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Sold like Chickens: Trafficked Cambodian Girls Speak Out<br />

S. Hudd<br />

2.4 HOW THE GIRLS FEEL ABOUT PAST, PRESENT AND FUTURE<br />

One girl said that she felt reborn in the center.<br />

The Past<br />

The girls were asked to describe how they felt when in the brothel.<br />

They listed their feelings as follows:<br />

! Afraid of the beatings and the drugs; worried about the long term effects of the drugs<br />

! Afraid of getting pregnant.<br />

! Afraid of getting AIDS or other diseases<br />

! Regret that they trusted people who promised them good jobs<br />

! Confused about why it was happening to them<br />

! Despair; Hopeless, Feeling that there is no future for them and that they will never be happy again<br />

! Sad; Suicidal; Helpless; Stupid; Pessimistic.<br />

! Alone; Feeling that no-one is paying attention to their problems<br />

! Worried that even when they get out of the brothel, people will discriminate against them and look<br />

down on them<br />

! Missing their parents and siblings<br />

! Watched, even when they went to the toilet.<br />

! Afraid of giving their family a bad name, ashamed to go back to their village.<br />

! Sorry about the loss of their virginity.<br />

! Afraid that if they run away the pimp will kill them or the money they owe will be doubled.<br />

The Present<br />

The girls were asked how they feel now that they have been rescued and are living in the centers. They<br />

listed their feelings as follows:<br />

! Happy because they are no longer in the brothel and they can see their parents again; Relieved and<br />

more relaxed<br />

! That what they have gone through has passed and they will never have to go through the same<br />

experience again<br />

! That they now are loved and have affection again<br />

! That they will be able to take care of themselves, study, and find a good job.<br />

! That they want to help other girls so they don’t have the same experience<br />

! Free; Optimistic about the future<br />

The Future<br />

They were asked how they felt about the future and what they wanted for themselves in the future.<br />

Some girls feel worried about the future because they still “owe” the brothel owner money. This would<br />

have been money that the owner spent on medicine or clothing and so on for them. They are fearful that the<br />

owner will find them and demand to be paid.<br />

Generally however they feel optimistic about the future.<br />

One girl said that she wants the center to help her and support her into the future and also help her brothers<br />

and sisters. Another girl wants to explain to her brothers and sisters that they need to study hard and look<br />

after themselves well.<br />

The girls want to have a profession such as sewing or to work in a factory to support their family. They<br />

would like non-government organizations to help them to set up their own small businesses, such as a small<br />

hairdressing shop. They would like the center or NGO to follow up with them after they go home or move<br />

to independent living. Many said that when they have a job, they want to teach their skills to girls in centers<br />

because they want to pass on their learning to help others. They want to have their own house and some<br />

money so that other people won’t look down on them.<br />

<strong>COSECAM</strong> Report on First Workshop 28-31 March 2003<br />

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