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- Page 18 and 19: TiernanI pull off my wireless headp
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It doesn’t matter where I go—ho
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“No, no,” Noah says, kicking th
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And then ‘Deep State’ Tom chime
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Jake stands off to my left, plantin
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While he keeps working the splinter
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What a Neanderthal. For Christ’s
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Pulling out lunch meat, the condime
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I snort, smiling despite myself. I
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be drained, my throat would be dry,
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there really no one else who knew h
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She pieces together a plate that ap
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A moment later, I hear Noah’s foo
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“Spill over?”Who is this woman?
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I stand there a moment, my muscles
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Tiernan“Is it okay if I take a tr
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“And so will I.” Jake leans bac
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He snaps the visor on his own helme
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“Grab what you need,” Noah tell
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“Just askin’,” she replies.
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Or in a hurry to get me back.I star
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And then I shoot out my other hand,
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He meets my eyes again, and I see t
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legs around him. None of this feels
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I look at Kaleb, not sure how to pr
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No.I throw off the covers and sit u
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I slow my strokes, my breathing tur
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After I left my uncle stunned stupi
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Noah clears his throat, but I can h
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I slow as I hit the stall.“Show m
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I pull Noah’s baseball cap off an
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Protection.I head back through the
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Lying back, I float, the weightless
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thought the District of Columbia wa
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And I climb on, hugging my backpack
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I spin around, walking for the hous
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what you deserved, because you used
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And before he can say anything, I r
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I blink my eyes awake, already blur
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But this is different.He’s holdin
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People who are a little abrasive, r
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I barely remember my grandfather, s
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was an immigrant, so is the tattoo
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Setting the box down, I take out an
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NoahHer arm whips out, knocking pie
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Nights are better. When I’m tired
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I’m not sure I’ve ever played w
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“Have you seen your father?” sh
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She doesn’t ask for anything—do
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“And when the water hit my mouth,
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And then a thought of what else a y
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nostrils, and I might enjoy the sig
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Tiernan“You said you didn’t wan
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“That’s where we want to get yo
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I gaze at his eyes and how young th
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My nipples pebble, the hard, little
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I blink, looking up at him. He clim
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He smiles, and I twist my lips to t
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Jake still busies himself working o
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I glance over my shoulder. Jake ope
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I can’t stop myself. “And in a
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The girl next to me shifts in her s
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Tiernan“Ah!” a whimper rings th
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Walking over, I open my bedroom doo
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movement. I have no idea what my ha
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Or does he mean leave the kitchen?H
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He thrusts into me from behind, and
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“Because I didn’t want it!” I
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But they did one thing right, I thi
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“Yeah.” I’ve been hungry sinc
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decay under the trees back at Brynm
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I laugh, barely noticing Kaleb lift
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“Pretty sure you’ll all just ne
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He pauses, the wheels in his head t
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“You’re tan,” Mirai says.I tu
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A feeling. Not a place.I close my e
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You were capable of so much when it
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Once the coffee grounds are loaded,
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a little cream in her coffee and st
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“And if I clean mine first?” sh
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“Lust, learn, and love,” she sa
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Tiernan“What’s this?” I dart
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But then…at least my parents didn
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business, and for the first time in
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peak—the view from my bedroom win
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“No, seriously,” he continues.
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throwing back shots. Her tight, bla
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for someone else. Everything I do I
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Holcomb and Cici’s words swirl in
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The truck races through the night,
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TiernanThere’s already three inch
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He slouches a little, his long legs
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I roll my eyes and cross my arms ov
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Apparently, the loser has a couple
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I scoot down, lying back on the sof
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He pulls my shorts and panties down
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want to happen?”“I don’t know
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He spanks me again, and I thrust fo
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The only reminder of me from the ni
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Maybe I was jealous that night I fo
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I press my forehead to hers, huggin
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She holds my head as I kiss her pus
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“Do what some more?”“Lick me.
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She kisses my stomach. “Do you us
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and up her torso.Lifting my head, I
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My throat tightens, and I grab the
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look away, shame warming my skin.
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She buries her face in my neck and
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his hip.My Mexico.He catches my eye
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“Close your eyes,” I pant with
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you are on the pill, this is too mu
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He quickly climbs off me, tosses th
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it.I look up again. “Yes, I’ve
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“It’s okay,” I say louder, le
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Snowfall isn’t like rainfall. Rai
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and I watch as a small grin curls h
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Noah nudges my arm. “Let me show
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He goes on. “Maybe you’ve done
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Until maybe now.He quickens his pac
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And I slide out from under the bike
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the choices before I finally pick u
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And when he wraps his arms around m
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“What?” he asks.I force my smil
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And at the idea of him catching me.
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Noah sits to my right, in his fathe
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“You needed affection from him,
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A cry sounds out from Tiernan’s r
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Kaleb pulls the fire hose out of th
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Scaring the shit out of me, yes, bu
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Turning, I meet his eyes, his brow
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My eyes pop wide, my mouth falls op
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Why the face?He closes the kit and
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My arm still throbs, but I feel bet
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Noah wraps one of the cheap rubber
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Kaleb rises, lifts me up by the bac
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I spread both thighs wider as his t
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me, and my pussy warms as I grow we
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My body accepts them both, and slow
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TiernanI wake up, the morning light
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“I don’t know what you were say
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burnt, and the scruff on his jaw is
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between us.In a moment, the bathroo
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“I don’t want you venturing off
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I reach out with my cutters and tak
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I throw a glance at the closed shop
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He plants my hand back on his chest
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But he doesn’t give me time to fi
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stare down between us, watching him
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me. “Phone call. It keeps ringing
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“Tiernan,” Mr. Eesuola answers.
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wreath off the floor. Holding it by
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He grabs my bottom lip between his
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He circles the bed, not taking his
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But he doesn’t slow down. He pull
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He doesn’t savor anyone like he w
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He pushes my back down more, making
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“It must’ve felt like he was bu
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The blue-green leg of my chest I pa
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TiernanI take a bite of my toast, h
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So, he’s jealous. So, his father
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And if he walked through the door r
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my college applications done, and t
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“Jesus, fuck,” Jake growls, pul
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He’s relenting? Noah’s desperat
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I let the pages fan closed but spot
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I want to be over.I want things in
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I know you’re scared of me, and I
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Tiernan“It’s eighteen degrees,
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He lifts his chin, his shoulders re
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Looking up, I see the cabin on the
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I turn my head. “Is it over? The
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I scan his body, making sure he has
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TiernanI touch his face, tracing th
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you’re sorry.”He gives my tummy
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I jog after Jake. “Are you okay?
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But that doesn’t mean he’s stop
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We should be able to rejoin the wor
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going weak. I lose the pills and th
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I look down at my nails, seeing the
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Still, nothing. Did he know? He see
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TiernanI run up the stairs of the d
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If it’s his, I might learn to liv
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I rest my hands on my thighs, lifti
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He smiles. But then he stops, remem
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She can’t come here. Kaleb has no
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fits, but I know it’s necessary.I
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He chuckles, stepping toward me as
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I shake my head. He thinks that’s
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I blow out a silent breath, pinch t
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I shoot out my foot, kicking him to
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I walk into the kitchen, seeing Kal
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But I can’t do this. I need to ge
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TiernanI move my spoon through the
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I look over at the urn that looks l
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It’s that easy, isn’t it? It’
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But he’s not much of a talker on
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the outside.“Dad says he left for
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carb since 2002.”I snort, but I c
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cut down the tire last August, and
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I slide off the tire and turn to fa
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KalebFive Years Later…I run my th
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But Noah tightens his arm around hi
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“I just want to remember her as s
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“Because I made your thighs quive
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If you like forbidden, age gap love
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She finishes pouring her beer and l
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Turning left, I pull the rubber ban
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I find nothing, I move up to the ne
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“Thanks,” I tell the guy next t
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Oh, duh.I sit up. “Landscape Desi
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Well, how old could he be? Nineteen
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We push through the door, the last
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“Police station, I’d assume.”
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dinner table. You both really do pu
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And all of her stories have Pintere