CalArts Eye, May Edition
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THE CALARTS EYE<br />
a knot forms in my throat and<br />
tears trickle down my face as they<br />
dance to old school Missy Elliot<br />
and sip on their beer. I feel distant<br />
and hot and I’m melting again. Inside<br />
I am falling apart, inside I am<br />
grimy countertops and scratched<br />
wooden floors and chipping walls.<br />
Inside I am melting. On the outside<br />
it is beginning to show. Now<br />
it’s mid-august but my summer<br />
still has a month to go. The movement<br />
is ending, the momentum is<br />
at its close, and I only look forward<br />
to one thing. There are moments<br />
of bliss and infinity when<br />
I stop crying and see harmony<br />
in the world. It’s getting better I<br />
think. I see my favorite band play<br />
my favorite song; I move without<br />
lethargy, I am happy and inspired<br />
and reminded that this is only a<br />
season. I remember the day weeks<br />
after and wish to relive it. I place<br />
it in a special crevice in my heart.<br />
It’s early September and it’s almost<br />
over. I coin this the worst<br />
summer ever because I cried for<br />
more than half of its entirety. I’m<br />
lazy and unmotivated. I promise<br />
never to return for months at end<br />
again. I remember how much love<br />
I receive, how grateful I should be,<br />
I cry because I’m leaving. I cry<br />
because the season came to an<br />
end but the feelings remain. I cry<br />
because I won’t have my mom’s<br />
bed to lie on. I sleep it off. I don’t<br />
think about it. My playlist replays<br />
as we get a ride home, drunk and<br />
depressed with glitches of happiness<br />
as the cool air touches my<br />
face, making sure I don’t melt<br />
away. One time we stayed awake<br />
until the sunrise, drove home on<br />
an empty freeway at 90mph, and<br />
I felt the wind blow my sadness<br />
away. I was finally exhausted<br />
from lack of sleep, I fall asleep in<br />
my sisters arms as the day begins.<br />
Poem for my mother on her 70th Birthday<br />
DREW STRAUS<br />
CHARLIE LATAN<br />
10<br />
So, this is you at 70, sitting<br />
by the library window.<br />
Your tinsel hair, lank and gleaming,<br />
sends glowing fish<br />
over the surface of the books,<br />
all the way to where the canaries<br />
lay sleeping,<br />
near the stacked<br />
flutes. Your hands fold and shift<br />
in your lap<br />
like tiny bellows. The shelllike<br />
room<br />
fills with echoes.<br />
Let’s walk together,<br />
past the garden,<br />
where the trees bloomed in<br />
violence,<br />
to my table<br />
tucked between valleys<br />
cupped by leaves.<br />
How loud does one speak<br />
to the dead? Across the table<br />
you sit with you hair like stars.<br />
Your voice<br />
whistles past the house,<br />
and rustles a book in the library.<br />
After you blow out the candles,<br />
I wait for you to speak. Some<br />
sounds<br />
are found so far from their origin,<br />
that the source has long since<br />
dried up.<br />
It is no surprise to hear your voice<br />
now. Lift me to your ear<br />
to hear the sound of the sea.