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5 The NowheremanThis is about how it started.I guess it started with the darkness. A nocturne permeated withgreat droplets of blackness that fill me like an ocean of water. S’likeI’m dreaming the dreams of the dead, but I sense that I am awake.I can’t move or see, can’t even breathe, but I’m not asleep. It’s likebeing deep underwater and you daren’t open your mouth or you’lldrown. And then there’s the drilling. The sensation of my headvibrating.I panic. Try to thrash. Just makes the panic worse.Then I feel it.Feel the something in my head.There’s something in my head. Moving around. Filling it totally. Abig spider. Crawling. Touching. Feeding.Feel woozy. Like I’ve been drinking or on drugs.Am I dead? I remember a brightness. A flash. The smell of burningair. A black metal tunnel as large as my left eye. It’s like my firstmemory ever. Like it happened to me when I was three. Primal, fuzzyand very long ago.The spider is feeding still. Engorged, it presses upon the insideof my skull.I can’t even breathe.There’s sudden light in my eye. Then a sting in my neck.I dimly think that I’ve been bitten. Dimly think I have lost allmy dreams. Think I’ve dropped them. Dropped them through mytrembling fingers.