The Unrepresentable: Art & Sexual Violence
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noelani<br />
daniel-gomes<br />
I wrote poem after a friend breached a definite<br />
line with me. It was while I was alone with him in a<br />
city hours away from home. It had never happened<br />
before, and I was stunned. It came up again later, and<br />
he laughed, saying we were both drunk—when I was<br />
not. Although he does not know my feelings about that<br />
night even now, the poem was a balm for my troubled<br />
mind. He has since moved on, but I will always carry<br />
a part of that girl who hid in the red-colored bathroom<br />
and cried.<br />
Quiet<br />
We must be quiet in this place.<br />
<strong>The</strong>se catacombs of rights and powers<br />
strip supposed Amazons of strength—<br />
inspire suffering<br />
in spite of suffrage.<br />
<strong>The</strong> quiet isn’t revenge.<br />
It isn’t consent.<br />
This quiet is not folly, lunacy, or hysteria.<br />
It is not inebriation.<br />
Not drunk on lack of touch, of yielding to strong hands.<br />
It is fear.<br />
Unthinking arms, a cage<br />
with metal walls that my voice dies within,<br />
in a breathless, hitching way—<br />
but it is no compliment to you.<br />
Trust is a dangerous commodity,<br />
with so much counterfeit and debt.<br />
In pain, I took your hand, seeking help—<br />
bankrupting myself—<br />
and still you collected interest.<br />
Your hands wandered, like a miser over treasure—<br />
a drugstore statue-turned-idol<br />
with the help of liquor.<br />
This tipple-touch is poisonous,<br />
lingering for months like a cancer in my throat<br />
that grows when I’m forced to smile—<br />
to play at normalcy with you.<br />
We ignore the sore between us—<br />
this Cold War tête-à-tête, all friction and no feeling.<br />
You laugh when you remember, and I laugh, too.<br />
I have to.<br />
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We must be quiet in this place.<br />
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