Writes of Spring 2012 - SATEC @ W.A. Porter C.I.
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TABLE OF CONTENTS<br />
Into the Ocean by Stefhy Lincoln (Grade 11)……………………………………………………………2-4<br />
New Start by Meghan DeGrace (Grade 12)……………………………………………………………..5-7<br />
Absurd Letter: “Highway Signs” by Tharagaga Balachandran (Grade 11)…………………….7<br />
Planet by Bogdan Stanciu (Grade 12)………………………………………………………………………8-9<br />
Jump by Samantha McKay (Grade 12)…………………………………………………….……………..9-12<br />
“Sometimes I Wish” by Anonymous………………………………………………………………………….12<br />
Darkness Within by Dhanyasri Maddiboina (Grade 10)……………………………………….13-15<br />
Secret Love Affair by Tiffany Heldsinger (Grade 12)………………………………………………….16<br />
Absurd Letter: “Socks” by Amen Hammad (Grade 11)…………………………………….….16-17<br />
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A NOTE FROM THE EDITOR<br />
Thank you <strong>SATEC</strong> for the wonderful submissions for this year’s <strong>Writes</strong> <strong>of</strong> <strong>Spring</strong>! It was an honour<br />
to have worked with a great team <strong>of</strong> teachers and to experience your narratives through writing.<br />
A request: please never stop pushing the boundaries <strong>of</strong> your own imagination on a piece <strong>of</strong> paper.<br />
A special thanks to Mr. Bond for organizing the <strong>Writes</strong> <strong>of</strong> <strong>Spring</strong> and helping me plan it this year.<br />
Ms. Lim and the photography class for their beautiful images that helped bring colour to our<br />
pages.<br />
This publication is an utter testament to how moving and entertaining words can be.<br />
All the best,<br />
Ms. Shaheed<br />
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COVER ART: Abir Mokbel<br />
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“Can you swim?” the words leave his mouth before<br />
he can stop them but he does not regret them. She<br />
has waded into deeper waters now and her<br />
unsteady movements concern him.<br />
She looks over her shoulder and shakes her<br />
head, no. It’s not a lie, she decides, not really.<br />
She’s drowning, his eyes are blue, so blue and she’s<br />
suffocating, she’s able to but cannot swim.<br />
She doesn’t want to.<br />
He arches a brow and the waves drag her<br />
unresistingly beneath the waters’ surface.<br />
The sound <strong>of</strong> palm hitting flesh is one <strong>of</strong> the<br />
ugliest sounds to Saya. She hears it now and her<br />
cheek is left stinging. Her mother stands before<br />
her, anger leaving her eyes only to be replaced by<br />
sorrow.<br />
Saya had never been a very vocal person,<br />
but always a rebellious one. Hair damp, face pale,<br />
lips blue, dress soaking wet and ruined, her glare is<br />
nothing like the obedience her face held as a child.<br />
What’s left <strong>of</strong> her innocence is the one part <strong>of</strong> her<br />
that she had never learned to hide, her eyes. The<br />
pain in them had always been evident, and her<br />
mother knows that it is present in the bright eyes<br />
that glower at her now.<br />
There is venom, and tears, and pure,<br />
unadulterated hatred in her voice as she speaks, tell<br />
her that she’s committed a sin, that’s she tried to<br />
kill herself.<br />
Her mother is familiar with the pain she’s<br />
always associated with her daughter’s cries. She<br />
wonders when her little girl will stop fighting.<br />
He meets her again, two weeks after he’s<br />
saved her from the depths <strong>of</strong> the ocean, and she is a<br />
INTO THE OCEAN – Stefhy Lincoln<br />
She envied the sea, the sky, anything free.<br />
He envied her, the structure, calculations <strong>of</strong> her life.<br />
And they collide.<br />
fallen angel. She is a star; beautiful, burning, and<br />
barely breathing. He sees her and she is<br />
illuminating, like the moon, like the sun. The light is<br />
dimming though, brighter than when he’s pulled<br />
her from the water’s claws, but dimmer than when<br />
he’d watched her take steps into the ocean. She is<br />
a fighter, but she is losing.<br />
“Thank you,” she says.<br />
Her hair is loose around her and he is<br />
mesmerized by the sun glinting <strong>of</strong>f her dark curls.<br />
She waits for him to reply and when he lifts his eyes<br />
to hers, he is lost in them, in her face. He sees only<br />
pain and the emptiness that her hope has left<br />
behind.<br />
“Do you mean that?” he challenges<br />
unexpectedly. She is meant for greatness, that face,<br />
those eyes, he knows it. She is beautiful and beauty<br />
gets you places, he knows that. And yet, she is<br />
here, standing in cold waters, tempting the water to<br />
take her. Take her and play her doom. Again. He is<br />
angry.<br />
“No.”<br />
She is honest.<br />
“Was I supposed to have let you die?” he<br />
asks and he is afraid <strong>of</strong> the answer.<br />
anyways.<br />
“Yes.”<br />
He thinks, he’s never appreciated honesty<br />
Hayden’s mother watches her son from a<br />
distance, standing by the balcony doors <strong>of</strong> their<br />
summer beach house. It’s amazing, she thinks, how<br />
quickly the days go by. She remembers having<br />
Hayden perched on her hip and clutching her<br />
blouse, pointing to the various rocks scattered in<br />
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the water. Eighteen years later and she feels as if<br />
her son will never cling to her again, need her<br />
protection, need her. He had grown into a man<br />
who depended only on himself, afraid to rely on a<br />
world that had ruined him as a child. He is no<br />
longer afraid <strong>of</strong> the ocean, no longer desires her<br />
arms holding him.<br />
She remembers the name <strong>of</strong> the girl who<br />
currently sits with him. Saya. It is a name she hears<br />
<strong>of</strong>ten. A day had not gone by since Hayden pulled<br />
the girl, soaking wet and skin icy cold, when he had<br />
not mentioned her. She is observant <strong>of</strong> the signs, is<br />
familiar to the reactions Hayden has to her. Her son<br />
has fallen in love for the first time.<br />
He lies down next to her on the sand and<br />
watches her watch the clouds. This is their seventh<br />
encounter and he finds that he enjoys her presence.<br />
It is different, lying with her. He doesn’t hear the<br />
shouts, the screams, the banging <strong>of</strong> doors or the<br />
pain <strong>of</strong> his childhood. She numbs it, but it is a good<br />
kind <strong>of</strong> numb.<br />
He hears her, her steady breathing, her s<strong>of</strong>t<br />
giggles as she watches a baby sea turtle attempt to<br />
climb up his shirt. He feels her warmth, as her arm<br />
brushes his, feels her hair tickle his face when she<br />
leans over him to play with the little creature that<br />
has managed to crawl up to his chest.<br />
“This little guy’s supposed to head to the<br />
water as soon as he’s hatched,” she muses and then<br />
meets his eyes. “Is he bothering you? I can put him<br />
in the water, if you’d like.”<br />
She doesn’t wait for an answer and begins<br />
pushing herself to her feet. Hayden catches her<br />
hand and his eyes narrow as she looks at him<br />
accusingly. “You know it bothers me seeing you<br />
near the water,” he tells her.<br />
him anymore.<br />
“I won’t do…that again.” she’s not looking at<br />
“Why did you, on that first day?” he asks,<br />
knowing she won’t answer him.<br />
“My parents think I am a doll,” she tells him<br />
instead. “Perfect, and repairable, and theirs to do<br />
with as they please. But I’m not.”<br />
She meets his eyes then and will him to see<br />
the truth in her last words, wills him to see her.<br />
“I know.”<br />
There are tears in her eyes and it makes him<br />
wonder what has left this girl so broken. He knows<br />
that her parents have smothered her, and continue<br />
to suffocate her. He knows the pressure she is<br />
under, knows that she tries to meet her parents<br />
expectations. How she tries to fight them as well.<br />
He knows all this and yet, he does not understand.<br />
Hayden had grown up watching his family<br />
fall apart. His hero had always been his father, and<br />
he’d watched as his very own Superman had been<br />
laid to rest after he’d been shot in the line <strong>of</strong> duty.<br />
Nine years old, and his father no longer with him,<br />
he had been powerless as he’d witnessed his<br />
widowed mother being snatched away by the hands<br />
<strong>of</strong> alcoholism. Screamed and cried, hidden beneath<br />
the covers <strong>of</strong> his childhood bed, as he’d heard his<br />
mother take hit after hit by the newest boyfriend<br />
she had managed to wrench into her life. They<br />
were all scars that had ruined his childhood, taken<br />
his innocence, and refused to let him move on.<br />
They were the invisible mutilations <strong>of</strong> his life that<br />
were determined not to heal.<br />
He could not fathom why Saya had<br />
everything he had lost, and was determined to wish<br />
it all away.<br />
Saya runs one night. Her mother watches<br />
from her bedroom window, her daughter’s blood<br />
still on her hand. It had been one hit to too many.<br />
Saya had finally had enough. She was gone, the<br />
fighting was over, the expectations she had <strong>of</strong> her<br />
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only child ceased to exist. She was gone, and her<br />
mother is frightened. Because all she feels is relief.<br />
Hayden’s mother opens the door and finds<br />
the girl shivering and shaking in front <strong>of</strong> her. Her lip<br />
is split, the blood leaving smears down her chin.<br />
The skin <strong>of</strong> her jaw looks an angry blue, bruised<br />
almost as severely as her cheek. Saya does not say<br />
a word, and neither does she.<br />
The stairs creak as Hayden leads Saya up the<br />
stairs, his hand coiled tightly around hers. His<br />
mother watches them go and allows the realization<br />
that she had kept buried for so long to hit her.<br />
Hayden was not her little boy, not the toddler who<br />
had clung to her as they’d taken steps into the<br />
ocean. He hadn’t been for a long time. He would<br />
always be haunted by what he had seen as a child,<br />
blame himself for failing to protect her from the<br />
grief, the alcohol, and herself. She was just the<br />
knife in his life, the reminder that kept the wounds<br />
<strong>of</strong> her son’s soul open and bleeding.<br />
She packs her bags and leaves that night.<br />
There is yelling and screaming and he<br />
wishes she wouldn’t look at him like that. She has<br />
given up. She has lost her fight. There are tears<br />
running down her face as she shouts.<br />
“You saved me. And for what, Hayden? I<br />
told you, I told you that you should have let me die.<br />
I wanted to. I do.”<br />
ARMAN BHUIYAN<br />
He reaches for her and his heart constricts<br />
and his eyes burn with pained, unshed tears when<br />
she flinches. He knows how to calm her, to make<br />
her laugh, to make her smile. And yet, he is at a<br />
loss <strong>of</strong> what to do when Saya cries.<br />
She struggles against his hold on her but he<br />
easily dodges her thrashing arms and manages to<br />
ease her onto his bed. He can feel her desperation,<br />
her fear, her pain and he promises himself that he<br />
will save her. He will be damned if he failed her,<br />
like he did his mother. He saved her that first time.<br />
He would do it again.<br />
He is pleased when she doesn’t refuse his<br />
attentions to her injuries. They aren’t severe but do<br />
promise a considerable amount <strong>of</strong> pain. He sees<br />
them, the scars on her body, but also the scars <strong>of</strong><br />
her soul, so similar to his own. Very s<strong>of</strong>tly, he<br />
presses his lips to the bruise on her cheekbone. He<br />
touches his forehead to hers and closes his eyes<br />
because she shudders and he finally understands.<br />
He kisses her brow and he knows that she can swim<br />
and doesn’t want to. He kisses her forehead and he<br />
knows she isn’t a doll, that sometimes, she can’t be<br />
fixed. His lips move to the corner <strong>of</strong> her mouth and<br />
he knows she thinks he’s lying when he kisses her<br />
lips and tells her he loves her.<br />
The light peeking through the curtains<br />
wakes him the following morning. He turns his<br />
head and reaches for the spot where he watched<br />
Saya fall asleep much like he had on those peaceful<br />
nights at the beach. She is gone.<br />
He feels it, feels her loss. Feels his own. He<br />
has failed her, has failed his mother, has failed<br />
himself. Failure is all that he feels.<br />
The haunting sounds <strong>of</strong> his childhood echo in his<br />
ears.<br />
4
I feel pain in my chest as I’ve never felt<br />
before. It’s as if my lungs were no longer working<br />
and my heart stopped beating. But I know this isn’t<br />
happening. I can feel my heart beating, helping the<br />
blood in my body circulate.<br />
I can feel everything in this room, especially<br />
all the eyes. They burn a hole through me. If only it<br />
was real. I can see the man in front speaking words I<br />
can’t process.<br />
My body aches with such<br />
LATRICE<br />
force, I’m sure I’m<br />
PHILLIPS<br />
going to pass out. But I don’t. My body won’t listen<br />
to me. I shouldn’t be here. I should have had the<br />
cancer instead. I should be the one lying in the<br />
casket getting ready to be sent to God.<br />
But no. I sit in deep thought, feeling my<br />
world being ripped apart.<br />
I walk over to the casket, place my hands on her<br />
pale, s<strong>of</strong>t cheeks, and kiss my mother.<br />
I’m pretty sure I’m the only one in this world<br />
who can say my mother is truly one <strong>of</strong> my best<br />
friends, and actually mean it. I can talk to her about<br />
anything and she won’t get pissed. OK, well maybe<br />
a little bit, she is my mother after all. Like right now,<br />
we’re sitting in a little boutique getting manicures<br />
and pedicures, having our weekly mother/daughter<br />
days as we do every Friday.<br />
sparkly pink?”<br />
“What do you think baby? The clear or<br />
“Hmmm….definitely the sparkly, it matches<br />
your sandals.” I say with a smile on my face. The<br />
thing is, she actually looks good in sparkles, which<br />
may sound weird to most kids my age, but not me. I<br />
smile at my mom, and she smiles back with her<br />
usual sideways grin that makes me laugh, if only I<br />
knew, this was almost over.<br />
I swear to heaven, Earth and all that is holy<br />
that yesterday was a dream. I pray to whatever high<br />
NEW START – Meghan DeGrace<br />
power there is, but I finally understand that there<br />
isn’t one. If there was, I would still have a mother, I<br />
wouldn’t be forced to live with my father and<br />
everything would be the same without him in the<br />
picture.<br />
I can’t even remember what he looks like<br />
anymore. Mom has told me stories though, <strong>of</strong> how<br />
he loved alcohol more than his family, and that<br />
Mom finally put her foot down and filed for divorce.<br />
I don’t like him, I don’t think I ever will, but the one<br />
thing I can give him credit for is he never hit my<br />
mom. That’s the only credibility he gets from me.<br />
“Ally, come on hon. your plane will be<br />
leaving soon,” my best friend states, snapping me<br />
out <strong>of</strong> my daydream. In the two hours I’ve been up<br />
here, I suddenly realize my room has nothing left,<br />
but the boxes that prove this used to be a room <strong>of</strong> a<br />
seventeen year old, which resembles how I feel<br />
since we found out. I have nothing left, but the<br />
memories, and who’s to say that I’ll always have<br />
those, and that they won’t just leave like everyone<br />
and everything else?<br />
Suddenly, Amanda walks up the stairs<br />
looking scared: scared <strong>of</strong> her best friend, who I’ve<br />
known since kindergarten.<br />
“Ally, do you need help?”<br />
“It’s Alicia, don’t call me Ally, Mom is the<br />
only one who calls me that.”<br />
“I’m sorry. I just thought…” she responded.<br />
“Well, you thought wrong, I’ll get my stuff,<br />
just leave.” As soon as the words leave my mouth, I<br />
want to take them back. The look <strong>of</strong> hurt in her eyes<br />
makes me feel lower than I’ve felt. I know she’s<br />
here to help, but I can do this on my own – Mom<br />
taught me how. She prepared me for this after her<br />
diagnosis. The doctors said she only had two<br />
months to live, but she pulled through and lasted<br />
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eight.<br />
During her last few months <strong>of</strong> life, Mom<br />
expected she didn’t have much time to live. She<br />
started to prepare me to go to Dad’s house, I<br />
haven’t seen him in fifteen years, I’m sixteen now.<br />
house.<br />
For the first time, I just want to leave my<br />
“Mom, you OK?”<br />
“No, I’m really not,” mom responds through<br />
the bathroom door. She’s been in there for an hour<br />
throwing up. I mean, the doctor said that the chemo<br />
might do this, but I never imagined this would<br />
happen.<br />
“Mom, do you want me to dial?” I was<br />
hoping it wouldn’t come to this because it might<br />
mean that we have both<br />
given up: on ourselves and<br />
her fight to literally stay<br />
alive. But an hour <strong>of</strong> getting<br />
sick isn’t good, no matter<br />
what the situation.<br />
“Ya…please…..” She<br />
throws up again. At that<br />
moment, I run to the phone<br />
and dial the three digit<br />
number for the first time. As I dial, I almost hang up<br />
because I’m afraid for my mom, which is the same<br />
reason I don’t.<br />
“911, what’s your emergency?”<br />
I walk down the stairs. It’s the kind that<br />
makes me feel like I’m a princess, especially during<br />
my prom. I wore a pink lace dress that hugged my<br />
shape, making me look bigger in places that needed<br />
help. I was in a dream land.<br />
But this? This is a hell hole.<br />
“Alicia, I’m sorry for making you upset, I<br />
didn’t mean it. I know you’re going though a lot<br />
right now.”<br />
LATRICE PHILLIPS<br />
“Please don’t. It’s not your fault. Yes I’m<br />
going through a lot, but that’s no reason for me to<br />
act like a bitch to you.”<br />
Before I know it, I’m crying in her arms<br />
uncontrollably, until my nose runs like a faucet and<br />
my eyes rain down my cheeks burning like acid.<br />
“Shhh… it’ll be OK, just wait and see…” she<br />
says more, but my body starts to shake with such<br />
force, I can’t hear anything anymore.<br />
Before I know what’s happening, I’m on a<br />
plane getting ready to be sent to Dad. Reality hits,<br />
and I’m not sure what to do. As the plane takes <strong>of</strong>f,<br />
I feel my mother’s hand on mine. I’m closer to her<br />
up here and suddenly, I don’t want this plane ride<br />
to end. I feel her squeeze my hand, feeling her give<br />
me the strength I’ve been craving for. I feel my eyes<br />
closing and I begin to<br />
move out <strong>of</strong><br />
consciousness, as I think,<br />
that maybe there is a<br />
God after all.<br />
“MOM! NO STOP!<br />
THAT”S MY MOTHER!” I<br />
scream until I can’t<br />
breath. I’ve never seen<br />
anything so rushed in my<br />
life. One minute the paramedics are in my<br />
apartment wheeling my mother out <strong>of</strong> the<br />
ambulance, and the next, we’re in the hospital with<br />
my Mom going into cardiac arrest.<br />
“You’re going to have to wait outside Miss.”<br />
Some doctor says as he pushes me out the door. I<br />
kick and scream until I’m sure I’ve bruised both<br />
myself and the doctor.<br />
“No! You don’t understand! That’s my mom;<br />
I need to know she’s going to be OK”<br />
As I say this, I hear the doctors shocking my<br />
mom trying to retrieve her. It sounds like rapid<br />
heartbeats falling farther and farther apart. As I<br />
move to the window, I see for myself. I see five or six<br />
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doctors doing things I can’t understand. Before I<br />
know it, I see the straight line, life is over. I see the<br />
doctor write the time and date <strong>of</strong> death. The doctor<br />
walks over to me and tells me the cancer was too<br />
strong for her heart to handle and it stopped too<br />
suddenly. At that moment, I realize that two<br />
precious lives are over.<br />
I awake to a dinging sound to find that I<br />
have landed in New York. I wonder what I’m doing<br />
here when I should be back home. I walk <strong>of</strong>f the<br />
plane anyway and start looking for my dad. I mean,<br />
how can he remember what I look like? I haven’t<br />
seen him since I was a year old and I’m pretty sure<br />
he doesn’t know what I look like. I’m a bit<br />
more….developed than I was fifteen years ago.<br />
May 31, <strong>2012</strong><br />
I look left and right and don’t see anyone I<br />
know. I’m about to walk away when I see a sign<br />
saying “WELCOME ALLY”<br />
I walk over to the sign to find a tall man with<br />
black hair and a grey suit. I’m not too sure what to<br />
say to him, I mean, what are you suppose to say to<br />
someone that hasn’t been in your life when they<br />
should have been all along?<br />
I look up and stare at his face. I now<br />
understand where my dark hair comes from since<br />
Mom had blonde hair, and my eyes are green, just<br />
like his. I realize that we are more alike in so many<br />
ways than one. I find myself smiling up and him; he<br />
smiles back. I take his hand and hope he leads me<br />
towards a new start, and in return, I’ll lead him to<br />
ABSURD LETTER: “Highway Signs” – Tharagaga Balachandran<br />
Bob Chiarelli<br />
Minister <strong>of</strong> Infrastructure, Ontario Government<br />
77 Wellesley Street West<br />
Toronto, ON M7A 1Z8<br />
Dear Mr. Chiarelli,<br />
I am writing to express a deep concern regarding highway road signs. I respect the font choice and size and believe<br />
that the signs are effective. However, using blue or green backgrounds discriminates against other colours.<br />
While blue and green have traditionally been highway sign colours, it is time to change tradition. This century has<br />
been one <strong>of</strong> progress and change; highway signs should not be overlooked. Red, yellow, orange, and violet have been<br />
disregarded and underrepresented for too long by the provincial government. Why are yellow and orange only used<br />
as warnings? Why is red merely used as a “hint” <strong>of</strong> colour? Why is purple not at all represented? I want my great<br />
grandchildren to only learn about (but not experience) a time when highway signs were only green and blue.<br />
I would appreciate it if red, yellow, orange, violet, and any other underrepresented colours could appear in a highway<br />
sign. I urge the provincial government to take the matter seriously and use your power to fight coloured-based<br />
highway sign discrimination.<br />
Yours truly,<br />
Artie Changeman<br />
his.<br />
7
It was quiet outside. A ship floated by,<br />
orbiting the lone planet. Swirls <strong>of</strong> beige and dark<br />
red covered the globe. No vegetation added life to<br />
the planet; no water flowed through its dry canals.<br />
Mountains and hills protruded throughout the<br />
arid landscape. The clear sky a canopy <strong>of</strong> space,<br />
speckled with the bright white lights <strong>of</strong> far <strong>of</strong>f<br />
stars and suns, most, like the planet, already dead.<br />
It was quiet.<br />
Up several kilometres above the planet,<br />
PLANET – Bogdan Stanciu<br />
the ship floated on. A crew <strong>of</strong> 34 people occupied it, each person given a specific task and expected to do it.<br />
In the bridge, the silence mimicked that <strong>of</strong> the planet down below. The captain stared grimly at the screens<br />
set above his chair. On all <strong>of</strong> them, a countdown flashed red at 0:00:00 in the right corner. It had been<br />
flashing for nearly 3 months now. He thought <strong>of</strong> his family back on earth. His children. His wife. He fought<br />
back tears, and looked up around him.<br />
Men and women manned different terminals, all <strong>of</strong> them carrying the same glazed over look on their<br />
eyes that he did. Once again, he reminded himself that this was all he had left. He stood up and walked to<br />
the front, turning around to face all his sailors.<br />
“This is our last shot, our last chance. I don’t need to remind you <strong>of</strong> the stakes. Whatever the<br />
outcome <strong>of</strong> what’s to come, I want to say, it’s been a pleasure working with all <strong>of</strong> you”<br />
He walked back to his chair accompanied by applause. He didn’t deserve it. Neither did they deserve<br />
his lies, but he could not bring himself to make them face the truth. The captain slouched back into his chair,<br />
and look back at the screen, the zeroes taunting him. They all thought this was their last chance, but he knew<br />
it was long gone. Earth was dead. They were all that was left. He gave the command to land the ship, and<br />
leaned back, waiting.<br />
The ship crept towards the planet’s atmosphere, letting its invisible hands grasp it and tug it towards<br />
the surface. Landing on a planet was always risky, but this ship was built for the occasion. As the captain<br />
ordered counter thrusters to prevent too hard a landing, the swirls covering the planet darkened, the wind<br />
whipping them into riot. As the ship touched down, there was a scream outside, quickly lost in the wind.<br />
Then the surface cracked, and then they fell.<br />
He was back on earth. The Amazon, he thought, summer vacation <strong>of</strong> 2100, celebrating the<br />
centennial. He looked at his son and lifted him up so he could see above the canopy <strong>of</strong> trees from their<br />
lookout. His son laughed and turned back to look at him.<br />
“Too bad we’re dead”<br />
TAUFIQ SAFDAR<br />
The captain came to. His forehead bore a wide gash, and that was tame compared to the rest <strong>of</strong> the<br />
cockpit. No one else had survived. He took <strong>of</strong>f his harness and stood up, wavering a bit before standing tall.<br />
The lights flickered and cast an eerie glow around the area. And then he heard a scream from the outside.<br />
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Instinctively he ran to one <strong>of</strong> the windows on the side. He looked upon the landscape and saw Jungle-<br />
Pure untamed green jungle. He staggered back unsure if he should believe his eyes. He heard a noise and<br />
then turned around to see Jennifer. An engineer, he thought. She had a gun pointed at his forehead, her eyes<br />
cycling through various emotions-fears, distrust, confusion, anger- before finally stopping at hate.<br />
“Where the fuck have you been? Where were you? We needed you. You were our captain. We swore<br />
our lives to you, and you’ve been sleeping? You took a nap while the rest <strong>of</strong> us were dying trying to protect<br />
you while you came up with a plan. You took a nap? You’re all we had to look forward to? This is what we<br />
fought for?”<br />
She fell to her knees and put the gun against her head. The captain jumped to her and knocked it out<br />
<strong>of</strong> her hand. She looked up, hatred brooding in her eyes, and opened her mouth to speak.<br />
“You would never let anyone take the easy way out, captain, so let me explain to you what’s been<br />
happening while you’ve been sleeping”<br />
“There’s oxygen and water beneath the planet’s crust. It’s allowed the trees to overtake it. The light<br />
is just the nearby suns light permeating throughout the crust at its thinnest points. But that’s not important.<br />
This planet is inhabited”<br />
“We...I...We don’t know what it is. It’s like a shadow. Either it’s its shadow, or it is a shadow. But it<br />
plays with your head. It can kill you whenever you want. And you never notice, it’s just a shadow that sits<br />
next to your own. The only way to avoid it is to stay in the light. Either way, It’s too late for me”<br />
They both looked down, and saw Jennifer’s shadows. Both <strong>of</strong> them<br />
“I’m so sorry”<br />
“I’m not”<br />
She took a step into her second shadow, cast by no light. As she did, he thought he saw her give a<br />
crooked smile. Then he heard a scream, and she ceased to be. He fell backwards and scrambled to the light<br />
cast through the window. He thought <strong>of</strong> the last time he had seen his family. How they had probably died <strong>of</strong><br />
starvation. How he was supposed to have rescued them. How he was to have found a new planet for all <strong>of</strong><br />
earth. He had failed-Everything: His family, his race, his planet. He stood up with renewed vigour. He would<br />
not let this thing end him. He didn’t deserve a hero’s death. He walked calmly to the gun and picked it up.<br />
He looked up and muttered “If there is any god left, I’m sorry”<br />
He put the gun up to his mouth, and pulled the trigger<br />
It was quiet outside.<br />
I was pretty sure I would change my mind<br />
while climbing the stairs.<br />
Despite the overwhelming urge I had to<br />
turn around and go home, I didn’t. I continued<br />
ascending the stairs to my one-way, twelve story<br />
trip into nothingness, or, hopefully, something<br />
JUMP – Samantha McKay<br />
better. I know I could have taken the elevator, but<br />
elevators break, and I wanted to be in control <strong>of</strong><br />
my own end. Or at least, that’s what I told myself<br />
as I clambered up the bright, bleak stairwell. In<br />
truth, I was killing time before I killed myself. I<br />
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didn’t want to die, but it seemed better than<br />
living.<br />
I reached the ro<strong>of</strong> <strong>of</strong> the building. It was<br />
perfect – the sky was just how I wanted it,<br />
bleeding magenta and crimson all over the<br />
previously perfect shade <strong>of</strong> pale blue. Another day<br />
was winding down and this perfection would only<br />
last for a few moments before the sky settled and<br />
the moon illuminated the silhouettes <strong>of</strong> the<br />
surrounding buildings. I moved closer to the ledge.<br />
An ambulance screeched beneath me. I wonder if<br />
the person coddled on that stretcher wants to be<br />
saved. Did you ask him before you poured his life<br />
back into his veins?<br />
I stepped onto the ledge and peered over<br />
quickly. I breathed in and rubbed my clammy<br />
palms together. Involuntarily, I swayed back and<br />
forth and I felt the journal sliding around in my<br />
backpack. I took it <strong>of</strong>f and placed it beside me. I<br />
thought that it would be a sufficient token,<br />
something for the few that would notice my<br />
absence, to remember me by.<br />
Snap snap spit. Snap snap spit. I thought it<br />
was my heart at first, or some figment <strong>of</strong> my<br />
imagination, but after a moment I realized<br />
someone else was on the ro<strong>of</strong> with me. I turned to<br />
where the noise was coming from and saw him –<br />
he looked about 60, but he was probably only 25. I<br />
wasn’t sure if he was just one <strong>of</strong> those hipsters<br />
who thought having a thick beard and buying<br />
clothes from one <strong>of</strong> those expensive thrift store<br />
imitation shops was cool, or if he was just<br />
homeless. Either way, his identity wasn’t my<br />
concern, just his apparently inadvertent intrusion<br />
on my dramatic end. I realized that the noise was<br />
coming from the way he was chewing his nails<br />
with reckless abandon. He’s probably a lunatic, I<br />
thought. He had been watching me. I felt violated;<br />
this was a deeply personal moment for me.<br />
However, before I could express my indignation,<br />
he rose.<br />
“Good evenin’, miss. It’s gettin’ dark.” He<br />
tipped his tattered beret in my general direction.<br />
“What are you doing here? No one is<br />
supposed to be up here.” I huffed, annoyed.<br />
He laughed. “An’ what makes you think<br />
you has any more right to be here than me, miss?”<br />
There ought to be some kind <strong>of</strong> law<br />
against laughing at people who are on ledges, one<br />
literal step away from plunging to their death.<br />
I stepped <strong>of</strong>f the ledge and back onto the<br />
ro<strong>of</strong>. “I don’t know. You could have told me you<br />
were here sooner.” I crossed my arms and jerked<br />
my head away from him and the setting sun<br />
scalded my eyes. I knew I was acting like a child,<br />
but I wanted to be alone. It felt like he had seen<br />
me naked, vulnerable. I hated it.<br />
“With all due respect, miss, I was here<br />
first, and by the looks o’ things, we is here for the<br />
same reasons.” He was so cheery. How could he<br />
possibly cheery if he wasn’t lying about being<br />
suicidal, too? He continued to chew his nails,<br />
rather violently.<br />
I wanted to cut his hand <strong>of</strong>f. “Yeah, well,<br />
fine.” I was mad, but he was right.<br />
“What’s your name, miss?” he asked.<br />
“Does it matter?” I sc<strong>of</strong>fed.<br />
“Guess not. Anyhow, it’s a beautiful night,<br />
innit?” he laid down, his hands behind his head as<br />
he gazed at the sky. I couldn’t understand him.<br />
Why would someone so happy want to die? I<br />
looked up, the sky was indigo, starless.<br />
“There aren’t any stars.” I was trying<br />
desperately to cling onto my impatience.<br />
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“This is the problem with you kids: you only see<br />
beauty in the stars. Ain’t there nothin’ else that’s<br />
beautiful? Yous all just blinded by the shine. Ain’t<br />
the space between them<br />
beautiful? Look again. Look<br />
how big it all is. Don’t it make<br />
you feel small? It could make a<br />
man crazy. It sure did me in.”<br />
He was starting to ramble, but<br />
what he was saying made<br />
sense. Then again, maybe it<br />
only made sense to me<br />
because I belonged in the<br />
loony bin as much as he did.<br />
“I am small. Crazy,<br />
too.” I muttered, defeated.<br />
What battle was I trying to<br />
fight, anyway? Being up on<br />
that ro<strong>of</strong> was pretty solid pro<strong>of</strong><br />
that I had already given up.<br />
“Innit funny, and kind<br />
<strong>of</strong> impossible, how you n’ me, these two tiny little<br />
particles <strong>of</strong> the universe find ourselves at the<br />
same place, at the same time, on the same day,<br />
for the same reason?” He was just talking to talk, I<br />
thought.<br />
“Yeah, I suppose it’s pretty odd. Not as<br />
odd as you, though.” I said this more<br />
affectionately than I meant to.<br />
“You’re fairly odd, yourself, miss. Seems to<br />
me, you’ve got the whole world at your feet and<br />
you’re kicking it away just because it’s a little<br />
scuffed up.” He was starting to annoy me.<br />
“You don’t know anything.” I fumed, even<br />
though I knew he was right.<br />
“Alright, miss. I ain’t faulting you for it, or<br />
nothin’, don’t be gettin’ me wrong now.” He<br />
sounded apologetic and I felt kind <strong>of</strong> guilty.<br />
followed me.<br />
I got back up on the ledge, and he<br />
“I’m sure you has some good reasons as to<br />
WINYEN WU<br />
why yous doin’ this, miss. Just<br />
answer me this: why would you<br />
choose a night as beautiful as<br />
this to end it all?” As intruding<br />
as his inquiry was, I was willing<br />
to answer. What had I to lose?<br />
Of course, I had a wide<br />
spectrum <strong>of</strong> reasons that I felt<br />
were more than valid, but all I<br />
managed to utter was, “There<br />
isn’t anything left for me here.”<br />
“Well, miss, that is very<br />
interesting.” He kind <strong>of</strong><br />
chuckled.<br />
“That adjective is kind <strong>of</strong><br />
inappropriate for this occasion,<br />
wouldn’t you say?” I wondered<br />
how he managed to remain so<br />
reposed about this whole thing while my insides<br />
were erupting with the boiling waters <strong>of</strong> self-<br />
hatred.<br />
Now, I realize that this man shared the<br />
emptiness that I felt in my life. Neither <strong>of</strong> us was<br />
really sad. Nothing in particular was making us<br />
miserable. Nothing was slowly clotting our<br />
arteries. Nothing was numbing our souls. When<br />
someone asked what wrong, ‘Nothing’ was we<br />
would reply. We had been consumed by<br />
nothingness, and when we were gone, people<br />
would utter, surprised, ‘But there was nothing<br />
wrong with them!”<br />
We both felt that we had seen enough <strong>of</strong><br />
this world and we thought we were ready to see<br />
what came next. Our hesitation stemmed from<br />
the risk that this might be as good as it will get.<br />
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“What if what comes after this ain’t any<br />
better? What if what’s next ain’t nothin’?” He<br />
speculated, giving voice to the thoughts I was too<br />
cowardly to voice.<br />
“I think that the possible payout greatly<br />
outweighs the risks. Whatever happens…after is<br />
better than living in this sadness.” I sounded more<br />
sure <strong>of</strong> myself than I felt. I knew it could be worse,<br />
much, much worse – eternal damnation,<br />
wandering a void for the rest <strong>of</strong> time…maybe I<br />
would meander in limbo until after time ran out,<br />
but at least it would be different than this, I<br />
thought. At least I wouldn’t have to try anymore.<br />
He laughed at me, again. Now I thought<br />
that maybe the laughter was good. It felt good. I<br />
thought it might be good if we just laughed at<br />
people on ledges, then maybe they would come<br />
down. “So sadness is a place?”<br />
He was the only person who didn’t try to<br />
cheer me up after I said something so macabre.<br />
“I’ve lived there for years, haven’t you?”<br />
“I’m glad I met you, miss.” He smiled.<br />
Sometimes I wish<br />
The world could see<br />
I’m not the one they assume me to be<br />
I don’t carry artillery around with me<br />
But instead, I wish peace upon humanity<br />
This thin piece <strong>of</strong> cloth that covers my head<br />
Is a part <strong>of</strong> me that I will not shed<br />
But, this thins piece <strong>of</strong> cloth that covers my head<br />
Makes all the difference between and the next (person)<br />
Sometimes I wish<br />
People wouldn’t speculate<br />
As I bow down in salaah, and prostrate<br />
Is this land not yours and mine to share?<br />
That as I worship with a look so icy you stare?<br />
Sometimes I wish<br />
I could go through airport screening<br />
“Me, too.” I wasn’t lying.<br />
Genuinely, I wasn’t. In the seventeen<br />
minutes I knew him, I felt more <strong>of</strong> a connection<br />
than I had with anyone in years. Maybe there was<br />
nothing for me here, but I suppose haven’t looked<br />
very hard. Maybe there’s something for him there.<br />
I hope there is. I remember thinking how sad it is<br />
that all the people who struggle to get into this life<br />
and those who desperately try to slip out <strong>of</strong> it<br />
always end up in the exact same place.<br />
He gave me hope. He really did<br />
understand, when I only thought I did. He smiled<br />
solemnly at me as we stood side by side on the<br />
ledge, finding the beauty between the stars. He<br />
jumped. I didn’t.<br />
SOMETIMES I WISH - anonymous<br />
Without cynical looks <strong>of</strong> disbelieving<br />
Sometimes I wish<br />
I didn’t see the hate pages posted to hurt me<br />
What have I ever done to you?<br />
To be deserving <strong>of</strong> something so cruel?<br />
Taunt me:<br />
And I’ll stand up…<br />
Brave and strong<br />
Discriminate me:<br />
And I’ll stand up…<br />
Braver and stronger<br />
But in my heart, Sometimes I wish<br />
That the last six lines <strong>of</strong> this poem weren’t lies….<br />
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DARKNESS WITHIN – Dhanyasri Maddiboina<br />
In the light <strong>of</strong> day the monsters leave,<br />
But as night falls, out they creep.<br />
Surrounded by people the fear seems to fade,<br />
But sitting alone, the feelings raid.<br />
It is the light they say. That is what pulls him out <strong>of</strong> hiding. Funny, how a monster <strong>of</strong> the dark would<br />
be attracted to light. Nevertheless, he creeps out, at the first spark that dares to make itself known in the<br />
oppressing darkness. At first, it is a slow approach. He makes sure <strong>of</strong> the light. Of course, there is not much to<br />
confirm about a light in the night. It is as obvious as, well, a light in the night. Of course, he needs to be<br />
certain, so all he does is peek. Then, when he is sure, he finally comes out. He glances around, his beady eyes<br />
unseeing. For you see, he has no need for vision. In true darkness, which is where he dwells, sight is useless.<br />
(Perhaps once upon a time he may have had clear, blue eyes, but now all that remains are colorless orbs.)<br />
Instead, he feels. He sniffs. He can smell you right now.<br />
You sleep, unaware. You are the instigator <strong>of</strong> the light. Not a thought was cast when you turned that bed<br />
light on that fateful moment in the not so distant hours past. For now, you sleep. You dream. No nightmares.<br />
No darkness. Of course, every peace must end, every feather must be ruffled.<br />
RALPH ASTORGA<br />
His footsteps are more felt than heard. They are a<br />
subconscious reverberation. Nevertheless, they are<br />
the first indicators <strong>of</strong> something not right.<br />
Your eyes flutter slightly, afraid to open and yank<br />
you back into reality.<br />
A few more steps before-<br />
You feel a chill. Dismiss it ever so carelessly, tugging<br />
the bed sheets higher.<br />
Coldness emanates from within him. Light is<br />
warmth. Perhaps that is another reason why he draws closer, ever closer, his reach imminent, his features<br />
prominent. He is close now, close to the object <strong>of</strong> his desire. That tantalizing flame. Of course, the closer one<br />
is to one's object <strong>of</strong> desire, the more frenzied one gets. It is an instinct, to not want to lose the thing that you<br />
have wanted for so long, and which is finally within reach, teasing your fingertips. Such a strong instinct in<br />
fact, that it has a tendency to make one do anything, anything at all, to acquire said want, to not let it slip<br />
away. This instinct was strong in him right now. The only problem was, he mused, was the sleeping figure in<br />
the way...<br />
The silence is deafening. (This is a strange concept unto itself, for silence means absence <strong>of</strong> sound; whereas<br />
the adjective deafening usually represents a volume <strong>of</strong> sound loud enough to induce loss <strong>of</strong> hearing. So how<br />
are they used in conjunction?) Well, simply put, there is an absence <strong>of</strong> sound, which, as you grudgingly gain<br />
consciousness, become aware <strong>of</strong>. As it is with most things, you never realize something until it is gone. In<br />
everyday life, there is always something in the background, buzzing or shifting, indicating life, usurping<br />
loneliness. Not right now though. Now, there is stillness.<br />
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As he drags himself closer, he sucks out the life from the very air. Essences are always leftover, wherever<br />
people go. It is imprints <strong>of</strong> their memories shared and forgotten, which truly brings a place to life. All <strong>of</strong> that<br />
is gone now.<br />
You can definitely feel something approaching.<br />
A creak.<br />
Your heart jumps.<br />
Oh there goes one <strong>of</strong> his joints.<br />
Irrational fears grip you. A window maybe? Or that specific squeaky cupboard in the kitchen? Your eyes shut<br />
tight as you wrap the blankets around you and tuck your fingers and toes safe inside, the childish, “I can't see<br />
you, you can’t see me” concept coming back.<br />
Shhhhrrsh. Shreeshh.<br />
You tense. What was that dragging, scratching sound? It was surely just the curtain brushing against the<br />
floor. Right?<br />
His feet drag lifelessly. He stops, directly beside the bed, hand reaching...<br />
Inside the sheets, you are sweating but also clammy. Logical thoughts are quickly melting away, leaving<br />
behind that unsure, lonely, and frightened child you thought you had repressed long ago.<br />
They say the reason a moth draws to light is not really because <strong>of</strong> the light itself, but what it sees beyond the<br />
light. Maybe he sees something beyond the light too. Something he's yearned for since his beginning.<br />
You can definitely feel something. You are certain there is something there. Something there that shouldn’t<br />
be there. Panic is overriding all, and before you realize what you are doing you yank the covers <strong>of</strong>f and<br />
blindly leap from the bed. You stumble on the strewn covers, and your heart spikes. You get caught in them<br />
and you go down hard, your knees and elbows making a thud. Your thoughts are racing, images <strong>of</strong> demented<br />
figures, disfigured creatures, and blood flashing. You swear you can feel something, just beyond the brink,<br />
about to reach out and grab you. You want to run, run from the shadows that are consuming you. Faces flash<br />
by, eerie and pale images. Every thought <strong>of</strong> ordinary things turns into demented versions <strong>of</strong> themselves. A<br />
lamp that strangles, a pillow that suffocates. Heart palpitations, shortness <strong>of</strong> breath, a scream on the verge<br />
<strong>of</strong> exploding, yet you're paralyzed.<br />
The thing about fear is that it consumes and grows. The little things come back to haunt you one dark night.<br />
Unsettled fears seep into everyday life and slowly affect your decisions. They restrict what you do, when, and<br />
how.<br />
Thoughts a million miles a second, you pause. You’re shaking, crouched on the floor, amidst the mess <strong>of</strong><br />
sheets. Slowly, you look up.<br />
What greets you isn’t a fairytale monster, or anything else remotely defying everyday logic. There is your<br />
dresser, your desk piled with papers, and your bag in a corner. Everything where it should be. Oh, and that<br />
brand new bed light you bought just yesterday. It makes the surrounding objects cast daunting shadows.<br />
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Funny. It was supposed to help with combating the darkness, but all it does is emphasize it and make a<br />
mockery <strong>of</strong> real light. You take a shaky breath. The adrenaline is still pumping, but now that you can see<br />
there is nothing, you calm a little. You get up and climb back into bed, slowly slipping back into ignorant<br />
sleep.<br />
He laughs. Well, more like gurgles and makes a wet sound.<br />
You’re wide awake at that. This time, there must be something there. You snap your eyes open and it’s<br />
raining. The water is splashing against the sidewalk and running down the house. Confused, you sit up. When<br />
did it start raining? You get up and shuffle to the window seat. The rain is picking up and is really starting to<br />
pour. You sit, enchanted by the downfall and mists <strong>of</strong> water coming from the sky. Eventually, you begin to<br />
get sleepy and your eyes start closing <strong>of</strong> their own volition.<br />
He wants to make his presence known. The light is forgotten for now. So he stands completely still. Waiting.<br />
Once again.<br />
Your head snaps up just as you are about to nod <strong>of</strong>f. You shake the drowsiness and rise. You are walking back<br />
to the bed when-<br />
You freeze. Slowly turn to face the direction <strong>of</strong> the mirror. Your eyes widen. Muscles stiffen. Suddenly, you<br />
are running, towards the mirror. Hands out in front <strong>of</strong> you, ready to grab. To prove what you’re seeing.<br />
Crash. Shards <strong>of</strong> glass fly everywhere, some stained crimson. The world is spinning, blurring, and becoming<br />
colourless. You are aware <strong>of</strong> crashing into other things. The last sight you see is a lump. An undistinguishable<br />
shape. Something that is not supposed to be there. Then, darkness. That same darkness you have been trying<br />
to avoid for so long. In the end, it is the only thing left…<br />
It is early morning and the neighbourhood is full <strong>of</strong> police cars and ambulances, all flocking one house at the<br />
end <strong>of</strong> the street. Among the mayhem, two men, both sporting badges, are conversing quietly.<br />
“What do you mean no one broke in?” One <strong>of</strong> them spits this out and then proceeds to look around to see if<br />
anyone is listening.<br />
“No one broke in,” the other simply says.<br />
“But there was broken glass and other signs <strong>of</strong> struggle! Clearly there was an intruder.” He wipes at his brow.<br />
“I’m telling you. It was all self-induced,” the other replies.<br />
“So, I’m supposed to believe the victim punched up a mirror, threw the room into shambles, and then<br />
collapsed on the floor, without a tangible reason?” He flails his hands now in his exclamation.<br />
The other man looks him in the eye. “There is a tangible reason.” He turns and starts walking away. After a<br />
few steps, he turns his head back and says, “It’s just that the tangible reason seems to have originated from<br />
here.” He taps his head and walks away. The other man confusedly watches him go, trying to comprehend.<br />
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SECRET LOVE AFFAIR - Tiffany Heldsinger<br />
Her eyes were never meant to see what they did. As she walked in the room she suddenly stopped,<br />
not wanting to believe her eyes. There lay her best friend Monika dead on the wooden floor with crimson<br />
water seeping from her slit throat. All poor Violet could<br />
do was stare at her ill-fated friend. Soon the tear drops<br />
began to fall on the floorboards; she didn't even feel<br />
herself when she collapsed to the ground beside her<br />
friend. After what felt like an eternity, Violet finally said<br />
goodbye and got up.<br />
She put her hand in her pocket and took out<br />
her cell phone it was 10 o’clock. By this time her and<br />
Monika were supposed to be all hyped up on sugar and<br />
chocolate and consumed in some secret conversation.<br />
Tonight was the night Monika finally told Violet who<br />
her secret love affair was with.<br />
As she started to dial 911 she looked up and saw an even more disturbing site. It was worse than last<br />
nigh, causing her to instantly drop her phone. There her father stood at the end <strong>of</strong> the hallway with a<br />
massive blood stained knife, a drenched shirt with a demented look in his eyes.<br />
Mr. Rob Ford<br />
Mayor <strong>of</strong> Toronto<br />
100 Queen St. West<br />
Toronto ON M5H 2N2<br />
Dear Mr. Rob Ford,<br />
ABSURD LETTER: Socks – Amen Hammad<br />
I am sending you this letter on a matter which I believe really cannot be solved unless the<br />
government intervenes. I’m sure in your line <strong>of</strong> work you have gotten many strange and unusual requests<br />
from the citizens <strong>of</strong> Toronto, but this may actually be something you have had to suffer as well: losing socks<br />
in your washing machine. You always put an even number <strong>of</strong> socks into your washing machine, but once you<br />
have dried your laundry and made pairs <strong>of</strong> all your socks, there will almost always be lone socks which do not<br />
have their partners.<br />
ANTARA AHMED<br />
These past 2 years I have interviewed the many customers <strong>of</strong> the popular Laundromats in Toronto. In<br />
fact, there is a 2 in 3 chance <strong>of</strong> socks disappearing from our laundry loads. This is the conclusion I have come<br />
too, which has been derived from a 2 year long extensive study. Mind you, I was one <strong>of</strong> the most prominent<br />
sociologists <strong>of</strong> my time. I will now illustrate the severity <strong>of</strong> this problem to you with some simple<br />
mathematics. The population <strong>of</strong> Toronto is 6,054,191 individuals. This includes women, men and children.<br />
The average family structure in a household <strong>of</strong> Toronto includes 4 individuals, 2 parents or guardians with 2<br />
children. Also, the average number <strong>of</strong> times a household does laundry is about 5 times a week, while the<br />
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number <strong>of</strong> socks owned by the average individual is 18 pairs. Therefore, when taking into account all <strong>of</strong> these<br />
statistics I have concluded that if indeed 2 out <strong>of</strong> every 3 washes lead to the loss <strong>of</strong> a single sock, we would<br />
be sockless in a matter <strong>of</strong> 47 days (rounded to the nearest day). So, in a little over a month, an individual<br />
could be completely sockless.<br />
I personally am shocked that the government has not done anything about this. The number <strong>of</strong><br />
annual deaths due to being exposed to the cold during our Canadian winters is on the rise. So are cases <strong>of</strong><br />
frostbitten toes. What really scared me was that the results which I have disclosed to you were found a<br />
decade ago. I sent a letter giving details about my findings to our previous mayor, Mr. David Miller, but I got<br />
a response outlining the uselessness <strong>of</strong> my findings. They also asked me, Mr. Ford, what exactly is it that I<br />
want the government <strong>of</strong> Toronto to do?<br />
Well, in this technological age, plenty can be done. The government can fund a website dedicated on<br />
educating people on the loss <strong>of</strong> socks and the consequences as a result <strong>of</strong> it. It can give tips on how we can<br />
prevent this issue and maybe a sort <strong>of</strong> sock chart which can be used to track which socks are being placed in<br />
the washing machine for optimal organization. There is indeed a causal relationship between losing your<br />
socks and an increased risk <strong>of</strong> frost bitten toes and I am going to further explore this phenomenon in my next<br />
study. Please do respond. I am willing to upload content onto this website, but am not up-to-date on<br />
technology myself so if you could please refer me to an experienced computer programmer. I’m looking<br />
forward to working with you and your government, Mr. Ford, so that we can put an end to this horrible<br />
problem.<br />
Sincerely,<br />
Dr. Sheldon Peabody<br />
ARMAN BHUIYAN<br />
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