Journal of Mary Phyllis Fisher - Thomas Davies

them. Ren always remembers names and can call them by their first name. So he does a great
deal of marriages and sealings. In fact the president and counselors interview those going
through for the first time but Ren is the one who helps them get ready and shows them the place
to go etc.
I sit here doing nothing. My life is so useless and I’m tired but I’m sure the Lord would not
want me to act this way. So I’ll just say thy will be done and pray that I do what is right. I’ll try
to be more kind to others. So good night! Ren is home and wants to read and I’m tired and
doing nothing so will go to bed.
I have a lovely home, 16 children counting husbands and 3 great grandchildren. I am so blessed.
“Thank you dear Father in Heaven, for all my blessing and for my children and grandchildren.”
1977. March 31 st
All my life I have had a desire to write the story of my life. Now I am old and my memory is
failing me. I can’t remember what has happened from one day to the next and it makes me feel
so lost and discouraged. I have been home alone most of the day. Father went to the temple
early this morning. A few minutes ago he came home to see how I was. He will not be able to
come home until after the 8 o’clock session gets on its way.
Sometime ago I bought me a scribbler and decided to write some of the things that happened
each day but now I can’t find it. Well if I write down what happened today then I can remember
it if I read it tomorrow.
The newsboy just brought us the newspaper. It says on it that it is April 1, 1977. The ground is
covered with snow at the back of the house. The snow drifts are up over the fence but the sun is
shining a little and goes down in the west.
For 8 years I was a temple worker. But I’ve got a bad heart and the doctor who is the President
of our stake, told me he thought that the Lord would not want me to work in the temple with a
heart like I had and so it was his advice that I quit working there. I thought I would go to the
temple and take names for the dead but now he says it is too much for me. So I just sit at home
and wait to die.
Lloyd and Jane were here to see us this past week with their baby girl. But Jane got very tired
waiting on all of us and they left for home this morning. I wanted them to go and visit Sara and
Anne and Frank and Lore but the roads are not very good. Anyway they left for home instead. I
am very sorry but she was not happy here. They all think a great deal of Father but he was at the
temple most of the time so their visit here was not a very happy one for which I am very sorry.
Jane made me a beautiful tied quilt while she was here. It is the first one I ever had that was
tied. It is very pretty. Ren gave her the money to buy the material so we’d have something to
do. Father made our garage into a beautiful family room so we had two quilts on, one for her
and one for me while she was here. I do hope and pray that they will make it home all right.
Winter is not a good time to travel. I feel tired so I will lie down for a while until Father comes
home.
1977. April 3 rd
Today is Ren’s birthday. I didn’t even wish him a happy birthday. We went to Sunday school.
Ren is now at Priesthood meeting. It was testimony meeting today. I wanted to bear my
testimony but just could not get the courage. I was thinking of the many blessings I have had.
The mike was past along the benches for people to speak into and bear their testimonies, but I
did not have the courage to do so.
I’m sure the Lord was not pleased with me. I will write down some of the blessings I have had
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