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DIARY<br />
OF A<br />
LEARNED<br />
SOUL<br />
SHIVANI JHA<br />
Dear You,<br />
I could stay for you, I wanted to.<br />
But only if you knew the value.<br />
I would have poured my heart, every ounce of Love that I had,<br />
every pinch of affection that I knew, I would have loved you<br />
with everything at my disposal.<br />
But<br />
I guess you were a bit too busy looking for something else.<br />
May you get what you needed.<br />
I wish you all the luck.<br />
I am going away, not because I stopped loving you. I never<br />
possibly can. I left because I know that as much I love pouring<br />
my heart on you, I need some of it back too.<br />
It empties me to keep waiting for you.<br />
It kills me to see you going everywhere.<br />
It empties me to see you do not care.<br />
I sound stupid to you, don’t I?<br />
I look stupid when I fall for your smile.<br />
I look stupid when I skip that stair because I was looking at<br />
you.<br />
I look hopeless when I come back to you over and over again.<br />
Yes, it’s true I love you, but I love me too.<br />
I am going because I am a river, you won’t be able to take me.<br />
I am going because I deserve an ocean, one who can dare to<br />
open his arms for me;<br />
One who can hold me with all my raging waves.<br />
Thank you for staying away.<br />
Had you not, I would have spent my life fitting into a dam,<br />
a pond,<br />
Or a vessel<br />
Now, I am free to flow<br />
To break dams,<br />
To trickle down the cheeks,<br />
To rise in a wild oceanic wave<br />
To settle like a dew on the flower.<br />
Not needed to fit in “we” and “our’<br />
I am free to be me,<br />
I am free to pour<br />
Free to devour.<br />
“It is not easy to trust, not easy to be heartbroken,<br />
not even easy to accept that the relationship will<br />
fail. But the toughest thing is to see and learn. This<br />
brings the courage to close certain doors, and open<br />
others. This is an honest reflection of a learned<br />
soul.”<br />
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