My Zine

WHY
AM I
HERE?

Who am I and why am I here? Do
these questions bug and annoy
you? Drive you insane? Does life
make sense to you? Have you
worked it all out? Is there a
point to it? How is it even
possible that after thousands and
thousands of years of our human
existence, thinking and
exploration, we are still so tiny
under the stars? Scientists are
splitting atoms and creating,
separating matter and antimatter,
and I wonder why. Why are we in
this state of not knowing? Is the
illusion of living a life,
making a living, having children
and buying things going to drug
me into believing that it is okay
not to know the
answer? And how
is all the education I’m getting
going to help me figure it out?
This makes me so mad that I want
to scream at everyone and demand
to know:
“WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING
HERE???”

S
Since the dawn of time, men have
been looking up to the sky,
searching for answers.

Many have tried to answer the
question, some even traveled into
space.

Books have been written, music
composed and films made.

However, with every new soul the
same question pops up again and
again and we are still thirsty
for knowledge, still uncertain
and still in fear of what our
purpose on this planet, in this
universe, in this life is.
Is looking for this answer the
purpose and the meaning of our
life?

In the book “The Hitchhiker’s
Guide to the Galaxy” by Douglas
Adams, a group of hyper-
beings want to find out the
intelligent pan-dimensional
answer to the ultimate question
of Life, The Universe, and
everything
from
the
supercomputer, Deep Thought.
It
solves the problem after seven
million years and gives the
answer in the form of a number:
42.

The answer causes disappointment,
and Deep Thought points out that
it seems meaningless because
there was no question to begin
with. Asked to produce the
question, Deep Thought proposes
to help design an even more
powerful computer to do that. The
new computer will incorporate
living beings into its matrix,
and run for ten million years. It
turns out to be planet Earth.

More food for thought, here is a
quote from the radio series “Fit
the Seventh”, on Christmas Eve,
1978:
“There is a theory which states
that if ever anyone discovers
exactly what the universe is for
and why it is here, it will
instantly disappear and be
replaced by something even more
bizarre and inexplicable.
There is another theory
mentioned, which states that this
has already happened.”

Perhaps these lyrics from a song
by Twenty One Pilots best
describe the state of mind for
all of us at the beginning of the
third millennium:
“I find over the course of our
human existence, one thing
consists of consistence and it’s
that we’re all battling fear. I
don’t know if we know why we’re
here.”
- Car Radio

In conclusion, there are still
too many pitfalls in the quest
for one fleeting answer.