<br />
acting career, Martinez says from Los Angeles.<br />
Bar<strong>to</strong>k had first gained international fame starring<br />
in The Crimson Pirate with Burt<br />
Lancaster (1952). Her Eastern European<br />
background made her a favorite <strong>to</strong> play<br />
World War II heroines and Cold War<br />
escapees in such films as Operation<br />
Amsterdam (1959) and Beyond <strong>the</strong><br />
Curtain (1960).<br />
Fluent in many languages, she continued<br />
<strong>to</strong> make movies in Italy and<br />
Germany in <strong>the</strong> 1960s;<br />
her last lead role was<br />
in <strong>the</strong> Israeli film<br />
Sabina in 1967, with<br />
Deana making her acting<br />
debut.<br />
“I believe that her newfound<br />
connection with<br />
<strong>Subud</strong> made her less interested<br />
in pursuing her career.<br />
After all she had found in that<br />
movement what she had been<br />
looking for all of her life: <strong>the</strong><br />
meaning of her existence,” says<br />
Martinez, drawing on Bar<strong>to</strong>k’s<br />
1959 au<strong>to</strong>biography Worth Living<br />
For.<br />
Deana Sinatra, who also had a brief acting<br />
career, says her mo<strong>the</strong>r was a very good actress,<br />
although not great. Unlike her fellow Hungarians, <strong>the</strong><br />
Gabor sisters, Bar<strong>to</strong>k set out <strong>to</strong> lose her accent when<br />
speaking English by taking elocution lessons.<br />
But she never looked back wistfully on her Hollywood<br />
years. “She had realized <strong>the</strong> fakeness of it,” Sinatra<br />
says. “It was just a phase that she went through. But<br />
she did love <strong>the</strong> stage.”<br />
Bar<strong>to</strong>k’s search for meaning also stemmed from <strong>the</strong><br />
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