The World Is Too Full to Talk About
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<strong>The</strong> Epic of Oc<strong>to</strong>ber<br />
(1)<br />
It always only lasts a while<br />
some seed planted, dies alone in the grave of the womb<br />
never becoming some flower or fruit.<br />
I talk <strong>to</strong> you for a day or two and imagine a world in which I could<br />
love and be loved without fear<br />
I cannot write you anything<br />
expression has stagnated as in our world<br />
death becomes a growing business<br />
and images of bodies devoid of inner life<br />
reduced <strong>to</strong> bags of blood spilled on the floor<br />
invade our daily living<br />
when I was dancing the other day I thought of you<br />
I pushed my arms inside my heart and used force against<br />
some abstract movement I am <strong>to</strong>tally helpless <strong>to</strong><br />
I begin <strong>to</strong> love you despite my muscles rushing <strong>to</strong>gether, in a state of<br />
emergency<br />
I think of my mother and her tyrannical love, her sadness punches me in the gut<br />
and I stand paralysed.<br />
you, like everyone else before you<br />
some I spent months, some years, thinking I could love<br />
are absolutely unaware of this embarrassing fire inside me<br />
I push it farther inside and wait for it <strong>to</strong> die<br />
always I am trapped inside the animalistic urge <strong>to</strong> fulfil the purpose of being. <strong>to</strong><br />
love and fuck and grow<br />
and the cruel, unmoving odds of ever finding something true and beautiful<br />
* * * * * * * *<br />
For you I cannot remove my skin<br />
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