DREAMS

40. O ME OF LITTLE FAITH
Early in my career as a Physician running my own clinic in Kerala, once in a dream I saw myself
and a few others riding bikes on a highway. After sometime we turn to the left and traverse a
narrow path that leads to a steep staircase. When we near the staircase/steps, my companions
just increase the speed of their bikes and ride effortlessly on the steps and go away. But I stop
my bike at the foot of the staircase and look dejected that I cannot do what the others did.
After waiting for some time there, with much effort, I push my bike upstairs. As the dream
ended, I could see myself dejected and upset about the whole thing.
When I woke up, I couldn't really decipher what the Holy Spirit was hinting about, but I prayed
that I may not land up in any problems that day.
I had a hectic day at the Clinic. Many patients and not a minute of rest till around 1.30 pm. As
we (me & my wife) sat for lunch in the rest room that day, I could hear some commotion in the
examination room. My assistant informed me that a patient (10 yr. old boy) who had come that
day had been brought again because he had giddiness and vomiting on taking the medicines.
When I enquired, the parents told me that they had given the medicines on an empty stomach.
The boy looked pale and was restless and the parents were tense.
Suddenly, I panicked and instead of reassuring the parents and the boy, I told them to take the
boy to one of the bigger hospitals in the area.
Though I prayed about the matter all through that evening, I feared of something catastrophic
happening to the boy. Would he die? What would be the consequences? I became very
dejected and it upset me a lot. I couldn't really believe that God is able to handle every problem
that comes my way.
What the Holy Spirit had shown in the dream was true. Others would have been cool in a
situation like this (effortlessly riding on the steep staircase), but I would handle the situation
differently (pushing the bike up the staircase with much effort and dejection).
Nothing really happened to the boy, he was given a couple of drips in another hospital and he
was well (I enquired the next day), but I had spent an evening in unbelief, doubt and dejection.
Will God really take care? is the question that often arises in the minds of believers even after
they pray much about some matters. Doubts and unbelief persist.
Jesus seeing the unbelief of his disciples once asked them,
"Where is your faith?" Sometimes He asks us the same thing--"Where is your faith?
He replied, "You of little faith, why are you so afraid?" Then he got up and rebuked the winds
and the waves, and it was completely calm. (Matthew 8:26)