A MEMBER REDISCOVERED - Subud World News
A MEMBER REDISCOVERED - Subud World News
A MEMBER REDISCOVERED - Subud World News
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Latihan visited me again this time perhaps because I was at a point when I could<br />
listen. In fact, I had joined a little group of monks who meets three evenings a week<br />
to listen to music. On one of these evenings, preparing for bed, I stood still, and in a<br />
moment my arms rose in a gesture of prayer – and then the dance began.<br />
I wrote to <strong>Subud</strong> International and was put in contact with Richard and Marianne<br />
Harvey. They have visited me twice and Richard and I have done latihan together<br />
in a room in the guesthouse - the guestmaster had been "prepared". I spoke to<br />
Father Abbot about it. I explained it as it is often explained, adding that it was for<br />
me a transparent experience, one that did not block any aspect of my monastic life.<br />
What most pleased him, I said that it was not an "engouement" (a bewitching<br />
fascination). My love for India and its spirituality had been so for me, and having<br />
recognized it as such, I found it necessary to place it for a time in a drawer.<br />
I have found three steps or levels in my experience of latihan. The first is that of the<br />
movements. The second is an awareness of the effects of the experience upon my<br />
life. Most forcefully, it has subdued the power of imagination. The inner cinema<br />
seems to stop, or if it continues, I find that I can simply get up and leave! In this<br />
second step there is for me, as a monk, a reawakening of devotional practices that I<br />
had abandonned some years ago. I listen to the readings during the liturgy with an<br />
ear that captures a new meaning. If there is a term that best describes this second<br />
step, it is that it is a cleansing. The third step I will describe by the use of an image :<br />
the sound of a violin in an inner room. One has to be still to hear it. In making a<br />
gesture of prayer, one finds that the prayer is not in the gesture, and it is not I who<br />
am praying. One finds oneself , if one can be still for a moment, simply in the<br />
presence of prayer.<br />
Being an isolated member I do latihan in my cell about ten minutes each morning,<br />
and the same before retiring. It fits into the structure of my day as snugly as a<br />
window slipped in the place that had been prepared for it. I would hope to invite<br />
another brother monk to join me, but I do not believe that it is yet the time for<br />
that.”