El Nogalar Study Guide (9MB) - Goodman Theatre
El Nogalar Study Guide (9MB) - Goodman Theatre
El Nogalar Study Guide (9MB) - Goodman Theatre
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Paperless<br />
BY GISSELA GUALOTO<br />
Waited for the moment with so much anticipation—<br />
the moment to escape and run to the arms of my father.<br />
Escape from a world that I didn’t choose.<br />
The moment to run away from rotten bread crumbs and<br />
the hunger I’ve come to know so well.<br />
As if that had formed my daily routine.<br />
I wonder what Papi is doing.<br />
I bet Mami is yelling at my brother or sister, to eat the few<br />
miseries she was able to find yesterday.<br />
From my eyes, tears of anger are born ...<br />
No, I didn’t choose my race or my flag or that piece of<br />
muddy land we lived in.<br />
It was given to us by the choice of God, or fate or a sad,<br />
sad mistake.<br />
I’m afraid—very afraid. We are ALL afraid actually.<br />
But we deny to admit it.<br />
“That’s not how brave people feel,” Mami would say.<br />
In this land of the rich, seems like time is playing a trick<br />
with me.<br />
And the ticker of the clock failed to go on to the next<br />
number.<br />
I was no longer Ecuadorian.<br />
I was now “THE PAPERLESS.”<br />
My knees are scarred.<br />
The entire journey seems hopeless.<br />
But I must continue,<br />
For my Papi: Who keeps wearing out his calloused hands<br />
to keep me alive.<br />
For my Mami: Whose tears I’ve witnessed shed, as she<br />
knelt in front of Jesus Christ.<br />
For my sister: Whose bravery radiates through her light<br />
brown eyes.<br />
And for my brother: Whose unique personality can make<br />
a bloodless corpse shake with laughter.<br />
If I were to fail ...<br />
IF I WERE TO FAIL.<br />
I’d fail with certainty that I never gave up because He<br />
held my hand through it all ...<br />
Pray for me, because my freedom is also our future.<br />
I want to change the world, but THE PAPERLESS can only<br />
do so much.<br />
Gissela is a Chicago teen who shared her poetry with<br />
the Albany Park <strong>Theatre</strong> Project via their Facebook wall.<br />
What do you think of Gissela’s experience? Do you know<br />
other teens in Chicago who identify with the persona<br />
attached to being paperless?<br />
ABOVE: A small fence separates densely populated Tijuana, Mexico, right, from the United States in the Border Patrol’s San Diego Sector.<br />
Construction is underway to extend a secondary fence over the top of this hill and eventually to the Pacific Ocean. Photo courtesy of Sgt. 1st<br />
Class Gordon Hyde.<br />
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