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ggJune make sense. That almond shape, the eye, is called a vesica piscis. I thinkabout her all the time. I imagine her being everything that June isn’t.“Don’t tell Mom,” she says. “About any of this.”I inch.“Promise me.”“Jesus, I would never.” I’m insulted. “Why would I start calling her now?” Ihaven’t talked to Mom in over a month. And I know better than to drum up awhole boondoggle that’ll send her straight to church, lighting candles andbrowbeating every Korean Catholic in the hundred-mile radius into a prayercircle.“Okay.”“So, what do you know?”“I had a pelvic exam, a transvaginal ultrasound, and a biopsy. They shove thisinsane bendy stick in you and scrape…”The other thing about June is that there isn’t a surgery reality TV show thatshe doesn’t love. Me, not so much. I let out a shaky breath.“So, it’s in your uterus?”“Or my ovaries,” she says. “Or both, I guess.”I imagine the goat head that is the female reproductive system in all thediagrams I’ve ever seen. It’s hugely embarrassing, but I couldn’t tell you if theovaries are inside the uterus or around it. Probably around like those behind-theheadearphones that asshole runners mostly wear. I’ll google it later. That andwhat a womb even refers to.“What happens now?”“A bunch more doctor’s appointments.” She seems eerily calm. I try toimagine what my sister would look like with cancer. I wonder whether she’ll loseher hair. She’s always had a better face than me. With an aquiline nose that cameout of nowhere. She’d look good with a pixie, which means she’d probably lookgood bald. You have to have very speci c bone structure for that. I feel an oldtwinge of jealousy followed by a large transfusion of self-loathing. I’m notallowed to be jealous of my sister’s cancer.She’s staring about middle distance into her own living room. Her eyes arelike a shark’s, her hands clasped together between her knees.A searing sensation rises into my chest as I stand. My heart is liable to burstout of my sternum. I grab my phone.“So, you’ll let me know when you know more?”
yyShe nods. “I’ll walk you out.”We don’t say anything in the elevator.I almost pat her arm but don’t. I breathe through the rolling panic, watchingthe elevator display change as we hurtle toward the ground, trying to exhalewithout making a noise.
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I hug him tighter, my New Yorker to
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My gaze trawls the beige walls arou
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each time. Maybe it’s a med schoo
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“You?” she taunts. “You’re
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chapter 29When June and I arrive, w
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chapter 32I wake up from a two-hour
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check their phones self-consciously
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“You girls should eat,” says He
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“Thank God.”“Seriously.”He
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chapter 34“Did you know that Jimm
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chapter 35The last time I told June
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“Hello?”I see the spots rst. Da
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June icks me with water. “I’m t
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I shake my head. “It’s not at a
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chapter 48The day of the surgery, I
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acknowledgmentsLol. This book.Remem
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