SEA OF TRANQUILITY
SEA OF TRANQUILITY
SEA OF TRANQUILITY
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76 American Short Fiction<br />
for air, as if he couldn’t breathe unless she did. Th e tightness worked<br />
its way up into his throat. Yes, people were saying. Th at’s right.<br />
You’re doing great, and all those voices were jumbled together with<br />
the sound of falling rain. He held his breath without meaning to,<br />
and he didn’t exhale until he heard his son screaming in the room.<br />
He weighed six pounds, eleven ounces exactly. Th e drill sergeant<br />
said he was nineteen and one-half inches long. He’s got a good<br />
pair of lungs, she told them. You’ve got yourself a screamer. Marci held<br />
him fi rst, and she kept him for the longest time. Th e nurse told her<br />
to smile so she could take a picture. You too, Daddy, she said. Get<br />
a little closer to the bed. She took three pictures and he wasn’t sure<br />
where to look, and when the nurse was done, Marci took their boy<br />
and set him in his arms. Don’t be afraid, she said. He looks like you.<br />
He’s got your nose exactly.<br />
His son squirmed against his elbow. He worked his legs like a<br />
turtle fl ipped on its back. Th is was light as he’d ever be. A clumsy<br />
moment, and they could lose him. He might drop his boy on the<br />
hard fl oor if his attention wandered. He might bump him against<br />
a doorframe or a wall. He ran his thumb over that waxy newborn<br />
skin, but his hands weren’t sensitive the way blind people’s were supposed<br />
to be. Th ere wasn’t anything distinctive about that bald head.<br />
Th is baby could belong to anyone. Th e doctors could switch one for<br />
the other, and he would never know.<br />
❖<br />
Th e cloudy days were hardest. Th ose nights when the baby cried,<br />
all those starless nights when Marci ran to feed him. You can’t just<br />
sit there forever, she’d say. Th e house smelled like diapers and burnt<br />
baby formula, and he should have tried to help her. He should have<br />
found a way, but he just sat there like a train passenger and looked<br />
outside his window. He was waiting, and she wouldn’t understand<br />
this. He was waiting for the winds to come and give him back<br />
his sky.