01-26-10 A Place Called Hell Out of Body or Near Death

I was experiencing getting information from a strange, unseen force that was moving the pen in
my hand; however, I thought these powers were simply coming from my subconscious mind.
This occult practice began to take my mind and I dropped into great mental confusion. My body
began to fall apart and I was getting very sick. Funny thing, the doctors could not find anything
wrong but all my strength was drained and I became bedridden. I had an incredible pain in the
left side of my head. I used to read a book a day before getting involved in the occult but during
this time, I could only read witchcraft books.
I kept sinking deeper and deeper into shadows of demons and mental illness. My dear husband,
Vadim loved me and he stopped traveling to be close to me and protect me from the insane
asylum. Also, after my deliverance, he admitted that he was afraid to leave the children home
alone with me and he knew that I had become mentally ill.
I continued my descent into the terror of hell, reading occult books and doing automatic writing.
One day, the children were watching television at the foot of my bed. I was practicing automatic
writing. A message came that said, “Your children will suddenly fall over and go to sleep. Don’t
worry we will take care of them. Then we are going to come in and possess you.”
Absolute total fear came upon me. I asked, “Who are you” as before I’d only been getting
information one source and now it became “we.” The writing said, “We are the spirits.” The fear
continued to rage in my spirit. I asked, “What kind of spirits?” They replied they were the
“good” spirits. The words “possess you,” kept running through my mind. I asked “Is there a
God?” “Yes,” the spirit writer replied. “Is there a devil?” The reply came, “Yes.”
I was not spiritual and was just dabbling into these powers thinking the information was just
coming from my own mind. But the word, “Possess” frightened me because I knew if these
things were real, I’d lose control of my will. I told them “No, I don’t want you to come in.” The
spirits became agitated and the message came, “We will wait until you go to sleep and then we
will come in then.” The more I resisted, the demons became meaner and more threatening. “You
will let us in; we will hurt you; kill your children, etc.”
The Devil knows that he can only make things happen in the realm of the earth by getting his
intended victim’s agreement. This spiritual agreement comes into effect by the victim listening to
the demonic voice and helplessly accepting the demonic plan. However, God was working with
me by putting an overwhelming fear upon me to resist him.
Then Devil appear in my room and stark fear fell on me, I cried out to the “Unknown God,” “If
you are real God, protect me from these evil spirits and I’ll serve You for the rest of my life.”
I felt an immense peace enter into my room. That night, God took me at my word and began to
lead me by His Spirit. He guided me to a small Bible study that I had talked to during my
campaign when I ran for the Florida Legislation.
I found Jesus and I’ve never been the same since. Jesus became my Lord and Savior.
There truly is a God but sometimes people have to fall into the hands of the Devil before they
can find Him. Remember, I experienced the reality that God was existed when I died at age 23
but was powerless to change my life. He left me to my own evil devices to run into the arms of
Satan. No one can dabble in the occult and come away unshackled. It is not harmless games and
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