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By Marcos Reyes // Photo by<br />
Walked out of my house the other the other day and<br />
went to the recycled books store. I had gathered all the<br />
books that I could get rid of off my bookshelf. I did not<br />
want to part with some of them. I looked into my wallet<br />
and I still had a twenty in there, I had been keeping it for the longest<br />
time, about two weeks.<br />
“ The economy is bad, and it’s going to get worse”, I hear people<br />
say. Everywhere I can see the signs, I haven’t gotten a job for the<br />
past 3 to 4 months. It’s strange that everything seemed to be going<br />
well up to the time I got laid off.<br />
I had started college and was passing with good grades, but<br />
one day to the next everything started going down hill, I guess not<br />
just for me, but for everyone. Through those month’s I relied on my<br />
savings that since that time have vanished.<br />
I gather my bag of books, ones that have shaped ad influenced<br />
me in my life and thought I would always have if I had anything, and<br />
rode the bus downtown. My education, and my collection of literature<br />
is vanishing. I have to cut down on classes to be able to pay for them.<br />
I am sure people around the country have lost more, they might be<br />
living in the streets since the crisis hit us all.<br />
Sometimes I would laugh about how people’s greed would consume<br />
them. That the fall of civilization could be heard a mile away,<br />
but it’s nothing to laugh about. Ever since then I can see how everything<br />
has changed, for me too, a cautious person.<br />
When I had a job, I worked as a construction worker. I worked<br />
even when I was sick, I was scared of losing money, losing my job.<br />
And then I was scared of not finding work.<br />
I have worked through out the Bay Area, for large property owners<br />
with abandoned buildings. When we left them they looked like<br />
brand new office buildings ready for desks and cubicles. I remember<br />
the day before Merrill Lynch crashed we had gone all the way to<br />
Stockton to patch up the ceiling in one of their buildings. We had<br />
been hoping it would have been large but the three hour job was<br />
worth less than the long ride.<br />
I have to go to school everyday, and I have given up in getting a<br />
car. The day I went to the bookstore, I realized it was the beginning<br />
of the month and did not have any money to buy the month pass. <br />
I walked out into the street, scavenged for some quarters and<br />
paid my fair. I stared out the window, I saw the stores were empty, I<br />
watched people inside the bus filling up the seats, I knew why they<br />
were there, it was mid day and they were riding the bus. They were<br />
like me, they had lost their jobs too.<br />
Santa Clara seemed like a dried up desert to me.<br />
I waited for my books to be added up. Before I would have not<br />
thought twice to buy two or three books and walked home reading.<br />
Now I wait to get some of my money back.<br />
The guy at the register says, “ It’s 16 dollars, or 20 dollars in store<br />
credit.”<br />
I couldn’t believe what had happened to me, I had spent my entire<br />
morning picking out the books I wanted to part with, and I could<br />
only get 16 dollars. Some of those books were new and its pages<br />
were still unturned. I walked out with the cash in my hand, I thought<br />
that all this was a waste of time, trying to sell old books for a chunk<br />
of change was not going to help me.<br />
I hardly spend any money, and contemplate more about my future.<br />
When I was working I could hardly think. I was like a robot. Now<br />
that I can no longer use my muscles, now that all the builders have<br />
sunk with the real estate market, I have to use something else, my<br />
brain.<br />
I walked to the bus stop, upset at myself, upset at the economy,<br />
but with the ray of hope that things will get better. My classes finally<br />
paid and adding my money up I managed to get a month pass. I feel<br />
at ease riding the bus towards school, it makes me feel I’m doing<br />
something, like I’m going somewhere. ◊<br />
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