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Always My Malky<br />
story so that you can understand who Malky<br />
was, what was going on inside of her.”<br />
On the first day of school, young girls in<br />
fresh, clean uniforms carried spanking new<br />
school bags down the Boro Park streets, but<br />
Malky Klein had no school to go to.<br />
Finally, a few days into the semester, the<br />
Kleins found a school that would take Malky.<br />
“We were so excited for her. I remember, we<br />
wanted her to also enjoy that first-day-ofschool<br />
feeling, even if it wasn’t really the first<br />
day, and we ordered her a beautiful new briefcase.”<br />
They’d learned not to be too optimistic, but<br />
Malky’s parents looked on with hope as their<br />
daughter went off on that first day.<br />
A few weeks later a phone call came. The<br />
principal grimly informed them that Malky<br />
wasn’t really adjusting. And she was breaking<br />
the rules. They were called in for a conference,<br />
and informed that Malky showed<br />
disdain for authority in several ways. First<br />
of all, she brought expensive nosh for snack.<br />
Also, she’d purchased an expensive birthday<br />
gift for a friend.<br />
“Malky finally has a school and she’s eager<br />
to make new friends, so she bought a nice gift,”<br />
the mother argued.<br />
“No,” the principal asserted, “she’s trying to<br />
‘buy off’ other girls.”<br />
Then, the principal charged, Malky had<br />
switched briefcases, further evidence that<br />
she was trying to create new standards in<br />
the school.<br />
“No,” the parents argued, “it was just once.<br />
We’d ordered it when she was accepted and<br />
when it arrived, she switched, that’s all.”<br />
The verdict was sealed.<br />
Avreimie looked at the principal. “Okay. We<br />
get it. Just please don’t expel her until we find<br />
her a new school.”<br />
They left the school and headed home, ready<br />
to start a new round of school-searching. When<br />
they got home, they found that Malky was already<br />
there.<br />
She’d been expelled.<br />
Malky lay on the living room floor, books<br />
fanned out all around her, as if she’d dropped<br />
them the moment she came in. Her parents<br />
look at the room, as if reliving the scene.<br />
Within the bottomless<br />
pit of pain, Malky<br />
let her art give<br />
expression to her inner<br />
desolation, while still<br />
tenaciously holding on<br />
to a thread of light<br />
“She was crying, in such obvious pain and<br />
we, parents who just wanted to give her what<br />
she needed, weren’t able to help.”<br />
Malky was broken. She would never really<br />
be whole again.<br />
Mrs.<br />
Klein’s voice rises<br />
slightly. “My<br />
Malky, who loved<br />
to dress well,<br />
Miss Fashion, spent the next three months<br />
without a school —but wearing her uniform<br />
every single day. She would go to stores with<br />
me in her uniform. She wanted so badly to be<br />
in school, to look the part.”<br />
She wanted, but there was no school that<br />
wanted her.<br />
Midway through the year, an existing school<br />
fell apart and the administration split. A new<br />
school was forming, and they were ready to<br />
accept Malky.<br />
Malky Klein had a school again, and determined<br />
to prove herself, she threw herself<br />
into her studies.<br />
“We hired tutors,” recalls her mother, “and<br />
Malky would rush in from school, grab a bite,<br />
and hurry out to study. At home, she <strong>always</strong> had<br />
a book in her hands, cramming information.”<br />
“We had real nachas,” her father says, allowing<br />
the sentence to hang there for a moment<br />
before finishing, “but we didn’t realize that it’s<br />
like a car that’s overheating. It was too much<br />
for a little girl.”<br />
At the end of ninth grade, Malky came home<br />
with a good report card. It was a new experience<br />
for the young girl and her parents.<br />
“We were excited for her, and even though<br />
we knew she wanted to go to one of the schools<br />
of her choice and rejoin her friends, we encouraged<br />
her to wait until she had good marks for<br />
a sustained period, until her confidence was<br />
restored.”<br />
But she couldn’t wait anymore. Being normal<br />
was simply too exhilarating a prospect.<br />
Unbeknownst to her parents, Malky marched<br />
herself into the office of the principal in the<br />
school where her friends were and made her<br />
pitch.<br />
The night before she’d gone, she’d carefully<br />
written down the things she wanted to say to<br />
the principal.<br />
Avreimie goes to the computer to pull up the<br />
notes that Malky prepared before that meeting,<br />
talking points for her appeal. Yet another<br />
exhibit in the chronicles of a broken heart.<br />
Please here me out. Before telling me no for<br />
the best reasons please give me a chance.<br />
It doesn’t matter who somebody may have bin,<br />
it matters who they want to be. Who I want to be<br />
is the best I can be. I want to grow and change<br />
and work harder, I want to c what I’m capable<br />
of cause I bet it’s a lot…. I want to go to this<br />
school more than I’ve ever wanted anything….<br />
I’m not a faker, I mean it…. Please, please give<br />
me a chance, please take it into consideration<br />
to except me for the 10th grade…. I know school<br />
starts in less than two weeks but in five seconds<br />
anything can happen….<br />
Thank you for listening to me….<br />
The principal was polite, but firm. There<br />
was no space.<br />
The new school year began. Malky wasn’t<br />
herself. She returned to the original school, but<br />
she was already burned out — she’d worked too<br />
hard, invested too much, only to be denied the<br />
privilege of being “normal,” in a mainstream<br />
high school with her friends.<br />
Night after night, she and her father would<br />
sit in the living room and talk, really talk. One<br />
night, she looked him in the eye and said, “At<br />
least put me in public school. Then I’ll know<br />
that I have a place.”<br />
Another night, she wept and finally managed<br />
a single sentence. “It takes me hours to<br />
do what other kids can do in a few moments.”<br />
Her father listened and reassured and encouraged.<br />
But it wasn’t enough to keep Malky, Malky.<br />
It happened so quickly. She was done.<br />
She’d given up. She forgot about school and<br />
found a new identity in the streets. Friends, it<br />
turned out, gave validation more readily than<br />
teachers. When Malky smiled, the chein was<br />
still there, but she smiled less and less.<br />
The parents couldn’t do much. Reb Hershele<br />
Spinker had already left this world,<br />
and Avreimie went to speak with the Rebbe’s<br />
son, the Krule Rebbe, Rav Naftali Horowitz.<br />
The Rebbe sent Avreimie into the dark<br />
52 MISHPACHA 17 Av 5777 | August 9, 2017