Lanthanum metallicum

Lanthanum metallicumDoubt, Confusion, “I don’t know what to do”Incapacity, “I feel very small and young”Distraction, “I get thrown off my path, I am susceptible totheir image”Desires Order, “It felt good to get organized”ClarityPre-Labor, the Moment beforeThe Moment before Something is RealizedInhibited Self-Expression, “I have that potential but it is notmanifesting”Internal Pressure, “Like shaking up a two-liter bottle andleaving the top on”Hurry, “In a big rush to get something done”Stillness, “Being unaffected by the craziness around”Heaviness, Grief, “This heaviness prevents the expansioninto the void”No Movement, “I long, long, long for the moving watersagain”Relief with Movement, “Everything was flowing”No Internal Drive, “I want to give up”Self-Reproach, “You did wrong, caused something to happen”Apathy, “I don’t care, or it doesn’t matter”Drive, “Strong, strength is a surge of energy”Hidden, “One learns to hide within the confusion”Calm on Outside, “No one saw how crazy it was”Fear That Others Will See, EmbarrassingFears for My Safety, Careful, “I need to be careful of how I am in the world”Parallel Worlds, “I felt like I was in parallel worlds”Isolation, “Some kind of barrier separates me from others”A Prison, “Meant to keep it safe, but it becomes a prison for its contents”Detached, Disconnected, “Who is this guy?”TimelessPeace in Alone, Alone is a reliefDo not invade my space, “Back off and leave me alone”Transformation, the Light, Merging with the Universe, Our True NatureAddictions, “Additions as a result of denying your own truths”Higher Calling, For the Greater GoodFrom a Higher Level, “To see from a higher perspective”High Stakes, “My one decision could change everything”CreativityArtwork by Hannah Albert during Proving“The moment before something is realized”Lanthanum is a state of confusion and doubt at the core. The individual is stuck, does not know whatto do and does not even know how to begin to make a plan. It’s the moment before labor; the momentof potential, but also the moment of pause with no movement. It’s like storming the beaches of

Lanthanum metallicumNormandy, the boats come ashore and it is timefor the soldiers to run out. Inside, they feel incapableof the next step required of them. Lanthanumis in Column three. They are trying to leavethe comfort of their structure behind them andmove to a new structure. “Like a change needs tohappen, I need to move to next stage, but I don'tknow what to do.”The main issue is the lack of expression. Theycan experience symptoms that feel like blockagesand symptoms in which if they could just passstool, or just throw up, or just start their periodthey would get relief. In their life they are likely facing choices and options of which they are unable tochoose, therefore unable to start. They are not the people that tried and failed, they are likely theones that never really tried at all. They can have apathy and easy thoughts of “giving up.”This can be experienced as an internal claustrophobia, and internal craziness that is not seen on theoutside. Here is the inherent difficulty with the Lanthanides, as Lanthanum will not want to show thisincapacity. They fear ridicule, judgment and embarrassment so they attempt to keep the state hidden.Because this is a Row 5/Row 6 dilemma, they also know that the penalty for not expressing islarge. The lack of manifestation is really a painful situation for them, for it means a life without theirinner light, a shallow life without their soul. This is the dilemma between light and dark, enlightenmentand a life of denying your own truths.On the surface they can appear rushed and to calm the internal chaos they will attempt to keep theoutside in order and clean. They can be sensitive to dis-order and chaos because this is how theyfeel inside. Lanthanum can also experience heaviness with their lack of movement. They will have alonging for movement and flow and will experience lightness when things are moving.In Lanthanum there can be an experience of parallel worlds. It appears to be an expression of thedetachment and distance their have from others as well as their inner confusion. It’s as if they cansee the potential for different paths of existence but remain floating between the worlds. The realworld around them seems distant. They may actually have difficulty interacting with others (Autism).This retreat of inner exploration and caution can be experienced as a retreat into a tall fortress tower.In the tower, they are safe from failure and judgment but it becomes a prison for them. There can begrief and intense isolation for them. There can also be relief and peace in their aloneness. Their ultimategoal is the merging with consciousness and spiritual unity however their existence is one ofseparation and detachment.Although at the far left of this row, Lanthanum will have the similar higher striving as is found in rowsfive and six. They can be concerned with the greater good as well as interesting in creativity and expression.They also experience the negative of this which is the failure when success is not reached.In their mind they know that one decision could change the rest of their lives. So the risk of makingthe wrong decision in monumental. The self-reproach that they experience may also cause them to beaddicted to substances.Key Indicative DreamsI am looking at a photograph of two people; as I touch the photograph (which has a warning clearly stating: donot touch, beta testing in progress, written on the bottom of the photograph in small white letters); time andspace twist; I become one of the two men in the photograph. I enter his life fully without any choice on my part;my own life is vague, fading, I am enjoying a day with my companion, this other man ( who seems to know that I

Lanthanum metallicumperhaps I should get up and write it down. But I don’t Ifall back to sleep and dream again. When I wake fromthat dream I remember that I dreamed before but cannotremember and feel disappointed like I have lostsomething important. Later I get a glimmer and then itleaves. Then I remember my teacher and the dreamcomes back to me – I am so relieved and happy. Imiss my teacher. Long for the connection. Also in thedream I remember the study of the stream of water beingimportant – the connections, recognitions from astream of water. (20)A dream that has a part I don’t remember except Iwrote down that “ wanting space back” and that I waswith two of my friends and a third person. Or beforethat scene there is a vision of a bridge with water goingover it and still I am able to cross by going to one sidewhere the water is not deep. Then there is the sceneArtwork by Hannah Albert during Provingwith my friends. After I am back at the bridge only this time thewater is going over the bridge faster and is deeper at the end of the bridge the water is curving and going backdown the bank of the river I suppose but at the end of the bridge is also the continuance of the road - it is acountry dirt or gravel road. I need to get across the bridge but this time I am afraid of the water current and thedepth - that I might fall or be swept in the current and be killed or hurt or in something I cannot get out of –drowning I suppose - mostly I feel the fear of being swept away and having no control. I decide to do as I haddone on the way which is to cut across to one side where the water seems less deep - the widest part of thecurve over the bridge and from there it is only a short way out of the water because of the road. As I start I getoff the bridge but because water has been going over the dirt it is mud. I realize that the road is full of mud I willget stuck in – and sure enough as soon as I step in it I am stuck – I think if I push off with my hands - so sort ofon all fours then I can help get my feet out – I must go slow but I will get there – but instead my hands get stucktoo and my energy starts to drain – like the dreams when you are in slow motion and no matter how hard you tryyou cant get anywhere. I get afraid that I will collapse there that instead of moving at all my energy will keepdraining. It seems not just slow but impossible to move my feet and hands as if I do not have the strength at all.It feels familiar – I remember the feeling also that I saw this happening as soon as I got off the bridge but I hadalready made the step. (20)Out in a boat; a develop disabled person on board; a gang trying to make us captive; the Disabled person foughtback; he was able to free all of us. Main Feeling; Relief that we were freed. (21)I had a homeopathic child client who developed thyroid cancer, I had kept telling the mother that everythingwould be fine as his symptoms were improving and then I got a call that he had terminal cancer…I felt awful likeI had dropped the ball and not been aware of the severity of his condition. I had my homeopathic instructor showup and approach me with concern for my non concern. The instructor lectured me on staying on top of thingsand to watch for subtle signs so that you keep your client vital. The feeling was of guilt of not being a betterhealer for this child and of sorrow for the grief that the mom and family was going thru. I felt like a failure. (118)