May - the Free Presbyterian church of Scotland
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. The <strong>Free</strong> <strong>Presbyterian</strong> MaKazine.<br />
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that, I may show her that one thing needful to know Thee-how<br />
Thou needest to be known unto salvation.': 'For I thought, "I •<br />
know this is <strong>the</strong> one thing needful, as <strong>the</strong> Uoly Spirit declares it<br />
.in that way-' This is life eternal, that <strong>the</strong>y might know <strong>the</strong>e, <strong>the</strong><br />
only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent.'"<br />
And this,. my dear friends, it has pleased <strong>the</strong> Lord to teach a<br />
little experimentally to me, <strong>the</strong> most wretched, yea, <strong>the</strong> blindest,<br />
having' tarried so long in so many ways and by-paths, thinking so<br />
<strong>of</strong>ten that I was right. There were several benefits <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> Lord<br />
toward me, at <strong>the</strong> administering <strong>of</strong> which I was deeply humbled<br />
in <strong>the</strong> dust. Being perished in soul under <strong>the</strong> judgment <strong>of</strong> God,<br />
on account <strong>of</strong> original and actual sin, <strong>the</strong> Mediator was revealed<br />
in acquittal <strong>of</strong> my conscience; <strong>the</strong> peace <strong>of</strong> God came down, and<br />
love, joy, and peace entered .my soul. A year afterwards Jesus<br />
was revealed and qeclared to me, with a whole twining-out and<br />
excluding <strong>of</strong> me·-poor, foolish creature-as given from <strong>the</strong><br />
Fa<strong>the</strong>r for wisdom, righteousness, sanctification, and redemption.<br />
About three years afterwards I was led into <strong>the</strong> decree <strong>of</strong> God in<br />
<strong>the</strong> never-begun eternity, and was taken up into it and established<br />
with <strong>the</strong>se words: "I am God, even thy God, for ever and ever;<br />
I will be your guide even unto death "--a blessed state <strong>of</strong> my<br />
souL But, my dear friends, as long as I (self) was out <strong>of</strong> it, God<br />
was in it; but when that dear Being withdrew a little, I (self)<br />
came into it. I did not look at God, but at <strong>the</strong> benefits; I<br />
became toe man (proud) before I knew it. I praised <strong>the</strong> Lord,<br />
but getting nearer light, I saw that my own glory was sitting on<br />
<strong>the</strong> throne. I grew on <strong>the</strong> benefits. I was a goud, converted<br />
man. I knew very well-being led back by His gtace to <strong>the</strong><br />
forgiveness <strong>of</strong> my sins-how I had been called; <strong>the</strong> way <strong>the</strong><br />
Mediator had been revealed to me; how I, at <strong>the</strong> end <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> law,<br />
'had put my hand to (signed) my sentence <strong>of</strong> death, and was<br />
perished under .God's judgment, not only in consent but actually<br />
(in experience); and so on, as I have written you a little here<br />
before. But oh, oh, my dear friends, how I was quite struck with<br />
it when all this turned to my guilt-that I had forsaken <strong>the</strong> Lord<br />
and had become <strong>the</strong> man (proud) by it, and had sought and had<br />
my foundation and life in it. What was first brought home to me<br />
was <strong>the</strong> absence <strong>of</strong> God (my missing God); <strong>the</strong>n <strong>the</strong> cause-I had<br />
forsaken <strong>the</strong> fountain <strong>of</strong> living waters; and <strong>the</strong>re I lay down<br />
before God in my want, being myself <strong>the</strong> cause. The Holy<br />
Spirit clears up my way from .Shittim unto Gilgal, and, behold,<br />
. <strong>the</strong>re 1. thought to be saved and to get again into <strong>the</strong> benefits;<br />
but see, my friends, <strong>the</strong> Lord takes away (hides) <strong>the</strong> benefits, as<br />
if I had never enjoyed <strong>the</strong>m. There, <strong>the</strong>re my cry went up; I<br />
missed God; it was my own guilt; I was pained at my very<br />
heart. I cried unto God, "I cannot get through it; heip me, I<br />
. perish." . And <strong>the</strong>re, my dear friends, God reveals again <strong>the</strong> Lord<br />
Jesus with <strong>the</strong>se -words, " Behold, it is I; behold, it is -I." I am<br />
taken up out <strong>of</strong> my guilt andplacedbefore <strong>the</strong> Fa<strong>the</strong>r; <strong>the</strong> Fa<strong>the</strong>r