Journal of Mary Phyllis Fisher - Thomas Davies

Ren came home from the temple and is reading the paper now. He has to go back this evening
he says. I think I’ll go for a little walk. Maybe I’ll walk over and visit Ada for a few minutes
but she is such a busy person. If I only had one daughter or son who lived near me I’d be glad.
Ellen comes in when she goes to take music lessons for a few minutes.
Just now I saw two little boys that looked like Tom’s. One was on a bicycle. A bigger boy
came up and stopped him and made him get off the bike. Then he got on it and drove off. Now
they have gone. I don’t know if it was Tom’s little boys or not.
1978. Tuesday, May 13 th
Ren and I got up this morning and had breakfast. Then he went back to bed. I have washed the
dishes and made the bed and wiped up the floor. Ren is still asleep. I want to be quiet so he can
sleep for he gets up early and comes home so late when he’s at the temple all day. He needs rest
so I’ll write a little in my book and read until he wakes up. He looks so tired when he comes
home at night.
Tom and Rae, and Megan and her children came to see us and stayed all night. Megan has two
children, a girl and a boy. She is expecting another little one. She asked me and Father to pray
for her. She is very large. They have gone home now.
Father came home from the temple and lay down and is now sound asleep.
Ren has been such a good father. I guess I have been jealous of him because the children always
went to him. He gave them money and advice and the things they wanted. But then I had
nothing to give but love and they didn’t need or want that. My life has been such a failure. Is it
because I think more of myself than of them? If so how can I show my love for others more and
be a better wife and mother? Please help me dear Father is my prayer.
1978. May 23 rd
Ren has laid down on the cot in the front room and is sound asleep. He got up and put some
clothes in the washer. I don’t know what to do. It is Saturday May 23, 1978
It has started to snow. It is coming down in the largest flakes I have ever seen. The trees and
ground are all covered with snow. I have never seen the snow come down as fast as it is this
morning at this time of the year. As I look out across the creek and on the tops of the houses
there is snow everywhere. As far as you can see there is snow. The snow is so still coming
down.
Ren came home last night and took me to the temple. I went and did sealings then I went to a
session, then he brought me home.
1978. Monday, June 5 th
Ren has gone to the temple. It is Relief Society today this morning at 9 o’clock I think but I’m
not sure about it and I hate to ask people because I can’t remember. I think that is what Ren
said. I must have the courage to go over. Oh it is so hard to be at home alone but lately Ren has
been taking me to the temple. I’m not sure if it was yesterday or today. Oh, if I only had a
daughter near me, but I haven’t. Oh if I only had someone to take me.
Ren phoned to me from the temple. He said it would be 8 o’clock before he would be able to
come home.
We got a letter from Tom Davies. It was so nice of him to write to us and say he was coming
down.
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