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experienced little.
I’m only bugged, not really progressing at all that much. Dissatisfaction is not progress, is
not profound or meaningful.
With so many possibilities, how to choose among them anyway? If you can’t see everywhere
& always, be every kind of experience, know every kind of person’s life—
Manifestation becomes learning better one’s own thread through the maze—not any
other’s—
part of the nature of my thread is the encourage others through collaboration—which
is why I do Scriptor Press as I do—
For this to be a meaningful project, I have to find that collaborative ground to work with
others, open my borders continuously to it—
the common ground will be artistic but I swear that’s not all—it could be else—nature,
magick—but then I keep thinking “manifestation” & wonder what I’m talking about—
if one manifests from cradle to grave—one way or another—maybe the question is how
conscious is this manifestation—how far is it pushed? How much is one externally molded
versus how much one does whether with or against those pressures?
I really fucking try—this is trying—
I wish I felt I did it better other than my pleasure within notebooks—so much I don’t do,
don’t know, fear—
Just more questions & discontented groping awhile—
but the cams/chalk idea is a good one—
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