Summer 2012 Newsletter - LaGuardia Community College - CUNY
Summer 2012 Newsletter - LaGuardia Community College - CUNY
Summer 2012 Newsletter - LaGuardia Community College - CUNY
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has learned the softer side of perseverance. With all the failures that have occurred in my life,<br />
whenever I succeeded it was as sweet as that first bite of the ripest mango. Throughout the majority<br />
of my life I pushed on past obstacles without fully understanding why I didn't want to give<br />
up; passion may have been the reason from time to time. But with raising a child I found out it<br />
takes more than that, it takes true compassion. A virtue I thought would come naturally, giving<br />
the father-daughter bond. Unfortunately the inner frustrations that I had toward myself had been<br />
like a cancer spreading throughout my life and affected those closest to me. I needed to learn<br />
how to appreciate who I am, and what I have in order to feel confidence and unconditional love<br />
for others; mainly my daughter.<br />
“There are three types of people in the world, those who make things happen, those<br />
who watch things happen and those who wonder what’s happening!” ― Anonymous<br />
Years from now I don't want to wonder what had happened to my daughter and the relationship<br />
that we share. This brings to mind one of the Bruce Willis Die Hard films "Live Free or Die<br />
Hard”. The film displays Bruce Willis as a father along with his estranged daughter. What pulled<br />
me into this particular movie is that throughout the whole film Bruce Willis struggles with his<br />
relationship with his daughter. She grew up to have all of his tough and challenging attributes.<br />
They seem more like twins then father and daughter, bumping heads whenever they were together.<br />
The funny aspect of this relationship is that I wouldn't mind my daughter growing up to<br />
be this tough feminine woman. But on the other hand I don't want to be in Bruce Willis's shoes<br />
where he mostly fights with her, just to make up for the lost time he wasn't able to spend with<br />
her due to work. Now she has sort of rebelled against him and challenges him on everything. On<br />
a daily basis I continue to learn something new about myself and how to be better parent and<br />
person. I steadily collect advice and information from various resources, learn from the mistakes<br />
and experiences of others parents. I always thought that things would be so much easier if there<br />
was some sort of field manual or a How to be A Daddy Book for Dummies, with plenty of illustrative<br />
photos, until I came across a Jim Henson quote where he once said that “Kids don't remember<br />
what you try to teach them. They remember what you are”. Since leaving the military in<br />
2010, I decided to do just that. By adjusting my mentality and allowing my daughter to be a typical<br />
kid, and not prematurely prepping her for the approach of some sort of apocalypse while<br />
most parents are teaching their kids to ride bikes. Allow her to make mistakes without transforming<br />
into Gunnery Sergeant R. Lee Ermey as I’ve been told on numerous occasions.<br />
“I alone cannot change the world, but I can cast a stone across the waters to create<br />
many ripples.” ― Mother Teresa<br />
While growing up on an island in the South Pacific, I always found old wise sayings spoken by the<br />
elders really cool. One saying in particular which stuck with me was told to me by my greatuncle.<br />
"If you drop a pebble into the ocean and the ripples radiate outwards they will touch and<br />
affect everything.” As a child you would never believe that tossing something as simple as a pebble<br />
in the ocean would create a small ripple that could eventually turn into 30 foot swells 500<br />
miles away, waves that would either provide an anxious surfer with that championship wave he<br />
or she has been waiting for, or either a catastrophic one that all coastlines fear. Regardless of<br />
which of the two would develop, it is safe to say that both would potentially create a change. A<br />
change whether modest or traumatic, good or bad; definitely one significant enough to affect<br />
those that would come in contact with it. Obviously there's a hidden lesson to be learned from<br />
this old proverb; or either this old guy's mind had been sun baked a little too long. The lesson is<br />
that decisions we make no matter how small will result in changes of various proportions. The<br />
ripples in my life began in my grandfather's childhood long before I was born which affected my<br />
mother's upbringing and then mines; now it threatens my daughter's childhood.<br />
Twelve years have sprinted by since Jadzia’s birth, and nearly five of those years were spent away<br />
from home on deployments and that’s not even counting the trainings schools I had to attend<br />
that fell in between. Seems like I’m now, finally getting the hang of this “regular guy” persona. At<br />
times I find myself tapping into that warrior ethos mindset, in order to negotiate past the Olympic<br />
styled obstacles life set out in front of me. Who knew that all the years of absent affections<br />
that I never came to experience would later submerge to effect the next generation of relationships<br />
I would be involved in? Will the same be true for my daughter and her kids? I need to<br />
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