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she is gone, and all your hopes and wishes are, too. That is the cruelest thing that
can ever happen to a person.”
Boromir seemed not to want to hear his brother’s words, but he could not
ignore them. Now Faramir had finally told him the one true thing that Boromir
had carried inside him all the time. He had found the one person he had loved,
he had wanted to make her a part of his life, had already begun doing it, he had
held wishes and hopes for their future together, and now all this was gone at
once. He could not deny this truth any longer. With this realization dawning on
him, one single tear escaped his eyes. Slowly, it rolled down his cheek, then
vanished. Suddenly more tears followed.
Quickly he turned away from Faramir, trying to fight back his tears.
He did not want to cry. Before, he would have been able to cry. When
Faramir had told him to see her, he had almost cried. When he had been at her
side, he had almost cried. But now—now that everything was over, he did not
want to cry anymore. It would be all for nothing.
Yet all the tears came, the tears he had had to hold back for all this time, the
tears he was not allowed to let out for appearances’ sake, for the sake of strong,
being too occupied, for her sake. All these tears came out of him, though he did
not want them to come.
Faramir slowly walked over to him, laying a hand on his brother’s
shoulder.
At the touch Boromir cringed. “Leave me. Leave me alone, Faramir.”
”No. I will stay.” Now he had finally managed to bring Boromir to the
release he needed, he would not leave him alone.
”Go away!” Boromir exclaimed hoarsely.
Faramir did not say anything, but bent down to his brother, embracing him
tightly. Boromir grew stiff and tried to free himself from Faramir’s arms. “Leave
me, leave me, please, Faramir, leave me alone.” The words he murmured through
his tears were not convincing.
”It is all right, Boromir. You can cry now. I will stay,” Faramir whispered
gently.
Now the last bit of Boromir’s self-control was gone. He was shaking
terribly, and Faramir held him even more tightly.
When he finally tried to speak, his words were hardly audible for his sobs.
“She left me. She left me all alone, and I love her so much. How shall I go on
without her?”
”You are not alone, Boromir. I know it feels as if you are, but I am still with
you. “ Boromir just sobbed, head on his brother’s shoulder.
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