SHENSTON IAN 88 - Old Silhillians Association
SHENSTON IAN 88 - Old Silhillians Association
SHENSTON IAN 88 - Old Silhillians Association
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Cluedo<br />
"Give it me!" he growled, moving menacingly towards me; "I want it back."<br />
Looking around, he picked up the candle stick from the table and gripped it<br />
meaningfully with clenched fists. his eyes burned with the genetic hate of a million<br />
years, bloodshot with an illogical, calculated frenzy. Suddenly he seemed a good bit<br />
taller and stronger, and my fear welled up inside me — first as a slithering, clammy<br />
snake up my spine and last as an Indian war-drumming in my temples. My<br />
perspiration glistened in the sinister light. From a picture — a frozen instant — one<br />
might describe his nose as comic or cute but now it snorted like a bull's, spilling<br />
droplets of venomous vapour into the air. It was his mouth, however, that terrified<br />
me most. It had all the appearance of a circus clown, with glistening teeth and red<br />
lip, yet the maddened leer was a comedy of the grotesque. I half imagined a lizard's<br />
tongue would flick out at me, cutting my smooth, defenceless skin. Disfigured like<br />
a cubist image of Satan, his face was etched forever on my retina and every cell<br />
screamed at the touch.<br />
Still I clutched tightly at the prize, with whitened knuckles. I had my principles<br />
to think of and I had to be brave: if I lost this time, I would be a slave forever. "No,<br />
you can't have it. . . what you did was wrong!" I couldn't think of anything more<br />
eloquent, but my words were useless anyway.<br />
"Give. Give. Give me, give;" the words echoed around my dizzy head. "I want<br />
it, want it, want. Give it me now, I want it back. Give it me now or I'll. . .or<br />
I'll. . ."<br />
Time stood still, choking with anticipation, and the hairs on the back of my<br />
neck seemed to be pulling me away; telling me to run.<br />
"I'll kill you!"<br />
I felt sick and suddenly it was all happening to someone else. Even my senses<br />
had deserted my condemned carcase. So it was to be. . . I would be a martyr to my<br />
cause.<br />
The impact was a distant door slam, between one world and the next. Blood<br />
trickled down the age lines of the forehead, matting the hair and painting the<br />
kitchen floor the colour of poppies.<br />
The grip was still tight in death but not for eager fingers. It still contained the<br />
odd shard of tell-tale glass even now, but Tommy's best conker would survive and it<br />
was a sixer now. Mummy had been a bad little girl. . .<br />
Story<br />
D. Viney.<br />
I was trapped in an unreal world, confused in its ways and guided<br />
misconceptions. Wrung out by years of deservedly catastrophic war. Mindless like<br />
the thousands. Moulded to the shape of 'Them'. Left in cages, enclosed behind iron<br />
keys which unlocked the doors of time and fraternity. They had broken me.<br />
Snapped me like a frayed rope, stretching and twisting me till I said "no more" and<br />
was one with them. They had removed my tongue for being human. Now I was not.<br />
I started across the 'crete-scape', at the dead tower block, lying dormant and<br />
inactive in the endless sleep, at the river which curled its way through our time<br />
searching for its haven, and us, searching for ours. There was nothing left whole,<br />
no-one was anyone. Now I wanted to be someone. They had won this earth and us<br />
for themselves, but no person would take pride in us or our nobodies. I returned to<br />
my task, snapping the pencils of creation. Burning the wood in the hole at the end<br />
of the cut-wire grate, black like all else, tarred by the unceasing onslaught of the<br />
crazy magnetic smoke, wrapping up our lives with its blanket of darkness, dulling<br />
our sun with the ultimate night of terror and hope. They were married now; night<br />
and day. Night with his son, the moon, and day with her daughter, the sun. The sun<br />
only came out for a while, so shy and timid, and, seeing this world, hid in shame.<br />
The moon would then sometimes come out and show us our World, but not hide,<br />
for he liked the deadness.<br />
I wished to create, now all was devasted. Was I the only one who would<br />
remember? I remembered. I had not words to speak but I could write, but what<br />
with, or what on? Anyway, who would read them? They didn't guard the cells<br />
anymore, they didn't need to. However, as I sat I pondered awhile. "To go out<br />
there was death itself, nothing lived out there!". There used to be a man whom they<br />
called a doctor, but he just removed unwanted, dead or decaying limbs or teeth.<br />
There was no need for him any more! Nature could not cope with this world, it was<br />
also dying. I needed to get out. My exasperations were growing, my brain no longer<br />
had any connection. It needed a link, a voice. My hands were its saviour but what<br />
could they do? I sat for a while, what else could I do? Staring at nothing. Then from<br />
the sky, the mud and filth of the war came. No one knew about the rain except me.<br />
Only I can picture the pure white grenades; white in the sense of pure and fresh,<br />
hurtling earthwards. I knew my cellmates didn't knoW of them, they sat fOr ever<br />
pacified. Forever.<br />
I was near the edge now, for I was regaining more and more sensation and<br />
feeling. I needed some selfish expression to free me from my inextricable position.<br />
Maybe I had the last civilised , human, feeling, reaching, loving brain left? I did not<br />
doubt for an instant that they had a brain, but theirs, I guessed, would be bruised,<br />
conditioned, idealistic in the wrong sense, the brain of an evil, caused, I know and<br />
fear, by the diminishing supply or lack of oxygen. There were no plants or trees<br />
left, soon I would die, I hoped.<br />
I gazed out of the room; outside at the poisonous gases and starved flames, at<br />
the dead mud and sea of floating debris, at the polystyrene, dirtied by the thick<br />
scum. Bacteria did not care to live down there. Maddened now, I set about my<br />
crazy task. I used the pencils to cut into my flesh, carving the words, "Be free,<br />
no . . ." but I stopped, or lost consciousness. I knew the words but didn't finish the<br />
word "war"!<br />
When I awoke I saw the glazed eyes of the cell mates, they just drank the<br />
liquid and ate the tablets. They had no spirit! I returned to an enormous pain in my<br />
leg and left my stupid scoring for a while, no one would ever read it anyway.<br />
Another idea came from nowhere, nearly as stupid and insane as the last. I was<br />
surely mad.<br />
I set about constructing a small box, no more than the size of my hand, long<br />
and misleading with different compartments. The iron grate sufficed. I spent days<br />
just bending the resistant wires. When the initial outer shell was almost complete I<br />
covered it with tubing which came from our latrine, melting it in the heat of the fire<br />
but it was not hot enough so I, in some weird contortion, led the oxygen supply<br />
down to the mouth of the fire. It glowed fierce and soon I had covered nearly half<br />
of my box. Many thoughtless moments later I finished and crushed up some of my<br />
tablets into one of the compartments. In another I placed a small leather bag made<br />
from a dead rat that previously had cohabited with us until his source of food, next<br />
cell along, had been taken away to make room for another work person. I think he<br />
died from heart disease. Who cares?<br />
Now all that remained was to find a rib. I classed my next action as a deed for<br />
mankind. My other cellmate was in no way put out by the loss of his friend. I threw<br />
his body outside. It sunk slowly into the putrid mud. With a drop or two of blood I<br />
placed the rib into the box and punctured the leather bag filled with oxygen. I<br />
sealed up my box.