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Sold like Chickens: Trafficked Cambodian Girls Speak Out<br />
S. Hudd<br />
2.4 HOW THE GIRLS FEEL ABOUT PAST, PRESENT AND FUTURE<br />
One girl said that she felt reborn in the center.<br />
The Past<br />
The girls were asked to describe how they felt when in the brothel.<br />
They listed their feelings as follows:<br />
! Afraid of the beatings and the drugs; worried about the long term effects of the drugs<br />
! Afraid of getting pregnant.<br />
! Afraid of getting AIDS or other diseases<br />
! Regret that they trusted people who promised them good jobs<br />
! Confused about why it was happening to them<br />
! Despair; Hopeless, Feeling that there is no future for them and that they will never be happy again<br />
! Sad; Suicidal; Helpless; Stupid; Pessimistic.<br />
! Alone; Feeling that no-one is paying attention to their problems<br />
! Worried that even when they get out of the brothel, people will discriminate against them and look<br />
down on them<br />
! Missing their parents and siblings<br />
! Watched, even when they went to the toilet.<br />
! Afraid of giving their family a bad name, ashamed to go back to their village.<br />
! Sorry about the loss of their virginity.<br />
! Afraid that if they run away the pimp will kill them or the money they owe will be doubled.<br />
The Present<br />
The girls were asked how they feel now that they have been rescued and are living in the centers. They<br />
listed their feelings as follows:<br />
! Happy because they are no longer in the brothel and they can see their parents again; Relieved and<br />
more relaxed<br />
! That what they have gone through has passed and they will never have to go through the same<br />
experience again<br />
! That they now are loved and have affection again<br />
! That they will be able to take care of themselves, study, and find a good job.<br />
! That they want to help other girls so they don’t have the same experience<br />
! Free; Optimistic about the future<br />
The Future<br />
They were asked how they felt about the future and what they wanted for themselves in the future.<br />
Some girls feel worried about the future because they still “owe” the brothel owner money. This would<br />
have been money that the owner spent on medicine or clothing and so on for them. They are fearful that the<br />
owner will find them and demand to be paid.<br />
Generally however they feel optimistic about the future.<br />
One girl said that she wants the center to help her and support her into the future and also help her brothers<br />
and sisters. Another girl wants to explain to her brothers and sisters that they need to study hard and look<br />
after themselves well.<br />
The girls want to have a profession such as sewing or to work in a factory to support their family. They<br />
would like non-government organizations to help them to set up their own small businesses, such as a small<br />
hairdressing shop. They would like the center or NGO to follow up with them after they go home or move<br />
to independent living. Many said that when they have a job, they want to teach their skills to girls in centers<br />
because they want to pass on their learning to help others. They want to have their own house and some<br />
money so that other people won’t look down on them.<br />
<strong>COSECAM</strong> Report on First Workshop 28-31 March 2003<br />
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