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medium height, with closely cropped brownish-red hair.<br />
He was something of a dandy, preferring Ralph Lauren<br />
and Hilfiger items right down to his socks. He had a passion<br />
for hats. His one great feature was his piercing blue eyes,<br />
made even brighter, at times by contacts of a brighter blue.<br />
Sometimes he wore a goatee, which gave him a bit of pirate<br />
look.<br />
In a university of up and coming young professors, you<br />
could have turned a building on its side, and seen four or five<br />
men that looked just like Ian, or at least similar. The difference<br />
was that Ian had a charisma that drew women like flies, and<br />
made men all desire to be his friend. He had a charm and<br />
gracefulness that seemed to highlight his every move. He<br />
seemed to have no enemies, even in what could be a cutthroat<br />
university political arena. He got brilliant evaluations,<br />
and within two years of his graduation, had published his<br />
first book, about the origin of English fables and poems.<br />
Rhonda, who dreamed of someday becoming a writer,<br />
and who had a passion for the English culture, had never been<br />
in love before. She was a shy, somewhat socially awkward<br />
young woman. She’d been awed by the love and commitment<br />
her parents had, and secretly believed that she would never<br />
be able to duplicate it. She was also a devout Catholic,<br />
graduated of a strict, all-girls school, and at nineteen, when<br />
she met Ian, was a virgin, determined to remain that way<br />
until she married.<br />
Her sorority sisters made fun of her desire to remain<br />
virtuous and called her “Saint Rhonda.” Ian, once they began<br />
dating, tried seducing her, using everything that worked with<br />
countless other women. Rhonda firmly resisted him.<br />
Ian then tried pouting, dating other women, doing things<br />
that he was sure would made Rhonda fear that she lost him.<br />
Yet, she was made of stronger stuff, and Ian soon saw that<br />
no matter his attempts to manipulate her into bed, it would<br />
not happen without a wedding ring. He had to grudgingly<br />
admire her faith, and her commitment to it, although he did<br />
not in any way share it.<br />
In Rhonda’s senior year of college, Ian asked her to marry<br />
him. Rhonda accepted. Soon after their wedding, right after<br />
she graduated, they found out that she was pregnant. Within<br />
two months however, she miscarried. She grieved her loss,<br />
and started working on a graduate degree in education.<br />
Ian didn’t like the time that her courses took away from<br />
him, and complained bitterly. He wanted her to be available<br />
to travel with him, be his hostess at parties, to go to all the<br />
university events that would further advance his career. He<br />
had somewhat of an overbearing personality, that tended to<br />
dominate Rhonda’s somewhat timid one, and within a few<br />
semesters, she dropped out of graduate school. It was easier<br />
to do what he wanted, than to deal with his anger when she<br />
didn’t.<br />
Three years into their marriage, she’d gotten pregnant<br />
again. Ian was thrilled. He saw all of his peers with growing<br />
families, and often complained bitterly about not having<br />
children. During the pregnancy, gestational diabetes was<br />
diagnosed. The last four months of the pregnancy, Rhonda<br />
was confined to strict bed rest.<br />
During this time, although Ian was unhappy about<br />
her not being able to attend activities with him, he seemed<br />
supportive, and most times, loving. If something seemed<br />
missing in the way that he treated her, Rhonda didn’t often<br />
let herself think of it. They had a wonderful house in a great<br />
neighborhood, and they were going to have a baby. Things<br />
would surely get better once their child was born.<br />
Jason was born a few weeks early, weak, and sickly. At<br />
first, he was not expected to survive. However, by prayer and<br />
by miracle, he not only overcame his early issues, but became<br />
a healthy and thriving young boy by the time he reached<br />
toddler years.<br />
The gestational diabetes turned to an ongoing problem<br />
for Rhonda. She was put on insulin, and Ian learned along<br />
with her to monitor her blood sugars, eat healthier, and<br />
administer insulin.<br />
It was just after Jason was a year old that Rhonda noted<br />
anything unusual. At first there were hang-up calls. It was<br />
always in the evenings when Ian was home, and Rhonda got<br />
to the phone first. Then, she thought she smelled perfume<br />
on his shirts when she was laundering them. She told herself<br />
she was imagining things. Ian was perfectly happy. They were<br />
the family he wanted: picture postcard perfect, photogenic,<br />
happy, smiling. People envied them their life. Why would he<br />
be dissatisfied<br />
Then she found him with a freshman, Stacey Elliott, in<br />
his office. She opened the door without knocking, and saw<br />
them, clothing disheveled, in an embrace. She turned and<br />
walked the three blocks home, her heart full of an icy feeling,<br />
feeling as if someone had punched her in the stomach.<br />
Before Ian had time to get home, she packed up Jason<br />
and herself and was heading in her station wagon, to<br />
Pennsylvania.<br />
She and Jason stayed with her parents for nearly a year.<br />
Her father fixed up a storage room over their garage into an<br />
apartment for the two of them, to give them privacy. Rhonda<br />
found a job as a secretary, and considered what to do next.<br />
For the first few months, she ignored Ian’s phone calls, and<br />
refused to read his letters or emails.<br />
Finally, she agreed to meet him for a meal. Ian was deeply<br />
repentant, or so it seemed. He told her that the relationship<br />
had been a one-time thing, and that he would never do it<br />
again. He told her he loved her and Jason. He begged them<br />
to come home. His passion impressed her, and Rhonda—<br />
thinking of her parents’ many decades of marriage—relented.<br />
She returned home.<br />
In the years to come, the promise not to stray was broken<br />
so many times that Rhonda lost count. Gradually, she lost<br />
love and respect for her husband, but she didn’t know what<br />
62 <strong>Suspense</strong> <strong>Magazine</strong> <strong>November</strong> <strong>2012</strong> / Vol. 040